Brought low.

She ramped it up a notch today. i woke up to a buzzing sound and a rattling of my cage. She had a vibrator similar to this one going on my caged up unit. She would do 10 minutes on, 1 minute off, for what seemed like a good half hour or 45 minutes. It was agonizing in the way it felt awesome, but also futile. We discovered that at least with this method, i cannot achieve orgasm.

She restrained my hands above my head and removed the cage. Then reminded me of Her new rule. i started begging to be locked back up. She grinned and applied a ton of lube to my now free little guy. It was a wonderful handjob and every time i got close, i begged harder and louder to be locked back up. Those words were probably the hardest i've ever had to struggle with, because i really wanted to cum, but i need Her dominance even more. So i begged to ba caged even though my body was screaming at me for the orgasm.

After a definite 90 minutes of freedom (i looked at the clock when She took the cage off), She iced me down and out me back in, obliging my pleas to be locked up. Then i legitimately thanked Her for the opportunity to not only be free for a moment, but also for Her guidance and lesson in self control and obedience.

i am positively aching as i do my chores. i have tissue rammed in the cage to prevent the leaking (it is leaking lots). my mind is swirling, but this is what i wanted and when my Wife comes home from work i will have dinner made for Her, i will draw Her a nice bath, and when She is done if She allows, i will massage Her feet and thank Her for giving me exactly what i wanted and beg Her to please keep doing anything She desires because She deserves it.

i need this. i was born for this. And She has given it to me. What a Goddess!

 

Back in the device.
i should have been locked up again on the night we returned (27th) but some things got in the way. As much as we like the game of chastity and teasing, sometimes we must break for reality.

It is refreshing to know that i have a partner who knows exactly when i'm ready to resume. i was thinking about it for the first time on Monday night and on Tuesday morning, She very calmly told me it was time to lock up again.

We are still dealing with all that is going on, so i won't be as active on CM until all is good (every couple of days maybe), but i am happy to report that i am under lock and key once more.

 

The 3am wake ups have returned and i am grateful. It gives time for reflection and for smaller chores (refilling toilet paper, collecting dirty towels, emptying dishwasher, wiping kitchen counter, etc).

i find it easier to cope with the situation mentioned in my previous post too. Perhaps because i have my Wife's constant loving metal embrace keeping me feeling loved and safe.

Off to work soon.

 

Woke up this morning to find a love note.

"Boy,
Enjoy your day off. I will be home later, but I want you to put the plug in from the moment you wake. Send me a picture now.

I bought you a new scrub. Now get cleaning. I know how much you like scrubbing my floors. Also, sorry about the kitchen... not really sorry, but have fun!!

Love,
Goddess."

Went downstairs after putting in the plug and sending a picture. The kitchen was a disaster. And there was an obviously intentional mess spilled on the floor. Think She likes messing with me more than before.

That said, i do love scrubbing the floor. It puts me on my knees for Her and i love it.

 

i begged for this. i am not broken. This is what i wanted.

 

Sorry for lack of updates. We haven't had much time for any sort of play, so life has turned into a pretty routine thing again. Wake up, work, sleep. On days off, i clean the house while She is at work. When She comes home, i have dinner cooked, we eat. She starts working at Her home office. i finish off the rest of the chores.

Of course, no touching as i'm locked away.

A few days ago though, She said to start keeping a dream journal. That is, if i remember what i dreamed, i must write it down. The first couple of nights were relatively bland (going to museum, running marathon, falling and waking up before the splat). Last night i had an extremely erotic dream.

She read it this morning at breakfast and nodded. She smiled and said She would be waiting up for me tonight (i get home at midnight tonight). i have no idea what's going to happen. Now to go to work... the excitement is going to kill me.

 

Ben-gay hurts.

 

my hard drive died. What a thing to discover last night. She sent me downstairs to begin some light data entry (i've been helping Her with some of Her workload recently) and bam. The thing is just deceased.

She was upset for me. i was more upset because i cannot help Her in this way until a new hard drive makes its way here (possibly for Christmas, as She instructed me not to even think about researching it until after the holiday).

She let me massage Her feet last night which honestly helped a lot. She knows that is one of my favourite things. She likes it too, but had no intention of letting me do so last night as i was going to be inputting numbers all night.

What a Woman. Love Her so so much.

 

Thank you. We don't have too many rules as it's just not realistic. The fantasy is a litany of rules and Her taking me over the coals for minor infractions. But the reality is i'm locked up, do what She asks, and She decides when i get out. Everything else is completely improvised.

She has taken a fondness to smacking my cage with a ruler occasionally. Just to hear the sound. It doesn't hurt or anything. Just a quick reminder of who's the boss.

We are off to Christmas celebrations tonight. It's always exciting to me being with friends and family. It's just a fun naughty little secret that only my Wife and i are in on.

 

Last night She asked me to shave all my (head) hair off as a sign of loyalty to Her. So now i am completely bald. This morning when i took a walk and the wind blew over my scalp, even in minus temperature the little friend strained in its cage.

Little things like that causing the brain to take a trip to happyland are wonderful. A wink as She orders my food or a comment about how well trained i am when i put Her jacket on for Her. Subtle things in public that most wouldn't pick up on. Public humiliation, but not really.

We have more or less found our routine. i now dread being unlocked... a complete 180 from when we started. i honestly couldn't wait for it to come off for the teasing. Now i truly do beg for it to go back on.

i wonder how it will be when She finally gives me release. i want to remain submissive, but i fear that satisfaction may ruin it. i think She has big Valentines plans as She told me to book it off work. i will update accordingly.

 

Well. Valentine's plans may be in effect still, but i'm quite certain there will be no release now. New weight restrictions have been put in place. i'm fairly above where i need to be to even be considered, so that's where the certainty comes in.

Fatties don't get anything, so "work harder" is now the motto of the day.

 

i achieved one of the goals that was set for me. i was given a wonderful release and was allowed to sleep uncaged that evening. Despite being "free", i still woke up at the hour i tend to when caged. It was really nice to know that my body has adjusted completely to these early early morning contemplations of servitude.

The next morning i woke up to Her lubing me up. i very much enjoyed the sensation as much as i could, because i knew it was not for my pleasure but to slip the cage on easily. i have now been locked up again since then (about 3 months? Maybe 3.5?).

i have so much love for Her.

i do apologize for the lack of updates but life has been hectic and i don't have much time for the Internet between work, family and service. When i have time at my computer instead of on my mobile, i will adjust my profile to suit.