My gf and I have been experimenting with orgasm control and a few other femdom interests. I am definitely the one who initiated it and have always felt submissive. She is warming up to being the dominant party really well. We have not started full chastity training yet, but I have been eyeing up a holy trainer. So far we have just been using the honor code. I have had cuckold desires for a long time, but have not fully discussed this with my gf yet. Recently, I have developed a major desire to service a man. I have never been with a guy, but I have a yearning to be dominated and forced to submit to a guy, especially orally. I don't know if this is because I am especially horny, or it is a genuine desire of mine. It has been over two weeks since i was last allowed a release and I get teased every other day. Has anyone else had a similar experience? I am worried to discuss it with my gf, in case she thinks it would make me gay. I have no real attraction or arousal from men. I think it is just a desire to display my submission, but i'm not sure
Your feelings are understandable. If it's your first time in chastity you may want to look into milking, or prostate draining. It's a way to remove some of the seminal fluid with out letting you orgasm. Good luck and welcome to CM
Thanks GT. I will def look into it. I think it is similar to wanting to eat my own cum. Before I blow my load, i really want it, but afterwards, I hate the idea. I think it would be the same with being with a man
In which case don't try it bad sex is rubbish . I suppose you could look at gay porn after cuming to see what you feel then. Or have fun with the guy but don't climax. Xx Wendy
i much rather be with Ladys than men but making men cum makes me feel important cos im making them do it.
I've had some of these feelings too, though haven't gone through with it. I think it comes from my submission kink . . . and long denial makes it more intense. Does your gf want you to do it? I think a safe way to play with these feelings is to watch gay porn together, and maybe have a dildo handy If your gf is into it, all the better!
As @Rick Lim said, I think those feelings come from long chastity period and your submission kink. Now that I was introduced to chastity and orgasm denial, I am interested in a lot of things that would not turn me on before (and even turn me off), like cum eating and bisexuality. In my case, I've come to enjoy those things because I'm submissive to my domme, and if she's enjoying it, I'm enjoying it ! Don't get me wrong it could take time before being used to something, it took me a while before really enjoying cum eating but now it's normal to me and I'm not disguted by it anymore. On top of that, if you are aroused by something before cumming, just do it before cumming. Even if it's not a genuine desire of yours, but if you can get pleasure out of it while in chastity, then just do it. That's what I learn with chastity.