My Locked Journal

We had a long lazy Sunday morning in bed snoozing. It was almost mid-day by the time Mistress got up and went to the shower.

Desperate as usual I decided to try presenting myself on on the bed again, it worked well last time. So I lay there naked apart from the cage with her riding crop resting on my abdomen, waiting for her to come out of the bathroom, just like last time.

Mistress finally (got knows what she does in there) came out of the bathroom. I let out a fake surprise you caught me "Mistress!"

"No!" She told me, "I have things to do and I have a headache."

Mistress took the riding crop and told me to roll over, then spanked my bottom with it for being annoying and made me promise to be a good boy. She then sent me off to the shower.

When I'd finished showering, as I brushed my teeth Mistress popped her head around the door with a naughty grin and asked "Do you want to say hello?" Which is Mistress code for "do you want to go down on me".

"Yes please!" I replied and we jumped back into bed.

After licking her for a couple of minutes Mistress commanded "stop... my headache is getting worse... its feels like a migraine... maybe later".

Just that little taste was enough to have me leaking pre-cum in my underwear as I write this.

So now I'm tying to get her to delegate the things she has to do to me so she can relax and take a bath, maybe another nap.

The first task is washing her work outfits for the coming week, I'm not allowed to do that, but after that task maybe I can take over.

If she wants me to go down on her again after her bath that would be nice, but really I don't care, I just want her to feel good and her headache to be gone. I wish I could sort of absorb it out of her head into mine. Love is a funny thing.
 
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Mistress did take her regular headache/migraine drugs. I spent the afternoon fussing and trying to clean things. Later in the day Mistress was feeling fine again.

Unfortunately in the evening my Mother visited. After my Mother left Mistress no longer being in the mood to play, the usual effect of my Mothers has. Cock blocked by my own Mother, or in my case tongue blocked.

Mother would defiantly approve of a FLR, in fact I'm pretty sure that's what she thinks a normal marriage is. I'm also pretty sure that Mother would not approve of the kink. And yes, for the curious, I remained locked the whole time while we made polite conversation, receiving the occasional mischievous smile from Mistress.

Mistress is away for business in another state for the whole of this week. She's left me locked and needy.

Mistress did say that maybe we can try phone sex while she is away. Though she has a few evening functions to attend so she'll let me know later in the week. I've never tried phone sex so I super excited. Though given I'm locked I imagine phone sex will be me listening to her cum... still super excited.
 
Mistress got back from her work trip today, returning to her submissive desperate locked husband.

Mistress was too busy for phone sex while she was away, going out in the evenings for drinks and dinners. Her subby hubby at home doing the house work, msging her to see if she had time to chat, getting a reply that she was out. Now why do I find even this a turn on? My head is so messed up.

When she got home we kissed and snuggled. I begged to go down on her, saying I was so desperate to worship her. She just smiled and told me "you have to wait."

She loves denying me so much!
 
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Finally Mistress wanted to play!

When she finished her bath she ordered her poor locked puppy to massage her feet. That's always a good sign.

After her feet were thoroughly moisturised and smelling of mint Mistress spread her legs, turned off the lamp and ordered me to work.

Her orgasms were spectacular. In between licking and rubbing her Mistress stroked my cage and trapped balls making me moan. I'm so sensitive down there, so desperate for her touch.

Eventually she told be "enough" and pushed me to the side of the bed.

With a smile in her voice Mistress told me "You have to wait until Valentines day."

I groaned and with a sad subby voice replied "Yes Mistress."

She started reading her book. I tried to edge toward her, snuggle against her side, kissing her arm. Mistress told me to "settle down" and move away because I was making her hot.

I feel so submissive... and so desperate.

I have to make sure she has a great valentines day and is in a happy horny mood!
 
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Valentines day is fast approaching and I'm on my best behaviour hoping she will let me cum.

One of the presents I've bought her for Valentines is a heart shaped box of hand made artisan chocolates by a small company called Loco Love. Mistress looked over my shoulder while I was checking email and noticed a shipping confirmation from "Loco Love".

"Oh god," she sighed, roller her eyes, "you bought sex toys for Valentines."

I just grinned. Boy is she in for a surprise 😀
 
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Valentines morning!

I brought Mistress her normal coffee in bed, then her Valentines card, a big bouquet of roses, her Loco Love hand made chocolates (she was pleasantly surprised it was not a sex toy), a book of romantic vouchers and a couples card game called served.

