An ongoing experience of chastity and love

Ugh just got the ultimate tease, it was a tease of a tease. I went home for lunch from work like I always do. Mistress was home studying for her GRE test, she had been out by the pool earlier getting even more of a tan while studying and looking sexier than ever. She must've just gotten out of the bath right before I got home because she was in her bathrobe. While I was eating my pb&j sandwich she untied her robe and exposed her breasts and freshly shaven pussy to me.

Mistress asked if I'd rather have that for lunch. I smiled and says yes I would love that for lunch. She just smiled and sat on our couch while I finished my sandwich at our dining room table. I joined her in our living room where we chatted for a minute. Then I told her I'd really like to eat her out for lunch. Mistress looked pleased, she told me to turn down the bed and she'd be in right after me. She untied the robe and let it slip to the floor off of her beautiful body. She laid on the bed spreading her legs for me. I stayed in my work clothes except my shoes and got into my favorite position (my head between her legs). Just as I started to lick she told me to stop. She sadly said if I make her cum now she'll never get anything done for the rest of the day. I lay there with her taste in my mouth and I was craving more. Instead mistress had me give her a back rub before I had to leave for work again.

That drove me insane! I wasn't even going to get to cum but I wanted to lick her so bad. My device grew tighter and I was left with this kind of frustration yet satisfaction by rubbing her shoulders. God I wanted so much more but that was not to be on this lunch hour. And yes I'm locked back up again

 

A while back when mistress and I first started my chastity I was always so anxious to progress things and try to get to the next perceived level. It took me about a year to realize that I just needed to slow down and appreciate what mistress was doing for me and for us and let her take her time.

I remember posting on another forum a while back asking other experienced members how things might progress. It was a stupid question really because everyone is different and everyone progresses differently in regards to their desires in life and whatever else. One individuals post back to me always stuck with me but didn't really completely ring true until just the last couple of months. That person said something along the lines of "the more you get into chastity the less there will be to talk about it". Well it's true, a few months back I was at a point where mistress and I thought we were going to have permanently remove my device because of a problem I thought I was having.

During that time, mistress visibly and verbally made it clear she missed chastity and wanted me locked back up. I also noticed a change in my self after being unlocked for so long. I was reverting back to old habits, it was nice to have the break but I liked how I was becoming so compliant to my mistress. It's like being pulled in two different directions at the same time. Part of me likes my lazy carefree freedom and the other 1/2 of me loves being bossed around and ordered to please my mistress and literally doing almost everything for her. She keeps me on my toes, I can be in the middle of doing something and she'll ask me to get her something. Usually something simple like a glass of water or a tissue or whatever but she has really gotten accustomed to me just getting her whatever she wants and I don't think she really even thinks about it anymore, it's just my job to do whatever she wants.

There were a few different phases I went through before I arrived here. The first phase was me trying super hard to please my mistress by going above and beyond serving her. That was fun for a while but it was hard to maintain that type of servitude and even mistress agreed it was a bit much and she didn't like that over attention so much. In the next phase I actually started to get irritated with her asking me to get her everything. When I would huff around or show lack of obedience or enthusiasm she would just look at me like "this is what you wanted and now you're doing it so get use to it".

The phase in right now is definitely different. I get slightly annoyed but then that feeling turns to a little bit of thrill and I actually get turned on. My reaction to her requests are so automatic now and I find that to be a big turn on too. A few nights ago we were both laying in bed. She was looking at her phone and I was reading. She actually stopped me from reading and told me to get her something from the bathroom. I felt that slight annoyance rise but then immediately dissipate because I was already on my feet doing what she wanted me to do before I even had time to think about what I was doing. I'm definitely at a new level of obedience because my reaction to her request was so automatic. I felt an elation that I had been mentally trained and knowledge of what we are doing (chastity) is real and our lives are now reflected by that.

My wait times to orgasms have mostly been dramatically increased. I am starting to see two week wait times. Mistress said that she was going to really push me and now I and starting to see it. Mistress also told me that she likes waiting for sex for herself until she plans to unlocks me. She says her orgasms are much more intense if she waits for me to give her one when she allows me to have one. Personally I don't love that, I wish she would make me service her and treat me like a sex toy between my orgasms. Maybe one day that will change too I hope so.

