My Locked Journal

[CuriousAndy]

Mistress arrived home on Thursday night. I had dinner waiting for her, a new mushroom soup recipe and freshly baked bread. After dinner she went to shower and relax in the bedroom while I cleaned up.

When I joined her in the bedroom there was lots of cuddling, snuggling and kissing. Mistress review the additional chores she had left me while on her business trip; vacuum and mop the floors, wash down all the kitchen cabinets, change the bedsheets and clean the windows in her home office. Of course I'd completed everything. She concluded I was a "good boy". We dozed in each others arms just happy to be touching. Mistress left me locked.

My begging to go down on her over the last couple of days has been met with a "no" and a smile. My denial queen is home.

 

[CuriousAndy]

As I caught up on some paperwork in my home office Mistress walked in.

"Do you want to lick my clit?" Mistress asked.

When brain caught up I replied "yes please."

She took me to be the bedroom, stripped off and I knelt beside the bed between her thighs. God I love licking her so much. I kissed and licked her slowly and passionately, like making out.

After many of her orgasms Mistress decided she wanted to suck me. I was sensitive, it felt incredible. Then she told me to beg to cum. I got back between her legs licking and begging.

"Please Mistress may I cum... please... please can I cum."

She was actually laughing as she came again.

Mistress got on all fours and told me I could fuck her and cum. Just as I was climbing into the bed she got a phone call. So there she was on the bed chatting on the phone, pussy wet and glistening, mood broken. I'm fucked I thought and not in a good way. I started getting dressed, trying to fit my huge erection into my pants.

Mistress finished her call, got back on all fours and told me "get on with it."

Oh happy day! I quickly stripped back off and climbed onto the bed, sliding into her pussy. She felt so amazing as she gripped me. I thrust slowly in and out as we both moaned and was surprised to find I didn't instantly cum. I actually managed to keep going for a few minutes of slow erotic thrusting before falling into best ever orgasm of my life, again.

I have a new theory. I get so turned on from licking her and her orgasms that it's almost like I'm being edged. Fucking straight away sends me straight over the edge. But a little break, like a phone call, lets me calm down and have a tiny bit of stamina. So I'm going to have to start begging Mistress to "let me cum... after a little break please."

 

[CuriousAndy]

I've been a bit argumentative recently. Yesterday I asked if we could play... Mistress told me to go to the bedroom strip off and present my bottom.

Mistress used her riding crop on my bottom, making me promise between each strike to be a good boy. Occasionally she'd pause and comment on my "cute little balls", trapped and exposed by the cage, taking time to fondle them before going back to striking with the riding crop and making me promise.

She managed to ride the line just between punishment and funishment. Stinging but sexual, leaving me confused with a glowing bottom, feeing very subby as she cuddled me afterward.

I'm left with a strong desire to submit and obey. When she's in the mood she is so good at Femdom.

 

[CuriousAndy]

Over this week we've been focusing on a more serious FLR practice.

Recently I've been a bit grumpy and in a little bit of a motivational rut, not getting my chores or much of anything else done.

We have started doing a morning check in where we discuss our relationship and our feelings. Mistress reviews my performance and sets her expectation for what will be completed today, this includes expectations for meditation and journaling. We're discussing all sorts of things in our checking in, but we have reaffirmed that her decision is final.

Accountability and domestic discipline has been discussed. Yes proper punishment spanking is on the table (I don't think we've ever done that as pure punishment rather than a scene), but also verbal reprimands, timeouts or removal of privileges.

This more strict and controlling that our usual style, almost parenting... and I feel very... loved up.

I really do love our morning check conversations, it creates structured us time. My grumpiness seems to be evaporating and I've been meeting Mistresses expectations about what will be completed today. Mistress was surprised, she'd been thinking about which type of domestic discipline to start with, but I've done everything.

I think we had gotten a little bit into a habit of having reactionary conversations when things were wrong or talking about work. This is more talking about us and what we want as a couple going forward. It feels energising.

The cuddles in bed are amazing, legs entwined, pressed into each other, tiny kisses. Like I said, loved up

 

[CuriousAndy]

Our morning check in has been going really well. I've been following Mistresses guidance and she's been helping me get back on top of the chores list, prioritising which need to be completed today.

