please feel free to comment or ask any questions if you wish 
I'm rounding up to about a year of being in chastity and I wanted to start a new blog as I no longer feel like calling this a beginners experience. My other blog is over at [ http://www.chastityforums.com/viewtopic.php?f=15&t=61167 ] if you're interested in reading my thoughts from the very beginning of my chastity and reading about some pretty hot sex too.
What lead me to chastity is an interesting question and a lot of us probably have similar answers to mine. To sum it up from the beginning I had a masturbation problem and it roots back to day one, the first time I orgasmed. I can completely remember it, I was really young, 11, I had hit puberty at a very young age. It was such an intense feeling I remember thinking that right after it went away I wanted to feel it again. From then on it was literally a multiple sessions a day problem that lasted until just last year, so figure a good 21 years of lots of self pleasure. I think because I was such a young age when I started it just felt like such a natural thing to do, which it is but can quickly get out of control. Well couple that with growing up with Internet porn you can imagine how that fueled the fire of my addiction.
By the time high school came around my hormones were in full force like all teenagers. I was a damn good looking guy in high school too but I never dated that many women. I had two things that were slowing my social life down, I had low self confidence and pretty much from the beginning I've felt submissive towards women. My confidence was low because coming from junior high I was kind of a dork and fat. My submissiveness to women might come from growing up in a house with my mom and two older sisters, dad was definitely there but traveled a lot for work so I think I just got used to women telling me what to do and I like it. When I hit high school I miraculously ended up being one of those guys who completely transformed over the summer into a really good looking guy, I shot up to 6ft, thinned out and got my hair styled differently. My mind wasn't ready for my new look yet, I still felt like the dorky fat kid, so I remained a nice submissive boy who a lot of the girls didn't have an interest in me because I wasn't one of the bad boys. Or id go on a date or two and I was just a little to sweet and respectful for them. My junior year of high school I had a senior girl who was infatuated with me. She was pretty cute but a lot of people thought she was loud and opinionated which to be honest was absolutely true. I'm not even sure how we started hanging out but we did. It came to the point one night when we were talking on the phone and she flat out told me that she wanted to fuck me, told me how hot she thought I was. It was exciting, we were planning it out, she was even going to buy special lingerie to wear for me. I asked her if she would tie my hands and "take charge of me" she said she'd only tie up one because she wanted me to be able to take her clothes off. Sadly long story short my low self confidence kicked in and I ended up being a pussy and I didn't get laid, probably a good thing because it might have changed who I was and I might've ended up a cocky prick. Fast forward 3 years and a few sexless relationships later and I would meet my soulmate and best friend. I met my mistress in a college English 102 class.
I don't know what it was but no one has ever made me feel as comfortable around them as mistress does. She is and has always been such a kind, warm and loving women. One night almost 3 weeks into our relationship she told me she loved me and that she picked me. I absolutely melted, the women of my dreams told me she loved me and wanted me from the first time she laid eyes on me.
Rewinding a little bit... As I said we happened to be attending an English class together. I had certainly noticed her but I assumed she was out of my league and I never spoke to her. Little did I know that she was watching me very closely everyday for several weeks as I came to find out later.
One day In early October I was working in a store in our mall, I was 20 years old. There was a calendar stand that had been set up the night before right next to the store I worked at. I came in for my shift and sure enough there was my goddess standing by the cash register working at the calendar stand looking as beautiful and radiant as ever. I watched her for a minute before I started walk over to talk to her, she's right around 6ft and has this beautiful natural auburn reddish colored hair that went just past her jawline and flipped outwards, she has beautiful soft brown eyes and light freckling on her pretty face. I also couldn't help but think how good her ass looked in her dark blue tight jeans and she has an incredible 38C chest. I was probably drooling at her is more the accurate description of me looking at her. She caught me looking at her and she started to approach me. I was so thrilled I could hardly believe it was happening. We instantly hit it off and I have never felt so instantly comfortable or welcomed by anyone as I did with her. We talked all night during our shifts and right up to around the time the mall was closing. I mustered up my courage and said something dorky and cheesy to her to get a date and she ended up giving me her number, we hung out together that night with another one of her friends, I bought them both dinner and we had a great time . Two days after that night I was driving to work and she called me on my cell, I couldn't believe it, I was doing the 2 day no call rule because I liked her so much I didn't want to seem to eager(stupid right). mistress knew what she wanted and we went on another date two nights later. 3 weeks after that she took my virginity and I belonged to her.