I have to say though I am proud of my self when it comes to obedience. Between my last two orgasms I had a lot of uncaged time. I did play with my self to get hard but never went past that although as soon as I'd get hard my cum would literally free flow but I did stop myself before I went to far. We were also on vacation for a week and Mistress didn't want me to be locked up but I still didn't get any playtime then either. Now we are back from vacation and I am locked back up. I probably would've been allowed to orgasm when we got back except that mistress got sick and I am tending to her. All the better that she locked me up I don't think I could've handled being unlocked much longer.

I like how horny I am for mistress but it's not as intense as I thought it would be at the two week mark. Perhaps it's because she doesn't tease me regularly but when she does or if something turns me on it's like I can't turn it off and I'm left throbbing in my device until I can cool down. It's odd and I know I'm not the only one that feels this but when I'm locked for a long period of time my fantasies are darker and more hardcore and sometimes I wish my mistress was on the same level of dirty that I am. On the other hand maybe it's a good thing she's not as dirty as me, I'd be in a lot of trouble.

 

Thanks for sharing your thoughts Jasmic68, it's encouraging to get positive feedback like that and don't worry my posts won't stop they might just be a little further apart than they have been in the past. As you've already read with my most resent posts, they have more to do with my thoughts and feelings versus any sexual encounters with mistress although I'll definitely include those whenever they might occur in the future.

I also couldn't agree with you more about a lot of recent members and recent posting to the Mansion that have been rediculous and unrealistic. Fantasy driven males disguising themselves as mistresses because they have nothing better to do etc etc... This is part of the reason I haven't politely re-requested my mistress to look into joining the sight, brought it up in the past but she wasn't interested then and I haven't mentioned it again. Sounds like a lot of the mistresses who are on this site get bombarded with messages from single horny men who are just trying to get some female attention and sexual satisfaction. I hope your mistress hasn't been bothered too much, I see that she recently joined.

I imagine that those who are just looking to get there jollies off at the Mansion will come and go in short order and those of us who are serious members and serious about chastity will continue to tell our stories and keep the truthful content coming.

 

What a blur the last couple of weeks have been for mistress and I. 2 weeks ago we were on vacation at a family reunion up in a lake resort town a few hours from where we live. It was fun but exhausting to coordinate with that many people not including all the toddlers that were around.

Mistress allowed me to remain unlocked for the trip, I suppose she had little worry about me doing anything considering we were nearly always together wherever we went. It was a nice trip but it's good to be back, sometimes you need a vacation from your vacation.

One downside to the trip was that several people got sick and mistress was one of them. Some sort of nasty cold going around with the kids I guess. That prolonged my lockup to her dismay and she pushed me nearly 2 weeks before she allowed me to cum. I actually asked her if we could wait a bit longer because she was still under the weather and I wanted to be very passionate with her. She just told me to shut up and follow her directions. I did so and ended up cuming nearly 2 weeks of buildup all over her big titties. She was quite pleased, I was happy too but still wish she would have made me wait because I really wanted to make out with her.

I thought I would have had more of a mental struggle with going past a week, it's not that I haven't gone past a week before but never close to two weeks. I was definitely horny but it never felt over the top I can't handle this type horniness that I was expecting. I actually felt as though I could've gone quite a bit longer and honestly was hoping for the challenge. What I have found this that mistress has her own plans for me and those plans don't have anything to do with what I want or want to try. I can't complain because it's what I signed up for and she makes my life fun and interesting.

The only thing I wish she would do is to lock me up right after each release. I never really want to go back in right after a release anyway but she's been keeping out of my device for several days before locking me back up lately. I find it very tempting to play with myself and have a hard time with self control. I want her to take that control away from me completely, that's why I suggested a PA and a PA 5000 device. The thought of zero access to myself is highly erotic and it makes the chastity play that much more real. I doubt mistress will ever allow me a PA and honestly with the weird little lump that's in my penis right now it's probably not the best idea to go poking holes around there.

Anyway I don't want to come off as complaining I'm just airing out some thoughts. On that note the last thing I'll say is I can't wait for our play to amp back up again. I always feel that whenever we "step out of character" our roles as domme/sub seem to lessen and become less serious. I want my mistress to become a very serious domme and really try to push me. For instance she was just playing around but she smacked me on my ass with a large plastic ladle from our kitchen. It stung and she could see that it hurt me and she actually seemed to enjoy it. She proceeded to whack me a few more time then mentally cataloging the tool for later use on me (I'm hoping). It actually physically stung quite a bit but mentally I wanted her to hit me more. I wanted her to make me bend over, pull my pants down and whack my ass until it was red all over and make me sorry for whatever I've done.