On one day I did fail to complete all of the specified chores. In our checkin the next day she gave me extra chores as punishment on top of the ones I had to catch up on, and she said I would receive five discipline spanks. That was a surprise, I wasn't expecting her to go straight to the spanking, I was expecting to lose privileges. She told me she was busy and would let me know when I was to receive my spanking. Sometimes anticipation sucks.

This morning as I finished my shower she walked into the bathroom with her riding crop and told me it was time for punishment. I got only the bed, on all fours, bum in the air, head down, naked apart from my chastity cage. Mistress made me count the strikes with her crop and I had to explain in between why I was being punished. Somehow we got to six, she said the extra one was a bonus.

But I have to admit it turned into more of a D/s scene than real punishment. It was sort of hot.

Mistress was hitting hard, but its was only six times and I can easily take that. She was in a playful mood and in-between hits was using the crop to stoke my cage and balls. So spanking punishment was really sort of fun.

The interesting thing is I'm completely up to date now on my huge list of missed chores! Turns out I just needed a manager.

 

[CuriousAndy]

I'm particularly proud of how good I am at going down on pussy. On the weekend I even impressed myself with just how good I am

Mistress came out of the shower and ordered me to go down on her. I was in a very passionate mood. Deep long kisses between her thighs. Building deliberately slowly in waves, making her body respond more with each wave then slowing down. She sort of hates this, she gets impatient and wants instant gratification, but this gradual edging results in a very big orgasm. Mistress told me her rules as I licked, "you can't fuck me, you can't cum, you must obey me."

I was tracking the timing by counting how many songs had played. At the fourth song I pushed her over the edge into a moaning screaming orgasm. Normally after the first I can push her through the second and third really quickly, but instead I backed off slowing things down again, kissing around the outside, tiny licks in between, she moaned with each time dip inside. After licking her through her second Mistress told me to give her my dick putting her hand out. I was unlocked, I knelt beside her rubbing her through her thirst and fourth with my fingers as she gripped my cock.

"We're going to have to break some rules," Mistress told me getting on all fours.

As I knelt being her and entered her she did something new. She clamped her thighs around the outside of mine and curled her feet around my calfs, gripping me, holding me in place as she slide slowly backward and forward, fucking herself on my cock.

"May I cum Mistress?" I asked.

"Mmmmmm," she replied thinking as she continued slowly sliding on me.

"Please!" I exclaimed desperately.

"You may cum," she replied.

This was lucky for me because I was already past the point of no return, hovering desperately on the edge, trapped in her pussy. I exploded.

Later as we lay on the bed, basking in the afterglow Mistress said, "Every time I move I gurgle inside."

"Well that was 22 days of cum." I replied.

"Oh god," she exclaimed as she ran for the bathroom leaking everywhere.

Much later she seemed sort of angry with me for "making" her break her rules LOL.

 

[PornAddict103]

That was great to read after a long day at work. Thank you sharing.

 

[CuriousAndy]

One of the most enduring qualities of my Mistress/Wife is that sometimes she's really in the mood to suck cock.

Mistress has had me locked all week. While this sounds kinky she admitted she had forgotten that she locked me up, it's been a busy week. Last night I had a bath and she unlocked me, leaving me unlocked to sleep.

Around 2am Mistress was awake and couldn't sleep, I woke up because she was moving around a lot. We snuggled in bed for a while, spooning then her dozing laying half on top of me.

I of course I had an erection, that's just what cocks do when a woman has her legs wrapped around you. Mistress teased that she should have left me locked. She slapped and pinched my cock. I suggested she may want to suck on it... sort of like a pacifier to help her sleep... she laughed... and did.

"I'm getting close, please may I cum?" I gasped as her head bobbed up and down.

"I don't know." She replied with a full mouth.

"Please Mistress." I begged.

She laughed around my cock, still sucking.

"Oh god please, I'm so close!" I begged.

She continued to laugh as I begged, making "mmmm" thinking noises with my cock in her mouth, which just made things worse.

"Oh please!" I begged.

"Ok, you can cum." She replied with her full mouth.