We're in a FLR so she can order me to do stuff, but the vouchers and card game make it more fun and romantic. I think she was a little surprised there was no sexual stuff, I can get a little obsessed. Well no sexual stuff apart from her last gift, my locked cock, which she told me looks pretty... and then ignored.

Mistress seems happy. She's popped out to the shops, leaving me still locked and leaking in my underwear. I'm still not sure if she really is going to let me cum today. I'd better go clean up the kitchen.
 
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When Mistress got back from the shops she said "Lets go upstairs and give you your Valentines present." :)

Mistress gave me the key and told me to unlock, go shower and give everything a good clean. When I got back to the bed she gave me the most delicate tease with her mouth, gentle little kisses, tiny little licks, holding me in her mouth but so gently I could only just feel sensations. Incredibly pleasurable, but not enough for me to cum. Then she told me to "do your magic" pushing my mouth down between her legs.

We alternated between her orgasms and the maddening teasing of her lips on my cock. She made sure I could see everything as she took me into her mouth, but also made sure I could hardly feel a thing. God she's good. Mistress even treated me to face sitting. I fantasise about face sitting, she's so open and stretched and I can lick everything, it's intoxicating. She rode my face through another three orgasms before falling off.

Eventually Mistress got on all fours, stuck her bottom up in the air and told me "come on." She was so wet, I slide all the way inside her in one slow thrust. We both groaned. I tried desperately to hold on, staying still as she moved forward and back onto me. I didn't last very long. Yet again it felt like the best orgasm of my life, going on and on. There was a lot of cum, filling her up and dribbling out. We had to change the sheets. I spent a long time laying on the bed recovering, dozing and so very relaxed.
 
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After letting me have a couple of days unlocked Mistress declared that "you need to be put back in your place" and locked me back up. I think she wasn't impressed by me criticising the amount of on-line shopping and constant deliveries. I felt an obedience surge as soon as she took the key.

This morning she gave me a slow romantic kiss that went on and on... while grasping my balls and pulled them down away from the cage, just enough to let me know who is in charge and who is kissing whom.

Mistress asked me if it seems like a long time since she let me cum. Yes it seems like a very long time! It's only been four days, but feels so much longer! I can't stop thinking about her riding my face, it was so damn hot, she came with such abandon, at one point pushing down and grinding on me. God I so want that again.

I just served Mistress her lunch, we're both working from home today, she gave me a little "love you" as I served her. I'm going to go hit the gym and try and burn off some lust.
 
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Mistress had me unlocked for play time in bed. She slid down my body then alternated between sucking and stroking me with her hand. So slow, so sensitive. Eventually she slid back up, spread her legs and ordered me to work.

Between her orgasms Mistress took a break to suck me some more before sending my tongue back between her thighs. She getting so damn good at just gently bringing me to the edge.

After she had finished taking her pleasure Mistress lay in post orgasmic glow, happy smile on her face. I lay next to her, not allowed to touch her, tears slowly leaking from my cock.

Mistress recited her rules, smile on her lips, "You can't cum, you can't fuck me, you must obey me."

"I'm not sure which is my favourite... " She mused, "probable obey."

"If only you'd known when I removed obey from my marriage vows... it sort of hinted at femdom... I should have added obey to your vows." She laughed.
 
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Mistress has been away on a business trip for the last couple of days. She sent me a picture last night of her out drinking cocktails with work friends, sigh. She should be back home this evening.

She left me a teddy bear (I think its supposed to be a cat) soaked in her perfume for me to snuggle while she is away. Last night I cuddled it, inhaling her smell.

This time Mistress left me unlocked while she's away... not that it makes any difference, her rules are very clear.

As Mistress left she kissed me, groped my cock and told me "remember no playing while I'm away."

I replied "yes mistress."

I've lost track of when I last masturbated, it's been a few years. Not cumming without her making it happen adds an intensity to our relationship that is so intoxicating. I can't wait for her to get home. I'd love it if she lets me cum tonight but right I'm craving going down on her more than my own orgasm.
 
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Finally!! She let me go down on her :)

Mistress was out this morning.

When she got home Mistress said, "I have thirty minutes before my meeting, time for you to rock my world."

She took me upstairs. I waited on the bed, naked apart from my chastity cage, while mistress when to the bathroom to pee. I love her confidence, I just peed now lick me.

Mistress jumped onto the bed with no panties and started biting and pulling on my nipples while her hand stroked my balls. After getting a suitable number of moans out of me Mistress rolled onto her back and told me to get to work.