 

I've been spoiled lately a few different times. Mistress has been generous. Last week when I came home as usual on my lunch break mistress was very horny. I'd already been locked over a week and was feeling fairly horny as I do about that point. Mistress and I were kissing on each other softly when she told me she was going to make me cum on her chest. My device tightened quite a bit at her telling me that.

Mistress lead me to our master bedroom and instructed me to find some lubricant. I quickly grabbed the anal silicon lubricant that's always in my underwear drawer and presented it to my queen. She lead me to the master bathroom then turned back to me. She was wearing a very cute short black dress with gold buttons and a belt. The dress is very pretty on her and I love seeing her in it. It's not slutty by any means just very cute and it really gets me going.

She kneeled in front of me and undid my belt, then my top button and slowly unzipped me. She then unbuttoned and unzipped her dress showing off her bare chest, exposing those beautiful breasts to me. She just looked up and smiled and told me she didn't want me to cum on her new dress. She handed me the key to my device and I quickly got myself out as she watch from a foot away still on her knees. After I was out she took the lubricant and put a liberal amount on her hand. She grasped my cock firmly looked me in the eyes and told me I was to cum all over her breasts.

I was so horny and excited, I knew I had so much cum in me I was going cover her entire chest. Mistress started to stroke me, she gripped me tight as she pumped, the silicone lube making her job that much easier. I'm sure it was only a 1/2 minute later I felt my orgasm start, I just started to drip cum and then the large spurts began. Spurt after spurt splattered mistresses chest and started to drip down her. There was so much just as we expected, I was feeling very good and mistress loves when I cum on her especially when it's a lot, it's a huge turn on.

She pumped me till I was dry and to sensitive to handle anymore. I was on cloud nine and it was a beautiful picture seeing her with so much cum on her chest. I'm going mentally catalog that image for the rest of my life. Mistress grabbed a towel and roughly wiped down my still sensitive cock and then started wiping away the layer of cum on her chest. I did my pants back up and stumbled out to my car as I still had 5 more hours to work. It was such a wonderful gift, I just wanted to stay home and play with mistress for the rest of the day.

There is more to come, it's been a wonderful couple of weeks, I'll have another update here soon.

 

Wanted to post a quick update, things are going well in our world over here. A week or so back I posted a thread about wanting my mistress to punish me. I posted that particular thread just to hear others perspectives on my mistress and i's situation. Basically I thought the chastity fire we started early last year was dying down, so I asked mistress if we could spice things up maybe by her punishing me when I make her upset or forget to do something she asks me to.

Anyway the thread is kind of amusing to read if you care to take the time, it's called "am I being to pushy". The short end of it was that certain individuals helped me gain some insight to my relationship and there were two things that were major red flags that I was blind too. First thing was, was I hadn't asked my mistress what direction she would like to take our relationship. In all fairness to me, mistress doesn't venture onto the Internet and go to forums like this to look for new ideas for us to try. So in a way that left the ideas up to me. I was much pushier in the past about trying things especially when we first started out on this road and it was made clear to me that I was topping from the bottom.

At this point I realized that although I was in chastity and my device only came off when my mistress wanted it to I was still the one pushing my agenda on her when it should've been the other way around. Once I got that through my head mistress started to relax more and enjoy herself as my domme and mistress. My problem was that I had viewed so much porn over the years and created fantasies that when mistress agreed to chastity there were already so many bdsm and kink things I wanted to try and this finally opened the door to that world. So in essence I was I was like a kid in a candy shop for the first time and naturally wanted to try everything.

It took me the better part of that first year locked up to mature enough and really understand that if this lifestyle is going to work for us then I truly have to make my new life goal serving and making my mistress happy. Even at that point I figured once we got the ball rolling and we were both feeling my comfortable in our roles things would get easier for both of us because our relationship as D/s would feel normal. What I failed to realize up until two weeks ago is that I have to put in 100% effort all the time. I need to show my mistress how devoted I am to her and her happiness. Then if I'm lucky other bdsm play could come into play and at that point I'm not topping from the bottom if I make a suggestion to her to try something new.