These last twelve years have been absolutely incredible with her and she remains the woman of my dreams and I'm lucky she puts up with me. About a year into our relationship some of my porn fetish spilled over into our sex life. Even though we were having sex like crazy I was still masturbating and looking at porn. I was looking at so much porn I was always looking for harder stuff because that's what I needed to get off, my tastes grew darker. I have a huge latex/PVC fetish and I love sexy little outfits made from those materials and there is a plethora of porn dedicated to that fetish as I'm sure a lot of us know. Anyway I bought my mistress a black pleated PVC skirt, black PVC short zip front tank top and fishnet stockings. I laid them all out on my bed and pulled my blanket over them (we weren't living together yet). My queen was going to be coming over shortly and I wanted to surprise her with the outfit and see how she'd react to my fetish. Well she came over, we chilled for a bit and then I brought her into my bedroom and told her I had a surprise for her. She had a curious look on her face and then I whipped back my blanket to expose the naughty wear. She was slightly shocked when she saw what I bought her but she had a smile on her face too. After the initial shock she stripped down to try them on. Oh my god did she look so gorgeous in that outfit! Her breasts were busting out of the top, the skirt hugged her hips perfectly and her ass looked so good and damn her legs looked sexy in those fishnets. I instantly got hard and she came over to me just to see how horny she made me. We laid together in my bed making out, my cock still at full attention, I loved the feeling the material over her warm and soft body. There was even an arousing scent from the martial itself and her perfume and it was all driving me insane. It was some of the best most unforgettable sex I've ever had because she made my fantasy real, the mental image of her in that outfit will forever be in my memory and is making my device tight just thinking about her.
However... this created a problem for me. I thought she liked the outfits and I wanted to get her all kinds of slutty whorish things to feed my fetish. I started buying a lot of these outfits and over the years I'm sure I've spent thousands of dollars on them, some of them she's only worn once or twice. I was always trying to convince her to wear them for me. She did for a while but then she became fairly reluctant and flat out refused to wear them for me anymore, I started to make her feel self conscious. I felt I needed her to wear them because porn had created such unrealistic expectations for me that seeing her in those outfits was what got me horny and I had a hard time reaching an orgasm unless she was in one of those outfits. This problem persisted for a long time although we had an amazing relationship because we were still best friends but I was slowly pushing her away unbeknownst to me. Well like most couples do, we decided to have a baby and this was after 9 years of being together, married for 3 years at this point. We had some incredibly intense sex the whole time mistress was pregnant and let me tell you wow! I couldn't believe how sexual she was during those 9 months, it was like she was as horny I was all the time, we could barely keep up with each other. My asking her to wear the outfits at that point was dying down because she couldn't fit in them anymore because of the baby and I know for a fact she was glad she couldn't fit so I wouldn't ask her.
Well after our little dude was born mistress and my focus was on the baby. my mistress's libido was at an all time low. She had been through a lot during birth and had a very minimal sex drive for that first year and a half after our baby was born. Actually we really couldn't have PIV sex for about 6 month because it would hurt her when I would enter her, so we just stopped having sex for a while.
This is where my bad habits and behavior came crashing down on me like a ton of bricks. Instead of trying to find what works for my queen and how to make her happy I just kept jerking off and looking at more wired porn so I could get off selfishly taking care of myself. There was very little intimate contact between us even though we still loved each other very much. We would go weeks without any real contact and I was to oblivious to notice because I was satisfying myself not looking out for her needs. She would often head to the bedroom after the baby went to bed, I would head to living room and if we needed to communicate we texted each other when we were literally 30 feet away from each other. Now to be fair to myself obviously with a new baby there is a lot going on so intimacy wasn't exactly high priority at the moment anyway but in the same light it is a sort of support and it lets your loved one know they are truly loved. We actually did have one very intense intimate moment a couple weeks after our son was born. It was the first real break we had. My mom had come over to watch the baby while mistress and I caught up on some much needed sleep. We couldn't go to sleep right away and we laid there staring at each other, then we both just started passionately making out, I squeezed her breasts and the milk flowed. She wanted me to lick and suck on her nipples and I gladly did. They were so sensitive I nearly gave her an orgasm that way as I couldn't play with her clit because it was still very sensitive. At that point mistress claims that was the most intense passion she has really ever felt. There was no sex but it was an incredible moment for us both. Unfortunately as I stated above after that we had nothing that came close to level of passion and intimacy for the next year and a half.
