New start!

Looking forward to things slowing down after this weekend. Her workload has been insane and will go back to normal on Monday.

Yesterday I was giving her a back massage as she was getting ready for bed. she then started teasing me with her feet. I told her that being denied for almost two weeks has been difficult. She told me to go to the bathroom to "take care of myself". I told her that I was hoping we could be intimate, but she then sternly said that it was an order, to thank her, and close the door.

So, I masturbated by myself in the bathroom. When I came out, I simply kissed her good night, thanked her and went to sleep.

The next day I asked her about it and she simply said that she is too drained to do anything sexual but has been extremely pleased with my dedication and felt that I should be rewarded.

 

she seems keen on this lifestyle & wants you to see that; all the while needing you to be patient & accepting she can’t be “on” all of the time?

working together & a 4-year old in the house bring additional challenges I’d expect.

my partner is open to more, and willing to indulge my kink, but she’s often overwhelmed / stressed out by wider life in general & I now understand that’s when I need to back-off & let her re-centre at her own pace. pushing too hard at the wrong time kills the vibe quicker than anything.

 

thanks for the reply.

Yes, she is keen... I vent here about her being distracted but I have been just doing what I am supposed to be doing and letting her be.

As frustrating as it is, I think it probably is best that we as a couple started this journey again but during some very challenging times. I believe that it is proving to her that I am serious about this life change.