Once @Glychlock and @Mistress Jules helped me realize I needed to put a lot more effort into our relationship and I needed to ask my mistress on the things she might like to try or experiment with before making any suggestions of my own, things got quite a bit spicier. My mistress was very pleased that I took the time to get help from some awesome people on this forum and look at our relationship from both sides to see where I could improve myself to make our relationship better. In the end after I apologized to mistress for making my suggestion without even asking her what she'd like she actually said that she likes the idea of punishment and wants to punish me when I misbehave. An important thing for me to remember is that even if I come up with an idea, mistress needs to somehow make it her idea with her objectives and goals in mind.

My idea was structured punishment with a list of rules and chores that is abide by. Mistress doesn't want to work that hard and follow a list of chores and whatnot just to punish me. She wants to punish me on her terms and when I deserve it. So it's very unstructured but at the same time she keeps me on my toes. I've been whipped a few times with the riding crop so far. It physically stings but mentally feels so so good to know I'm under that kind of control of such a powerful and beautiful woman. A couple night ago we were laying in bed, I back talked a bit to mistress and she got on my case big time and threatened to whip my ass. She actually kind of made me nervous as she seemed quite serious. Later we talked about it and she said she was very serious about it. We were not playing and it would have been real behavior modification had she decided to whip me.

We are both still learning this lifestyle and both loving it. I just have to remember that if this is what I really want then I need to be 100% trying for my mistress.

 

Anniversary, hot tub and blue balls

Last night Mistress and I celebrated our 6th wedding anniversary. It was a really wonderful evening together. I've been locked up since the 10th of this month so I'm pretty much her puppy dog at this point, I mean I usually am anyway but this week has been different for me. I'm putting more effort into serving mistress and it seems to be paying off.

Ironically even though we've been practicing chastity for a year and a half I finally know what it means to have blue balls. I'd kinda had it in the past but not to the extent that I have this week. I don't really get any sort of trade and denial other than kissing, but it's not like we make out like we used to like when we first started dating. Nevertheless it's a bit of a tease and always gets me hard for mistress.

A few nights back for the second time since we've started chastity mistress let me please her while still caged. In most cases if mistress is in the mood to play or me to play with her my cage comes off. This time she didn't care about letting me out abs she let me rub her clit and we kissed until she came. I was bursting in my cage wanting her so bad but also really turned on by the fact that she wasn't going to let me out. As she was cumming she grabbed my cage tightly and held it. After she calmed down she looked me in the eye and said "that's really exciting having you locked away while you're doing that to me". I just smiled and kissed her neck softly.

I know she's hooked on chastity and has been for a while but I find it amusing that some of the things that I thought were basic chastity practice she is just now discovering how much she likes it. She said she was going to "push me" this time. She's said that before but she still let me out and gave me a release after 9 days. That was a while ago though. Now I'm wondering how serious she really is about pushing me.

Anyway, after pleasuring her while locked I experienced blue balls for the first time. I've kinda had it before but it went away fairly quickly. Now it's stuck around and it tends to come and go. It's not as intense now as I'm getting use to it but now I finally get what people are talking about when they say they've got it bad. I've finally had it bad! It's bearable and getting better but I wish it would just go away. I thought I was clear this morning but it came back while I was at work, I think because my balls dropped down a bit maybe that has something to do with it.

I set up our inflatable hot tub last Friday too, we finally got enjoy that after not setting it up for a couple of years. That worked wonders on my blue balls except that when mistress and I started kissing and I got super hard again. Good news was the hot water helped and I really didn't notice it much after that.

Well I think we've taken another baby step towards female domination with mistress recognizing how much she enjoyed keeping me locked for her pleasure plus starting punishments with me. We'll see what happens.

 

To my Mistress,

I am a fool, you've known exactly what you were doing since you agreed take control of my orgasms and agreed to lock me up. I am a fool because I didn't trust you to find your own way when I should have. This has always been my problem and for that I am sorry. I truly want to be a good boy and help you be who you want to be and help you get what you want out of our lifestyle and relationship. These last 18 months I've learned a lot and I've gotten a lot better about knowing my place, I know I still have a long ways to go and I appreciate your patience, love and guidance.

