Beginning of the end?

I find writing my journal helps massively. I really enjoy it when people comment and compare their experiences with mine.

Your situation is different though in that your Mistress is remote. The very fact that you have made it through two weeks though is a good sign. Everyone is different but I find my hornyness comes in waves. After three weeks I find the initial levels dip a bit, but then I become constantly stimulated by the smallest of things. I have learned to love this feeling and actually miss it when I am allowed or made to have an orgasm. So much so I have asked if I can go until at least the end of lent, March 24. That would be a total of about 8 weeks.

Good luck.

 

Amazing! What you described about seeing women differently is exactly, I mean exactly what I went through while chaste, a complete 180 from how I normally viewed women.

 

As @Mistress Lucy pointed out, it never really goes away. Being someone who knows what you're going through, I've been guilty of the same conflicting emotions that you're feeling, which ended up manifesting itself as whining for me. For me, the hardest part is seeing all the sexy women around the office or seeking all the sexy commercials and ads all around us. It helps when you remember that you can't just quit, you don't actually have a choice, you verbally agreed to a contract of sort and going against that would be despicable. You're stuck, so you have to just start getting used to it. The only thing you can do is keep a diary, keep her happy, and avoid any whining, cause it'll only get you punishment.

 

i agree. talking about it wont necessarily help. Personally I would just try to forget about your penis and try and be productive.

 

That just sounds like a waist of money to me

 

Sounds like torture for a guy locked in chastity.

 

yes but some men likes being tortue cos i seen them.

 

Well shame on you for being so shallow before but congratulations on finally seeing the light. If you'd like to share any of the specific women or experiences of them (or for them) that have given you that special satisfaction I'd enjoy hearing more (either publicly or privately). I think my favorite definition of love is having no expectations........chastity brings that with time. Even discomfort can be special because it reminds one to focus on others over oneself. Of course if there is a special someone who knows and appreciates how much you love and value her above all then those feelings of longing are a special gift to help maintain your focus on her. It is sooooo sweet, no?

 

so how are you doing? I hope you are starting to realize some of the benefits of your devotion and feeling even prouder of your special status as a locked male.........please let your horniness remind you of these things but try to think of it as your "new normal". If I or your other supporters here at CM can help remember we are "here for you"

 

I realize the benefits even more so now after actually experiencing them first hand. As you described, when I'm locked, have been chaste for a while, and have no way to relieve the sexual desire that's overflowing, it makes me view women differently. It's as if because I can't even achieve an erection, much less masturbate, it's forcing me to admire beautiful women that I see (sometimes dressed very sexy) in ways I never imagined.

Usually, when I was turned on by a woman, all I would do was objectify her sexually and masturbate those feelings out as soon as I got a chance (I know, I know I have very disrespectful tendencies that I'm battling), but now I'm forced to learn how to deal with that lust. Forced to be in the presence of a women that I want so badly, but all I can do is admire her personality, hair, perfume, makeup, dress, pedicure, etc.

While I realize the benefits, it's still not easy. I feel insanely horny all the time and every beautiful or sexy woman I see makes me feel like dropping to my knees and doing whatever they ask of me, certainly a far cry from the chauvinistic behavior I exhibited before chastity. If it were not for a very strict woman enforcing my chastity, I don't believe I would've lasted even this long.

 

you are very fortunate to be so closely managed.........your keyholder must be very wise (as well as beautiful)

 

That's awesome! Good for him!

 

oooh what a naughty man he is. he shud be lock up forever now for doing that.