One day over a year later, mistress was out and I was home alone. I got my laptop and started my usual self pleasuring routine. Today was different though, I was bored with my usual stuff and needed to find something that would send my cock over the top. I ended up stumbling across cuckold porn and figured what the hell let's see what this is about. Wow this shit was way hot! I found more and more and it was some seriously hot and dirty stuff. I was on a cuckold kick for about 2 weeks when I stumbled across Male Chastity with cuckolding. This is interesting I thought to myself as I watched a few videos and touched myself. For the first time in a long time I fantasized about my wife. But I fantasized about my wife getting fucked hard by another man while I watched helplessly bound in the corner. This was the first time I had sexually fantasized about my wife in a long time. Even though it was a strange fantasy it felt good to revive such strong sexual feelings for my wife again. Something funny happened when I orgasmed though, I realized how much I really wanted my wife and that I didn't really want another guy fucking her. It made me think about how I'd been pushing my wife away for the last 18 months by not paying the kind of attention to her I should've been. Well from there I did a little more research into MC and I found some real sites that truly discussed MC for relationship building purposes. One of the web sites was Kept For Her.com. They had a section titled "tips for him", I read through the page and had a bit of a pit in my stomach when I was done because of how the article made me feel. Everything I read about was how I should be treating my partner better and giving her the utmost respect. Masturbation and porn are purely forms of cheating etc... In the end masturbating takes your focus off of the woman in your life and other goals making you less attentive and ultimately careless. Jerking off is saying I care more about my needs than your needs. This all came down on me like a ton of bricks after I read this, I felt so guilty for the last decade of pushing slutty outfits at her that she didn't really want to wear, me looking at porn and tons of other naked women jerking off to them online instead of worshipping my goddess's beautiful mind and body furthering our connection. I wanted those intense feeling we had for each other like when we first met and right after our son was born. Ultimately I wanted to re-fall in love with my wife again. Not that we ever fell out of love but our love needed an overhaul.
When I read about chastity it just seemed so right for me especially because I was so addicted to masturbating, plus the fact that it's a really hot fetish didn't hurt either and the benefits were clear. After about two weeks of research and refraining from looking at porn and masturbating I got up enough courage to ask mistress if she would be my keyholder. (To be continued) please feel free to comment or ask any questions if you wish
I'm rounding up to about a year of being in chastity and I wanted to start a new blog as I no longer feel like calling this a beginners experience. My other blog is over at [ http://www.chastityforums.com/viewtopic.php?f=15&t=61167 ] if you're interested in reading my thoughts from the very beginning of my chastity and reading about some pretty hot sex too.
What lead me to chastity is an interesting question and a lot of us probably have similar answers to mine. To sum it up from the beginning I had a masturbation problem and it roots back to day one, the first time I orgasmed. I can completely remember it, I was really young, 11, I had hit puberty at a very young age. It was such an intense feeling I remember thinking that right after it went away I wanted to feel it again. From then on it was literally a multiple sessions a day problem that lasted until just last year, so figure a good 21 years of lots of self pleasure. I think because I was such a young age when I started it just felt like such a natural thing to do, which it is but can quickly get out of control. Well couple that with growing up with Internet porn you can imagine how that fueled the fire of my addiction.
By the time high school came around my hormones were in full force like all teenagers. I was a damn good looking guy in high school too but I never dated that many women. I had two things that were slowing my social life down, I had low self confidence and pretty much from the beginning I've felt submissive towards women. My confidence was low because coming from junior high I was kind of a dork and fat. My submissiveness to women might come from growing up in a house with my mom and two older sisters, dad was definitely there but traveled a lot for work so I think I just got used to women telling me what to do and I like it. When I hit high school I miraculously ended up being one of those guys who completely transformed over the summer into a really good looking guy, I shot up to 6ft, thinned out and got my hair styled differently. My mind wasn't ready for my new look yet, I still felt like the dorky fat kid, so I remained a nice submissive boy who a lot of the girls didn't have an interest in me because I wasn't one of the bad boys. Or id go on a date or two and I was just a little to sweet and respectful for them. My junior year of high school I had a senior girl who was infatuated with me. She was pretty cute but a lot of people thought she was loud and opinionated which to be honest was absolutely true. I'm not even sure how we started hanging out but we did. It came to the point one night when we were talking on the phone and she flat out told me that she wanted to fuck me, told me how hot she thought I was. It was exciting, we were planning it out, she was even going to buy special lingerie to wear for me. I asked her if she would tie my hands and "take charge of me" she said she'd only tie up one because she wanted me to be able to take her clothes off. Sadly long story short my low self confidence kicked in and I ended up being a pussy and I didn't get laid, probably a good thing because it might have changed who I was and I might've ended up a cocky prick. Fast forward 3 years and a few sexless relationships later and I would meet my soulmate and best friend. I met my mistress in a college English 102 class.