I find myself envious of some of the couples I read about on this forum and I get ahead of myself wanting what they have and not appreciate what I have right in front of me. I need to learn is patience, self discipline and the fact that we are on our very own path. You are such a calm, patient and loving woman. I don't think I fully grasped how lucky I am to be with you. Not just because you are beautiful but because of everything else that makes you who you are, you are truly special and the best thing that could've ever happened to me.

When I asked for chastity I had my own vision of how it would go. Needless to say it didn't go how I thought, but only because I wasn't mature enough to understand that I needed to let you grow into your role and figure out what you wanted to do. I stood in your way, I'm sorry and I won't do it again. I'm not perfect but I'm really going to try to do this all your way, keep my mouth shut and be a good boy.

18 months into this lifestyle and I see you blossoming into a wonderful domme who I love, adore, respect and strive to please even moreso now than ever before. Not just because I'm locked but because you deserve the best regardless of how we live our lives. You make me such a happy person and I enjoy life so much more because of you. Thank you for being you and thank you for choosing me.

 

I couldn't agree with you more, there are so many phonies and terrible posts at the mansion. Seems the longer I'm here the easier it is to sift through the lies and other bs to find what's really true. I find it amusing when a "couple" join together and you can literally tell it's just some dude having a conversation with himself between his two accounts making up a story as he goes. Or when a supposed mistress is making a post and there are certain kinds of details included in that post that you know no woman would ever talk about or bring up. Seems like the longer we are here, you can find the core of individuals and couples that are speaking the truth and have sound advice. I didn't believe everything I read when I first joined the mansion but I was definitely naive. I wanted to become one of the people who actually can give a solid account of what life under the lock and key is all about. My mistress now has an account but has yet to make an introduction. I hope she will at some point and become an active member because I think she has a lot to offer to others plus learn and discuss some things with some of the more veteran females on here. I'm sticking to my word though and I'm not going to push her into it at all.

 

@Jasmic68
BTW I hope your mistress is feeling better, I saw a few posts of yours saying she was under the weather. I hope all is well and best wishes to you both. I'm sure you're taking care of here just as she deserves

 

There are so many of us on this forum and there are so many different styles that our mistresses can choose to enforce our chastity. It originally my hope that when mistress chose to lock me up that I would be pleasing her sexually in anyway she wished and often. Turns out that most of the time, she likes to hold out just as long as she makes me hold out. Drives me insane because all I ever think about is wanting to please her and play with her so badly. Instead she'll let me look at her bare breasts but not allow me to touch. Just recently she had shaved her pussy bald and when we were laying in bed together she took my hand and let me feel how smooth she was. I could feel my cock flutter, I wanted her so bad. It's been quite a while since we've had any PIV and I find myself longing to be on top of her, making love to her.

However, yesterday I was a lucky boy. It was a total surprise but mistress allowed me to unlock. It was the afternoon and you can pretty much set a clock to my mistress being horny in the early to mid afternoon, that always kills me because inevitably I'm always working when her horniness peaks. And by the end of the night our toddler has usually worn us out so we just end up passing out next to each other with me stroking her back.

Not today though this afternoon mistress and her chaste boy had the afternoon all to ourselves. Mistress verbally gave me a list of instructions which included the key to my lock (told me where it was hiding) a towel and a few other items. I came back to our couch where she was sitting. She took her shirt off and undid her bra, her breasts bounced out to my delight. I asked if I had permission to unlock and she shook her head yes, so I quickly freed myself. I got on the couch next to her, we leaned in to kiss and I palmed her right breast. It felt so soft and wonderful in my hand, I hadn't realized how deprived of touching her if id been until that moment. As we kissed I played with her nipples, lightly touching them getting mistress more excited. She then asked in between kisses if I wanted to "touch" her, of course I said yes. I helped her remove her pants, her panties were soaking with anticipation and I removed them too.

I placed two digits on top of her waiting pussy and enjoyed the extreme wetness that was waiting for me. I slowly massaged her as we kissed, gently slipping my fingers in and out. I was so turned on and hard as a steel pipe. She gently touched the head of my penis with her fingertips ever so softly. The sensation was so intense, my cock has been touched so little the sensitivity is incredible. I wanted to be able to last so we could play more, I wanted to be inside her. I focused on mistress's pleasure in turn trying to reduce mine and hold out as long as possible. A few more moments passed and mistress was on the brink of orgasm. I asked her if I could go down on her, she told me no, she wanted to able to play with my dick and she couldn't do that If my face was between her legs.