I exploded in her mouth. She left me shuddering and gasping on the bed as she went to clean up. I'm not sure when mistress got back to sleep, I was almost instantly unconscious.

She's locked me back up this morning. I feel safe from vampiric women sucking all my energy juice out

 

[CuriousAndy]

On Sunday I had booked a massage in the morning. Mistress was out shopping (of course) and I was still locked from Friday morning.

At the massage place I go to you you keep your underwear on and there's usually a towel over the top, unless they are working on your bum in which cace they tug your undies down and go for it. They probably wouldn't notice... but I don't want to embarrass them (or me) by accidentally exposing an un-invited kink.

I called Mistress to ask if I could be unlocked for the massage, she keeps the keys in a key safe and can give me the combination if she wants to. She was on the same page... but... she said she'd left the keys in her black jacket in Friday... and couldn't remember were the jacket was. So walked around the house with FaceTime looking on her day bed, in the walk in robe, in the bathroom... there's piles of her clothes everywhere. As we were working through her dresses sliding them along the hanger railing she told me to look under the dresses in case her jacket had fallen off the hanger. There was the black jacket on the ground under the dresses. Thankfully the keys were still in the pocket.

"You really need a better system." I complained.

"It adds a little excitement to your day." She replied.

LOL

 

[PornAddict103]

I think she did that purpose just to see you run around looking for the key.

 

[CuriousAndy]

OMG most frustrating dream ever!

In my dream I was laid in bed with a huge erection. I slid a well lubricated flesh light over my cock and slowly slid it up and down, the sensations were amazing. I've never owned a flesh light but I've seen the confusing array of tubes in on-line adult stores.

As I continued slowly masturbating with the flesh light I reached under with my left hand an realised there was a second smaller cock under the one buried in the flesh light. I wrapped my lubricated fingers around the second cock and started slowly sliding up and down, masturbating both my cocks at the same time.

I alternated, one down one up. Then switched to both down both up at the same time. Always going very slowly, enjoying the sensations.

I could feel pressure gradually building, getting closer and closer to the edge. As I realised I was very close to coming part of me thought "but I'm not allowed to cum." In the dream I stopped, pulled the flesh light off, took my hand away, rolled over and went to sleep in the dream. Arrrrgghhhh!

This morning I told Mistress about my dream, she was very amused declaring "you edged yourself!"

Mistress commented that it was good she'd left me locked overnight or I might have had a wet dream (though she's forgetting I have had a wet dream while locked).

As we got dressed she grabbed by balls with one hand sort of weighing them.

"So full, I could prick them and you'd explode," she mused, poking my balls with one finger.

 

[CuriousAndy]

Mistress took me upstairs to the bedroom for what I thought was a play session. She had left me unlocked and I thought maybe she's in the mood to let me cum.

When in the bedroom she told me to go and get her riding crop, when I gave it to her she told me to strip and turn my back to her. She explained as I stood there that I had not changed the bed sheets when she told me to, that she had ended up changing them herself and that she hates changing the bed sheets.

She tap tap taped my bottom with the riding crop, then a long pause before a smack hard enough to make me jump. Mistress kept doing this tap tap pause, building the anticipation, making me jump every time. She had me explain that I what I had done wrong and confess I was a bad boy as she continued the punishment.

When Mistress was satisfied she lay back on the bed and told me to remove her skirt and worship her pussy. Mistress insists that punishing me does not turn her on at all... I don't believe her.

I licked and rubbed her through multiple orgasms. Mistress stroked and sucked me. When Mistress was again satisfied she told me "enough", leaving my cock crying pre-cum tears that pooled on my belly.

Later she locked me back up again.

 

[CuriousAndy]

Mistress has gone interstate on a business trip, she won't be back until late Friday. She has left me locked at home.

Before she left she mentioned that because it's cold in the city she's flying too she might wear stockings to keep her legs warm, and gave me a naughty smile. She knows I love stockings more than anything and she hardly ever wears them for me, she says they are impractical. So evil.

Mistress gave me the most passionate needy kiss kiss I can remember in a long time, devouring my lips while I caressed her breast, then left me to spend the week wondering what she's wearing.

 

[PornAddict103]

Mistress has gone interstate on a business trip, she won't be back until late Friday. She has left me locked at home.

