look guy - women don't like to hear this, much less admit it, that hormones effect our lives. it's not PC. truth be told, would you want someone saying "it's not you it's the hormones" - like your a slave to them? the problem is (more for some than others) that when the body calls for more or less estrogen - it's not an order, but merely a suggestion, and the body can give us double, half or anywhere in between. if it were only estrogen then maybe it would be different but there are 5 major hormones at play going up and down at different levels each month. this means we see things differently from moment to moment. each one of us deal with it on our own terms (some better than others). so sometimes when we see things differently we might say something that we would like to take back when our hormone induced view changes. this fact has been used against women for thousands of years in one way or another. the fact that the hormones are present, it is seen as a weakness not a strength and admitting it would be counter productive. for ma'ats, we see it as a reason to be in control -- absolute control. guys don't have a chance of keeping up. by the way this constant change is seen by ma'ats as an advantage not a handicap. we can look at a problem ten different ways without any effort and come up with comprehensive solutions where guys are stuck with the same perception they started with.
let's talk sex: a women was expected to lay there and let the man do his best and HOPE he gets it right this time. whether we get it or not, he would! AND then start the process over again while women are waiting for the HOPE the next time. when the guy really rings her bell, he thinks this is the key and he keeps doing the same thing time after time. but he keeps failing us time after time. it's not his fault that he can't keep up with her hormones. most women get a little tired of men being able to get it every try and her a hit-or-miss option. as a ma'at, we are taught "our orgasms are our responsibility". the puck must be trained to follow instructions completely and without question. only then can i direct him to do what feels good at that moment; because the next time, i may need him to do something entirely different. then you have those who just don't believe it is worth the effort so they keep you locked up and never use it.... that was your choice as well.
now there is another side to this which alters the picture completely. sperm is a hormonal/chemical cocktail that has a direct effect on woman, especially if 6 months have past since their last injection. most of the time, men have more estrogen in their semen than I have in my blood. it is absorbed and it can bring on ovulation a week early. sperm has two anti-depressants in it as well as many anti-microbial. so having sex with you could send her on a roller coaster ride she has no desire to be on.
then there are the effects of sex on men. your behavior afterwards is largely effected by two things. studies show that men's orgasms release prolactin in there blood causing them to lose sexual energy and have no interest in their spouse - the classic rollover and crash. the type of orgasm affects the amount of prolactin that is released. masturbation yields very little prolactin where intercourse floods the body. two weeks of no sex gives the same amount of prolactin in the blood as having sex and remains until you do have relief. the second thing is when the sperm is being replaced in your body the testosterone goes up making you less cooperative. a ma'at's solution is to have lots of sex where he does exactly as he is told yet his orgasm is almost always ruined to keep the prolactin down. he is locked up immediately to demonstrate his place and my control, as well as preventing any solo activity. if he has sexual energy - it belongs to me!!
bottom line here is - it is not your place to understand but to serve. the key holder decides how you can best do that and in your case you asked for this. sounds like you got what you asked for! so the next time, smile and say thank you ma'am.