As I licked Mistress sighed "its been a long time."

I asked between licking "how long are you going to make me wait Mistress?"

"That's for me to know and you to find out... you might need some training for Locktober." Mistress replied between moans.

She came and came and came. Giggling and laughing at the intensity between orgasms. Finally she pushed me away, relaxing in the after glow as I leaked from my cage.

We got talking a about a work training course on respect... she still had a little more time before her meeting... so she sent be down to respect her pussy one more time, giggling as I sucked on her clit.
 
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I was chatting with Mistress and suggested we "switch" things up for a while just for fun, it's been so long since she let me be the dom. Her immediate answer was "no", but I thought I saw a twinkle in her eye so I persisted.

After a little persuasion Mistress decided we could switch from Monday, but just until the end of the month.

I'm so excited. I declared that her subname for the month is "Princess".

I think I have to sub from the top a little so she doesn't get mad and change her mind ;)

This morning I insisted that Princess came several times before bending her over and giving her a serious fucking... for all of two seconds before I came... slightly embarrassing.

Tonight I think I'm doing to insist with my most dominant voice that she endures a foot massage... grrrrr!
 
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CuriousAndy said:
I was chatting with Mistress and suggested we "switch" things up for a while just for fun, it's been so long since she let me be the dom. Her immediate answer was "no", but I thought I saw a twinkle in her eye so I persisted.

After a little persuasion Mistress decided we could switch from Monday, but just until the end of the month.

I'm so excited. I declared that her subname for the month is "Princess".

I think I have to sub from the top a little so she doesn't get mad and change her mind ;)

This morning I insisted that Princess came several times before bending her over and giving her a serious fucking... for all of two seconds before I came... slightly embarrassing.

Tonight I think I'm doing to insist with my most dominant voice that she endures a foot massage... grrrrr!
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Can't wait to read the next update. Sounds like it may get rather interesting.
 
I still have a few days of domming left in the month. "Princess" popped out this morning, I've told her when she gets back we're going spend most of today playing. She seems happy about the promise. Princess has been unintentionally edged over the last couple of weeks. I have to work on solving that.

Princess has been having difficulty cumming. It's interesting, we're basically doing the same sexual things that turn her on, with me going down on her a lot. The real difference is I'm in charge, she has to do as she's told and I get to cum when ever I want. She just can't seem to get there. Hovering on the edge, getting frustrated or headaches from the blood rush.

We had been doing gentle Femdom for so long, I'm beginning to suspect that she's gotten used to being in charge and denying me. Maybe that Dom headspace now turns her on more than I realised.

I'm demanding orgasms roughly every three days. Princess seems happy to play the game and get me off. However, I feel bad that she's not getting off, I really enjoy her orgasms. My orgasms are great and I feel very relaxed, I think more balanced... but... I have to admit they are not as intense as when she controls when I can cum. Nice but not earth shattering.

We may have conditioned ourselves into kinky sexual patterns. I'm going to have to put extra effort into bottoming from the top.
 
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Actually... I decided I'm just overthink things :)

After a weekend of Princess having multiple orgasms I had one of those best in life orgasms myself. So I guess it's not the denial (though it probably helps) that gets me to those amazing highs, it's more I get off on her orgasms.

As I reflected in post orgasm chill mode I remembered that a long time ago before we got into Femdom and her libido driving when we have sexual play she didn't always cum. She seems to need to build pressure. Her desire and orgasms building every week or two. I'm good to go every couple of days. So perhaps this is just our normal rhythm when we unleash my cock, I just sort of forgot.
 
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Well my freedom lasted a little longer than I expected. I was supposed to be allowed to Dom until the end of March, but we kept rolling with it.

Yesterday Princess went to get a massage. Her favourite massage place was fully booked, so she got her nails done instead. Princess had long ceramic glossed claws added to her fingers. Mistress came home.

Something about those nails. She immediately stared clawing my chest with a wicked smile. This morning she was grabbing my arse as she walked past me with a hungry possessive look.

I asked her if she wanted to play. She replied "only if I'm back in charge."

I locked up and as I handed her the keys we both said at the same time "I think it's the nails." :)

After getting the keys she was instantly playful. Slipping her claws under my shirt, dragging them across my nipples. Groping my cage, dragging those claws over my balls. Giving me a slow lingering kiss. Followed by house maintenance she wants completed today.
 