Before she left she mentioned that because it's cold in the city she's flying too she might wear stockings to keep her legs warm, and gave me a naughty smile. She knows I love stockings more than anything and she hardly ever wears them for me, she says they are impractical. So evil.

Mistress gave me the most passionate needy kiss kiss I can remember in a long time, devouring my lips while I caressed her breast, then left me to spend the week wondering what she's wearing.

That's HOT!

 

[CuriousAndy]

Mistress arrived home from her business trip last night, yay!

During in the week I'd tried to engage her in some sexting on Signal, she told me I was "a silly boy"... somehow that just turned me on.

When she got home we had a lovely hug. Mistress took a bath then I prepared dinner for her and started a fire for her to sit in front of. We drank wine together in front of the fire, chatting as dinner cooked. After dinner we snuggled in bed, me spooning her, stroking her curves, kissing her back. I'm so needy. I'm not sure at what point I fell asleep.

Mistress woke around five am, I woke too I could feel her moving in the bed. I asked if we could snuggle and she said yes. First me spooning her, then her dozing on my shoulder leg wrapped over me, then me spooning her again. So nice. She told me "kisses". When she says this she doesn't mean on her mouth.

I slid down between her legs, kissing her thighs, her mound, slipping my tongue inside her. I slowly licked her through two gasping moaning orgasms, my cock struggling in its restraints. Then I knelt beside her, fingering her as she possessively groped my cage. She lay back enjoying the sensations as I kept her on the edge, fingers slowly sliding between her lips, caressing her clit between each slow exploration, keeping her moaning. Finally I sent her over the edge.

"You really know how to play that instrument," she laughed. Pushing me back down to lick her to another orgasm before telling me enough, leaving my cock to slowly wilt in its cage.

Later she described it as a "delightful fingering".

I so want to spend the whole day making her cum, but she has plans... hair appointment and nails... that will probably take all day, sigh.

 

[CuriousAndy]

Just after Mistress had arrived home on Friday I needs to go on a trip, leaving Sunday morning, so I only got to spend about a day and a half with her before we were separated again.

It wasn't really practical for me to stay locked while traveling, we didn't discuss it, but Mistress unlocked me for my trip. That removes a bit of kink but doesn't change the rules, I'm not allowed to cum without her permission. Actually her specific rule that she tells me is "you're not allowed to cum", but sometimes she changes her mind.

Before I left I gave her a little gift. I'd been looking on line for sexy underwear that she might consider wearing, so sort of sexy but practical. I've bought her so may sets of underwear that she hardly ever wears. I came across tights that look like stockings! They have cut outs in the middle and over the hips so they look like garters. I presented her with the "compromise stockings". She seemed interested and told me "I might wear them while you are away." Arrrggggg!

I got back on Thursday night. Lots of hugs and cuddles.

As we snuggled I asked "do you want me locked back up?"

"Oh yes!" She replied enthusiastically with a big smile.

After I gave her the key we snuggled some more. Mistress stroked my cage and balls, commenting on how full my balls felt.

I asked if I could go down on her, she used her favourite word, "no".

Sometimes I don't understand her perspective on practical. Long hair that takes hours in salon to style and colour, long acrylic nails exquisitely painted, lip fillers... there she considers perfectly practical... yet sexy underwear is inconvenient. Having said that she has mentioned that she might try the compromise stockings this weekend... though she is a natural tease, so the anticipation is killing me.

 

[CuriousAndy]

I was just reading my latest journal entries to my Mistress.

"Have you noticed a pattern?" When you ask I always say no. It's when I want." She said laughing happily.

 

[CuriousAndy]

This morning we spooned in bed, so nice. I was still half asleep, dozing as I snugged against her.

Mistress told me "kisses". She started laughing as I moved up to kiss her face. I was still very sleepy, of course she didn't mean her face.

I slid down under the sheets between her thighs, worshiping her through four orgasms before she told me enough.

She let me spoon her some more, my cage pressed against her bottom, before sending me to make coffee.

I asked Mistress if she was going to try the compromise stockings.

"Maybe later." She replied grinning as she drank her coffee.