She was starting to cum and she asked me if I wanted to cum. I told her if she kept touching me like that, that I wasn't going to have a choice, so she decided to keep teasing my cock. As she came I started to cum as well, it felt so amazing so intense and all she was doing was lightly playing with the head, spurt after spurt came out, mistress started convulsing as I continued to rub her and was trying focus on her orgasm. My orgasm finally subsided but hers was still going strong, so I kept rubbing until finally she told me to stop a few minutes later.

We both calmed down and took a breath. We simultaneously looked down at mistress's tummy and it was pooled with my cum. I picked up the towel and helped clean my mess. She looked at me with that "that was so good" look. I sat back down next to her a moment later and said softly, "I thought you were gonna let me make love to you". She replied "I kinda wanted everything but this just kinda happened". I wanted to be inside her so bad but I wouldn't have lasted more than a minute if that anyway. I would've needed numbing cream or something like that. All the emotions of the moment were wrapped into one, I felt a little pathetic because of how easily she can get me off but in the same light I was just grateful that she allowed me to orgasm at all.

This is what makes her happy, she loves that it takes her no time at all to give me a toe curling orgasm, it's a huge boost in confidence for her I'm sure. If this is what she likes than this is what we're going to do, her choices, her rules. I love the woman I married and I love the domme she is becoming. Every week it seems like I see her growing more comfortable with being a domme. I'm changing too, I really do feel more submissive to her, I really do feel that she is my authority. I guess the best description I could give my submissiveness to her is how we all felt when we made one of our parents upset. You feel disappointed in yourself and you want to strive to do better and you're also slightly afraid of the punishment. Oddly enough it's a refreshing feeling.

Mistress has been much more bossy with me, she even explained to me that she was testing the waters with me to see what I can handle. So far I don't really feel that she's thrown all that much my way. Sure there are times I'm just tired and not as motivated to be her butler but the longer we live this way I find it actually kind of soothing and easy to follow her orders. Even rubbing her back or feet etc... If I've been locked up for a while, massaging her is almost sexual. It's like I'm making love to her feet with my hands, I get really into it. Even my temper has calmed down, I'd fume on things for a while and sometimes those things would make me snap. Lately, and although I'm not perfect, I find I have more control over my temper. If I snap it means that I have to answer to my mistress. It's not like she beats me that I'd be afraid to get angry, but at times I can clearly see disappointment and that's worse, I never like to see her disappointed.

One thing is for sure and that is that we are both happy people. The thing to remember about living this lifestyle or any lifestyle for that matter is that if you are always trying hard for each other then surely your relationship will improve and you will both be happy in your roles.

 

Things got a little spicier over this last week. I think my submission has really come to the surface. People comment on how good I treat my wife, I always want to obey what she asks of me because I am so eager to please her. I can't believe how much I adore her each and every day we continue this journey. @Mistress_M has been clothes shopping frequently lately and I have also bought her a couple new outfits and boots. I think my constant attention lately has really reminded her of how sexy of a woman she really is and now she's flaunting it and I love it (plus the fall styles for women right now are just really sexy!).

I'm feeling like a lucky boy lately too because mistress has been allowing me to go down on her more. I've actually been allowed to several times in the last 3 weeks. I love it and crave her so much I wish she'd allow me to do that to her everyday, multiple times a day. She is becoming quite the domme she has always been the woman of my dreams but becomes even moreso everyday. Mistress left me a list of chores to be completed by the time she got home from her study group. She let me know that she "might" reward me with a bj if I get everything done. So after she left and I put our kiddo to bed I whirled around the house cleaning and picking up to make my mistress happy. I got everything done and at that point could only hope I earned a reward.