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It was barley a day of being locked back up and Mistress told me last night "I prefer you when you are subby."

It's funny I didn't think there was a change in my behaviour, but she was prowling the house like a lioness marking her territory.

As we got ready for bed Mistress told me to bend over the bed because she was going to spank me. I bend over and she pulled my underwear down to my thighs. She dragged those nails over my bottom for a while, then began spanking me hard with her hand. It didn't last too long, I suspect her hand was hurting. Then she told me to get into bed. There was lots of snuggling. She seemed very happy. I felt very subby.

This morning as I stepped out of the shower she grinned, bent over and sucked my cock. Then told me to lock back up. Mistress told me I was a "good boy" as I handed her the keys.

She's gone from putting up with my sexual advances to instant fem dom sex kitten, crazy.

My feelings are hard to pin down. I think the closest description is it feels reassuring to be locked back up and controlled by her.
 
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We slipped back into our Femdom lifestyle soooo easily. Maybe it was the spanking on day one that re established our roles so quickly.

Mistress running her nails over my nipples, thighs, balls, caressing my cage and telling me I can't cum. Me licking her until she tells me "enough". She already has me leaking out of my cage after just one week.

Mid week she was in the office, staying late for a work dinner. Leaving me locked at home with housework. I'm gradually catching up on the housework.

I didn't think to tell her to do the cleaning while she was letting me Dom, huge mistake, so now everything needs cleaning! Though in reality she probably would have rebelled if I had tried to get her to clean. She's happy to put up with my over active libido and some light bondage, she's so not into housework.

After a week I still have 10 things to catch up on on the cleaning schedule :(

Mistress told me "Our relationship feels so much more natural like this."

It's funny how the mind works, "do the ironing bitch" is so much more fun than "could you help me with ironing please honey."

She'd let me unlock for a bath last night and left me unlocked for sleeping. So "do the ironing bitch" resulted in me starting to get an erection, then she told me "we have to put a stop to that" and locked me back up.

In vanilla mode house work is boring. In Femdom mode it's a kinky act of dominance and submission.
 
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Mistress has gone away on a business trip and will not be back until Thursday night.

Usually she leaves me locked when she goes away, but I've not been sleeping very well the last couple of weeks, so she decided she didn't want me locked while sleeping. A bit of a dilemma because she sort of likes having me locked when she's away.

So Mistress left me the keys but made it very clear that I'm not to play with her property. I have to message her each night and ask to unlock then she'll give me permission. I have to message her each morning and confirm I'm locked back up.

It's sort of like I have an on-line Mistress for the week :)
 
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On Monday night I messaged Mistress asking for permission to sleep unlock as she had instructed me to do.

"May I unlock Mistress?"

"Yes Puppy." She replied.

So I unlocked and went to bed. The next morning I messaged her again as instructed.

"Do you want me to be locked Mistress?"

"Yes Puppy." She replied.

On Tuesday night before bed I messages her again.

"May I be unlocked Mistress?"

There was no reply.

Mistress had told me she wanted me to sleep unlocked while she was away, but also that I had to ask permission to unlock each night.

I was confused. Was this a test. Had she just forgotten. Sometimes when she's busy and distracted after a few days she forgets and tells me "I forgot, did I lock you up?" But it had only been a day since we messaged.

I waited for a while. There was still no response so I went to bed locked.

The next morning I got a message from Mistress.

"Whoopsies - were you a good puppy and stayed locked up?"

"Yes Mistress I'm still locked up." I replied.

So she was serious about needing permission and maybe testing me! So hot for my subby little mind.

She asked about my sleep stats (I obsessively collect data). I confessed it was the best sleep score I'd had in a couple of weeks... which I maintain was due to a lack of coffee, not due to being locked... eeek.

We'll see what she decides when I ask permission tonight.
 
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Last night Mistress decided to let me sleep unlocked... I had terrible sleep LOL.

We messaged each other. Me being needy. I can imagine the smile on her face as she replied to my desperation.

I started messaging about what we did last weekend. We had snuggled up together under a blanket to watch a movie. Mistresses hand ended up resting on my cage under the blanket. All through the movie she possessively slapped my balls. It felt so submissive. Slapping me there has become something she likes.

As we messaged I joked, "I need a safe word, maybe if I scream 'nuts!'"

"Nuts it is!" Mistress replied.

We haven't felt we needed a safe word for a very long time. That Mistress wants one has me all nervous and excited at the same time.
 
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