 

[CuriousAndy]

Last night Mistress took a bath while I cleaned up the kitchen. When I went up stairs she was waiting for me in bed wearing the compromise stockings. Finally!!

She told me to get on the bed and massage her stockinged feet. Heaven. I massaged each foot, which became kissing each foot, which I loved.

Eventually she told be to get between her legs. I lost count of how many orgasms I licked her through. At one point she grabbed my balls so tight it hurt and made me yelp... I loved that too.

When Mistress told me "enough" I went back to kissing her feet. I passionately and slowly kissed her toes, arches, heels. Mistress started to moan, which is so incredibly hot.

She told me "one more for the road" and I got back between her thighs. I kissed and licked slowly, wanting to drag it out, savour the experience. "Get on with it" she told me. I obediently increased the pace making her cum again oh so easily.

Afterward we spooned, my cage pressed against her naked bottom. I felt so emotional in a happy way.

 

[CuriousAndy]

This morning, after bringing Mistress coffee in bed, she told me to unlock get a shower and come back to bed.

She gave me the key and I headed off to the shower to give everything a good clean. Mistress has had me locked all week so I gave down there a good shave (she hates pubic hair). After I showered I shaved my face (she likes a smooth face between her thighs), brushed my teeth and fixed my hair. Looking as pretty as I get I put my pyjama pants over my already hard cock (she likes a little unwrapping) and went back to the bed bare chested (had also shaved that).

Mistress didn't bother with a shower, she just waited in bed for her entertainment to arrive.

We kissed in bed while Mistress stroked my cock through my pants. She went through what chores she wants done today and had me repeat them back, still stroking me.

Then she sent me down... to massage her feet. As I massaged I snuck in a few foot kisses. Feet become very kissable when you have been denied for a while.

Then Mistress told to me massage her shoulders, grabbing my cock through my pants and holding it like a handle as I worked on her shoulders.

Eventually after much sighing and moaning she pulled my pants down and stroked my unwrapped cock for a while before sending me down between her thighs. God love kissing her there.

Many of her orgasms later she got on all fours and told me "come on cowboy". I got behind her slowly entering, both of us moaning from the sensations we'd been missing for so long.

She slid all the way back onto me and I asked "am I allowed to cum?"

Mistress thought about it making "mmm..." sounds as she slowly slid back and forth on me.

"You you can cum." She told me.

I exploded inside her, she kept thrusting onto me as I came and moaned and trembled, finally pulling off and then I collapsed on the bed.

Mistress squeaked as she ran for the bathroom dribbling everywhere, "there's so much!"

"That's thirty days of cum." I told her.

She's going out now to get her nails done while I do my chores. She is full of energy. I'm very very sleepy.

 

[CuriousAndy]

For a kinky bit of fun I send my Mistress naughty messages on Signal most days.

I usually send her a couple of captions that I think she'll like. I sort of have a slight chastity caption addiction.

The other day I sent her a couple of captions about permanent denial. Mistress replied "we have a few things to discuss puppy".

In my defence a lot of captions talk about permanent denial or permanent chastity, it's hard to avoid.

We had our morning check in. Me sitting on a circular rug before Mistress, who was sitting on her throne. I tried to explain, stumbling around hot fantasy and power play, versus reality and lifestyle. Would I really want to be permanently denied? No. Was the idea hot? Errrm... yes.

Mistress concluded that she wasn't sure about the idea, that she likes to keep me desperate for her, but not denied all the time.

However...

Mistress has started incorporating the idea into our play.

In bed she's whispering things in my ear like "you're locked forever".

Today she grabbed me for some mid day stress relief. As I went down on her she told me her normal rules, "you're not allowed to cum... you're not allowed to fuck me... you must obey me."

From between her thighs I asked her "when are you going to let me cum again?"

"Never!" She replied. Then she kept screaming "Never" over and over as she came.

Yet again I realise my wife is my fantasy.

It is just play, right?

 

[CuriousAndy]

I've not been sleeping very well, too much going on in my brain. My usual strategies of wind down time and meditation have not been working for me. Mistress has been letting me sleep unlocked, that's supposed to help right?

Last night I asked Mistress if I could be unlocked for sleep, she told me "no". I told her I wasn't sure what the right thing was to help me sleep. Mistress told me she was keeping me locked.