Mistress got home a short while later and seemed fairly pleased how well my tasks were completed. We threw on an episode of game of thrones, she instructed me to unlock and get back into bed. She stroked me a teased me through the whole episode, as the show was coming to an end she had edged me very well and I was on the brink of orgasm. Then I started to get concerned that she was going to get bored and put me away so I started squeezing and feeling my mistress's ass and breasts very sensually. She stroked me harder, I looked down and she was stroking my cock and pointing it between my legs. I took that as an order to cum because she clearly wanted me to cum where she was pointing my cock. I couldn't hold back any longer and she made cum all over my side of the bed plus on my blanket where I would pull it close to my face. There was a lot of cum and the sheets were soaked right where I'd be sleeping. Mistress M looked at me and said that I'll be sleeping in the wet spot and the cum from now on. I just melted when she said that to me as I tried to clean all cum up the best I could. She also told me that she was going to go down on me but was waiting for the show to end but she could tell I was willing to cum any way she'd touch me, she liked that because now she knows she's got me guessing what she's going to do next. It's such a mind fuck and I love it. I could tell mistress was pleased with herself I could feel power behind her words, confidence and strength. I'll actually admit that I was happy about sleeping where I had cum. It was such an arousing experience for her to tell me that I'd be sleeping on the wet spot on purpose and she wanted me there! I can't wait to see what my beautiful mistress has in store next...

 

I'm so spoiled lately I don't know what's been going on but I love the way Mistress_M been treating me lately. She's been much more apt to snap at me lately to get things done or if she doesn't approve of something I'm doing. She pretty much just needs to give me a look and that's all it takes for me to shape. I haven't really pushed her or tested her to see what she'd really do to me if I disobey her or if I end up doing something that she doesn't like so I don't know how extreme she'd be when she decides that I need to pay for my misdeeds. She's spanked me pretty firmly with her bare hand and she was able to make my ass sting a bit, I think that's just all in good fun anyway but I wonder if she'll ever really make my ass red with the riding crop or the flogger.

I'm loving our dynamic, I love being at my mistress's feet waiting for her commands, I never thought serving her would be such a turn on. Know that I am to get up before her in the morning to serve her coffee actually makes it so much easier to get out of bed when it's early and cold. It excites me to think of the things I'm going to do for my mistress over the course of the day to make her happy. I've found that I really crave her attention and approval more than before which makes me strive harder for her. I feel this internal jolt of joy when I know I've made her happy. I've always had a sense of satisfaction when I've done something that pleases her but the satisfactory feels that I get just gets stronger and stronger the longer we live this lifestyle and I crave that feeling.

I've been allowed PIV sex the last few times mistress and I have played. It's been quite a treat since she makes me wait at least a month in between most of the time. The last time I was actually able to hold off my orgasm until she orgasmed too and we were able do it together. It felt so good and made our love making that much more special. Before that I went down of her for quite a while and loved every second of it. She was grabbing my head and pulling me into her while I licked her savoring every lap. I was grinding my hips into the bed wanting her so bad. Then when she told me she wanted me inside her I wasted no time getting a condom on. I spread my queens legs gently and gently inserted myself, I laid on top gently kissing her breasts and nipples as I made love to her. Her scent was all over my face and with every breath I took I was breathing in that intoxicating natural perfume. Mistress started to moan and then orgasm, I started to orgasms and we came together. She told me not to stop so I kept going, I didn't want to stop either. When I finally did stop she told me to keep it in, my cock was pulsing very hard still and I could feel how full the condom was from my cum. I laid on top of her staying in her for just a little longer and embracing her. I got up a few moments later, as I pulled out I saw how much I filled the condom, no surprise really but it's always fun to see how much cum has built up in the time she makes me wait. Mistress also likes that I'm a heavy cummer.

A few days prior to this, We had some time to blow before dinner and mistress knew just what she wanted. I was allowed to go down on her again, this time she kept me caged and I was loving it. Many other people here at the mansion and other forums say how they like it when they remain caged when they are pleasing their mistress and I have to agree. My focus is solely on her without me worrying about getting my orgasm. I can just go nice and slow just the way she likes it. I could eat her out all day if that's what she wanted, I love going down on her so much it's almost embarrassing lol. I just wish she'd take advantage of my love for going down on her. I got her really close to cuming but just could quite get there. She told me to take my cage off again and I quickly obeyed. Mistress told me to stick it in she wanted to feel me, I did and she felt so good, I pumped a few times and then she told me to go back down on her. I absolutely love when she makes me go back and forth like that. It can be a fun little game when she knows I'm getting to excited she can just push my head down back between her legs where I belong. However this time when I came back up she rolled on her side and grabbed my hand and had me make her orgasm with fingers. I played with her clit until she trembled and came hard. Mistress then pulled my cock until I came on my inner thigh. So freaking hot, she seriously blows my mind! Mistress really knows how to get me really bad sometimes she truly is becoming masterful with our lifestyle.