I don't know what it was but no one has ever made me feel as comfortable around them as mistress does. She is and has always been such a kind, warm and loving women. One night almost 3 weeks into our relationship she told me she loved me and that she picked me. I absolutely melted, the women of my dreams told me she loved me and wanted me from the first time she laid eyes on me.
Rewinding a little bit... As I said we happened to be attending an English class together. I had certainly noticed her but I assumed she was out of my league and I never spoke to her. Little did I know that she was watching me very closely everyday for several weeks as I came to find out later.
One day In early October I was working in a store in our mall, I was 20 years old. There was a calendar stand that had been set up the night before right next to the store I worked at. I came in for my shift and sure enough there was my goddess standing by the cash register working at the calendar stand looking as beautiful and radiant as ever. I watched her for a minute before I started walk over to talk to her, she's right around 6ft and has this beautiful natural auburn reddish colored hair that went just past her jawline and flipped outwards, she has beautiful soft brown eyes and light freckling on her pretty face. I also couldn't help but think how good her ass looked in her dark blue tight jeans and she has an incredible 38C chest. I was probably drooling at her is more the accurate description of me looking at her. She caught me looking at her and she started to approach me. I was so thrilled I could hardly believe it was happening. We instantly hit it off and I have never felt so instantly comfortable or welcomed by anyone as I did with her. We talked all night during our shifts and right up to around the time the mall was closing. I mustered up my courage and said something dorky and cheesy to her to get a date and she ended up giving me her number, we hung out together that night with another one of her friends, I bought them both dinner and we had a great time . Two days after that night I was driving to work and she called me on my cell, I couldn't believe it, I was doing the 2 day no call rule because I liked her so much I didn't want to seem to eager(stupid right). mistress knew what she wanted and we went on another date two nights later. 3 weeks after that she took my virginity and I belonged to her.
These last twelve years have been absolutely incredible with her and she remains the woman of my dreams and I'm lucky she puts up with me. About a year into our relationship some of my porn fetish spilled over into our sex life. Even though we were having sex like crazy I was still masturbating and looking at porn. I was looking at so much porn I was always looking for harder stuff because that's what I needed to get off, my tastes grew darker. I have a huge latex/PVC fetish and I love sexy little outfits made from those materials and there is a plethora of porn dedicated to that fetish as I'm sure a lot of us know. Anyway I bought my mistress a black pleated PVC skirt, black PVC short zip front tank top and fishnet stockings. I laid them all out on my bed and pulled my blanket over them (we weren't living together yet). My queen was going to be coming over shortly and I wanted to surprise her with the outfit and see how she'd react to my fetish. Well she came over, we chilled for a bit and then I brought her into my bedroom and told her I had a surprise for her. She had a curious look on her face and then I whipped back my blanket to expose the naughty wear. She was slightly shocked when she saw what I bought her but she had a smile on her face too. After the initial shock she stripped down to try them on. Oh my god did she look so gorgeous in that outfit! Her breasts were busting out of the top, the skirt hugged her hips perfectly and her ass looked so good and damn her legs looked sexy in those fishnets. I instantly got hard and she came over to me just to see how horny she made me. We laid together in my bed making out, my cock still at full attention, I loved the feeling the material over her warm and soft body. There was even an arousing scent from the martial itself and her perfume and it was all driving me insane. It was some of the best most unforgettable sex I've ever had because she made my fantasy real, the mental image of her in that outfit will forever be in my memory and is making my device tight just thinking about her.
However... this created a problem for me. I thought she liked the outfits and I wanted to get her all kinds of slutty whorish things to feed my fetish. I started buying a lot of these outfits and over the years I'm sure I've spent thousands of dollars on them, some of them she's only worn once or twice. I was always trying to convince her to wear them for me. She did for a while but then she became fairly reluctant and flat out refused to wear them for me anymore, I started to make her feel self conscious. I felt I needed her to wear them because porn had created such unrealistic expectations for me that seeing her in those outfits was what got me horny and I had a hard time reaching an orgasm unless she was in one of those outfits. This problem persisted for a long time although we had an amazing relationship because we were still best friends but I was slowly pushing her away unbeknownst to me. Well like most couples do, we decided to have a baby and this was after 9 years of being together, married for 3 years at this point. We had some incredibly intense sex the whole time mistress was pregnant and let me tell you wow! I couldn't believe how sexual she was during those 9 months, it was like she was as horny I was all the time, we could barely keep up with each other. My asking her to wear the outfits at that point was dying down because she couldn't fit in them anymore because of the baby and I know for a fact she was glad she couldn't fit so I wouldn't ask her.