As we lay in bed with me still locked I suggested an orgasm would help me sleep. We're up to 24 days since she last let me cum.

Puppy: "Maybe if you unlock me and give me an orgasm that would help me sleep."

Mistress: "No."

Puppy: "Just a hand job?"

Mistress: "No"

Puppy: "A foot job?"

Mistress: "No"

Puppy: "Maybe just a ruined orgasm in the cage?"

Mistress: "Go to sleep"

Puppy: "You're a mean lady."

She just smiled.

This morning we looked at my sleep data. All my stats improved. I had a normal nights sleep.

Mistress: "We'll be keeping you locked."

sigh.

 

[CuriousAndy]

Yesterday Mistress had me driving around to to pick up cash, like actual real money. She was convinced that we needed to pay a bill with cash. It turned out she hadn't actually checked we needed cash, just got that idea into her head. Turned out we could just tap to pay like any normal transaction.

In the car I was annoyed, making comments about needing to double check everything she says to make sure she asked the obvious questions, there was a little bit of swearing. I don't think I've spoken to her like that in a while.

When we got home she walked into the kitchen, scowled at me and slapped me between the legs hard enough to make me yelp. The cage protects my cock, but leaves my balls very exposed with nowhere to hide. She stalked away without saying a word.

Mistress sent me a message saying "I'm thinking about spanking your bottom hard."

I checked my chore list, changed the bed sheets, presented her with freshly baked sourdough for lunch (lucky I'd been proofing dough overnight), cleaned up the kitchen, got a roaring fire going in the living room, ordered on line supplies for the house repairs she wanted done, sorted the groceries, made lasagna for dinner with home made pasta sheets, cleaned up the kitchen again, generally tried to suck up.

She's sort of hot when she's angry, but she's also sort of scary.

 

[CuriousAndy]

On Monday Mistress left on a work trip, she's going to be away all week.

Mistress didn't get around to spanking me, so maybe my sucking up worked or maybe she was just too busy. She seemed happy. She had me locked up all last week and decided to unlock me an leave me unlocked this week... home alone.

"Remember you are still in mental chastity." She told me.

Mistress also told me she will be sending me additional tasks on top of my normal chores. She said if I complete all the tasks well there might be a reward, she might even let me cum!

I'm so horny. It's been 31 days since she last let me have an orgasm. Being home alone unlocked feels wrong, it feels dangerous. I feel like I want to lock myself up and drop the keys in her key safe, but that's not what she told me to do. It's going to be a confusing week.

 

[CuriousAndy]

My week of home alone unlocked passed pretty quickly, I ended up being very busy with work and had really no time to wrestle with the dilemma of being alone and unlocked all week.

As Mistress waited at the airport for her plane home I messaged her.

"What would you like for dinner?" I asked.

"Steak." She replied.

"Would you like me locked for your return?" I asked.

"Yes- please lock up puppy."

When my little carnivore arrived home there was a long hug, passionate kiss and then she fondled my cage to check I was locked and took the key.

She told me to start a fire while she showered, then she sat in front of the fire in her pyjamas sipping a cabernet shiraz while I prepared dinner.

Porterhouse medium rare, peppercorn sauce, carrots caramelised in brown sugar and butter, silky smooth mash potato. Served with more red wine and candles.

Mistress was very pleased, telling me it was perfect. It was pretty damn good. I've sort of spoiled myself for having steak at restaurants, usually I can do a much better job.

We went up to bed, cuddling under the sheets. Legs entwined, pressed together, me kissing her breasts, her kissing my forehead. Slow and sensual caressing.

Mistress told me "you're going to have to wait a bit longer... now get to work." Sending me down between her thighs.

It felt so good to be licking her again. As her moans built she recited her rules "you can't fuck me... you can't cum... you must obey me."

I moaned "yes Mistress" from between her thighs in response to each commandment.

Her orgasms were loud, desperate and very gratifying.

Finally she told me enough and we snuggled, dozing. I felt so sleepy and satisfied.

The next morning I told Mistress how last night was amazing. She agreed. I feel this way even though I was still locked in my cage and still haven't orgasmed, so strange.