Lastly mistress really mind fucked me on this one a few days ago. While I was still caged we were in our bedroom just hanging out. she told me to get here vibrator from the drawer. Totally shocked me as I don't know or even think she was horny and she knew she was surprising me too. Although usually she has me get my key and this time she didn't. I helped her get her pants down and I went to use the vibrator on her, as I got it into place she took it out of my hands and took over. Then she told me that all I was allowed to do was watch. That was so hard to do, I wanted to feel her breasts and touch her pussy, she let me get away with a little touching but then told me to stop. I tried to be sexy and say sexy things to her to help her get off but she was very verbal with me telling me to shut up and just watch. I was so turned on by her actions and was falling in love with the way she was treating me and talking to me. I was bursting in my device unsure what to do next and she knew exactly what she was doing. She brought herself to orgasms and when I thought she was all done She told me where the key was. I ran over to unlock myself and hit back on the bed. I thought she was going to allow me PIV but instead I kneeled next to her while she stayed laying down. She jerked my cock yelling at me to cum over her stomach and breasts. It didn't take long until my full load was all over her. She was happy and I was quite happy, this is one of the times if noticed her being very forceful with me... I loved it, I really want her to make me taste my own cum, the ultimate act of submission to her.

I told her I was surprised she uncaged me and she told me that because I didn't ask to cum she allowed me to cum. Note to self...

 

Oh yeah forgot to mention that mistress and I started a tumblr account together. She signed up here at the mansion a little while back but did an intro just a couple weeks ago. My hope is, is that she will meet other people and be able to discuss our lifestyle to gain a broader perspective of what we're doing and communicate with others because it's nice to talk about things that you have in common with others. She hasn't really bothered with checking in at the mansion which is fine it's totally her perogative but I hope she at least attempts adding things to the tumblr account so we can share our fantasies. She seemed enthusiastic about the tumblr account but I haven't seen any effort on her part in regards to adding anything. It's frustrating at times trying to communicate with mistress because if she's disinterested in something it doesn't want to try something she never tells me why I'm detail she just stops talking about it and ignore my attempts to bring it up. I hate myself for enjoying being treated like that sometimes...

 

@Jasmic68 I really appreciate your input, you help me see things from different angles that maybe I wouldn't have seen before. I was a little bummed out when I noticed my mistress hasn't really made any effort to add photos but I was not surprised either. However she was at least looking at what I had posted. We haven't sat down together to talk about any of what I had posted yet but I think this weekend will be a good time to bring up what I have on there. We're going away for just a night to a nearby resort and that will probably be the perfect place to look at our tumblr page and talk about the images, videos etc... Anyway it's encouraging to hear that your mistress doesnt post either yet she enjoys seeing what you've posted to help further your lifestyle.

 

Just bought this device. I have been in my current device for about a year and thought it was time for a change. This one is about a 3rd of an inch shorter so it'll be a little more snug. The ring is more anatomically shaped as well so I'm hoping that will help it fit a little tighter when I'm starting to sag. Looks like I get to make another custom key for Mistress

 

I'm hoping it'll be okay but it was not expensive so it was worth a shot. A while back I measured myself for a mature metal device and followed their instructions. These measurements on this device (if correct) are almost exactly right. The cage might just end up being 1/8th of an inch shorter that I want it but that's so minimal it's worth a shot. My current cage fits pretty good when I'm high and tight but gets a bit loose when the boys start to sag. I'm thinking this one might partially remedy this issue. Ultimately when and if mistress ever allows it I'd like to get a PA and utilize a device that requires a PA. We'll see though, I have a small hard lump just behind the glans that's not visible, you can only feel it. Urologist believes I probably injured myself during sex and have created small tears in those tubes that fill up to give you an erection. Those tears may have developed calcium deposits hence the hardness of the lump. I'm questioning if I may have developed Peyronie's disease because my penis curves more to the left than it did in the past. It's not enough that it's a problem and all the research I've done says it will more than likely go away on its own in the next couple years. If not oh well I can live with it but I don't want it to be a problem as far as getting a PA, I don't think the piercing would touch the problem area but it's pretty darn close. Either way I have to get permission from my mistress for a piercing so it may not end up mattering one way or the other.