Well after our little dude was born mistress and my focus was on the baby. my mistress's libido was at an all time low. She had been through a lot during birth and had a very minimal sex drive for that first year and a half after our baby was born. Actually we really couldn't have PIV sex for about 6 month because it would hurt her when I would enter her, so we just stopped having sex for a while.
This is where my bad habits and behavior came crashing down on me like a ton of bricks. Instead of trying to find what works for my queen and how to make her happy I just kept jerking off and looking at more wired porn so I could get off selfishly taking care of myself. There was very little intimate contact between us even though we still loved each other very much. We would go weeks without any real contact and I was to oblivious to notice because I was satisfying myself not looking out for her needs. She would often head to the bedroom after the baby went to bed, I would head to living room and if we needed to communicate we texted each other when we were literally 30 feet away from each other. Now to be fair to myself obviously with a new baby there is a lot going on so intimacy wasn't exactly high priority at the moment anyway but in the same light it is a sort of support and it lets your loved one know they are truly loved. We actually did have one very intense intimate moment a couple weeks after our son was born. It was the first real break we had. My mom had come over to watch the baby while mistress and I caught up on some much needed sleep. We couldn't go to sleep right away and we laid there staring at each other, then we both just started passionately making out, I squeezed her breasts and the milk flowed. She wanted me to lick and suck on her nipples and I gladly did. They were so sensitive I nearly gave her an orgasm that way as I couldn't play with her clit because it was still very sensitive. At that point mistress claims that was the most intense passion she has really ever felt. There was no sex but it was an incredible moment for us both. Unfortunately as I stated above after that we had nothing that came close to level of passion and intimacy for the next year and a half.
One day over a year later, mistress was out and I was home alone. I got my laptop and started my usual self pleasuring routine. Today was different though, I was bored with my usual stuff and needed to find something that would send my cock over the top. I ended up stumbling across cuckold porn and figured what the hell let's see what this is about. Wow this shit was way hot! I found more and more and it was some seriously hot and dirty stuff. I was on a cuckold kick for about 2 weeks when I stumbled across Male Chastity with cuckolding. This is interesting I thought to myself as I watched a few videos and touched myself. For the first time in a long time I fantasized about my wife. But I fantasized about my wife getting fucked hard by another man while I watched helplessly bound in the corner. This was the first time I had sexually fantasized about my wife in a long time. Even though it was a strange fantasy it felt good to revive such strong sexual feelings for my wife again. Something funny happened when I orgasmed though, I realized how much I really wanted my wife and that I didn't really want another guy fucking her. It made me think about how I'd been pushing my wife away for the last 18 months by not paying the kind of attention to her I should've been. Well from there I did a little more research into MC and I found some real sites that truly discussed MC for relationship building purposes. One of the web sites was Kept For Her.com. They had a section titled "tips for him", I read through the page and had a bit of a pit in my stomach when I was done because of how the article made me feel. Everything I read about was how I should be treating my partner better and giving her the utmost respect. Masturbation and porn are purely forms of cheating etc... In the end masturbating takes your focus off of the woman in your life and other goals making you less attentive and ultimately careless. Jerking off is saying I care more about my needs than your needs. This all came down on me like a ton of bricks after I read this, I felt so guilty for the last decade of pushing slutty outfits at her that she didn't really want to wear, me looking at porn and tons of other naked women jerking off to them online instead of worshipping my goddess's beautiful mind and body furthering our connection. I wanted those intense feeling we had for each other like when we first met and right after our son was born. Ultimately I wanted to re-fall in love with my wife again. Not that we ever fell out of love but our love needed an overhaul.
When I read about chastity it just seemed so right for me especially because I was so addicted to masturbating, plus the fact that it's a really hot fetish didn't hurt either and the benefits were clear. After about two weeks of research and refraining from looking at porn and masturbating I got up enough courage to ask mistress if she would be my keyholder. (To be continued) please feel free to comment or ask any questions if you wish
