Confessions of a former wanker

[iluvteasers]

I used to masturbate, a lot. Id make myself cum probably over 1500 times a year, at weekends Id start masturbating at 6pm and then eventually finish (cumming 5 or 6 times) at 7am (constantly, which is longer than the 'official' wanking world record lol) I couldnt get enough of porn and especially fetish porn. I would regularly show myself on cam chat sites, being watched cumming was a huge fantasy, plus i was a virgin so it was even more of a turn on knowing a woman was seeing my cock. Id read about chastity and fantasized about being controlled so i couldnt masturbate all of the time, i tried about 5 different cages hoping one would fit so i could keep a cage on and have the key with a mistress (years ago Miss Lucy was willing to take the key, but the cage i was planning to use didnt fit so i backed out which made it seem like i was just a wanker - which i was, but not in this instance, i was going to forego the key had the cage fitted) but i could never get one that fitted tight balls.

Many of my wanking sessions would end in phonesex or camgirl chat and then paying a Mistress for permission, or being charged cumtax. Everything was about having orgasms - this went on for about 16 years, masturbation became my favorite activity. I enjoyed humiliation, small penis or blow up doll sex, for a while a misspelled 'inflatable' meant a pic of me using a doll was on the first page of google searches.

This year i have only masturbated 5 times as i no longer have control of that area. Im not caged, but i only get to cum when its done for me. Its so much better.

 

[nathalia]

Congratulation on tackling your addiction!
May I ask what do you mean when you say you "no longer have control of that area". What's stopping you from masturbating if you are not cage? Is it simply through will power? If so that's even more impressive!

 

[Swingle]

I was a chronic masturbator for most of my life. For the last two years my girlfriend has had total control over my penis and orgasms. I am only allowed to masturbate if I she gives me permission. When I am permitted to masturbate, I go all the way: using copious lube and edging for four or five hours before letting myself cum.

 

[desertsub]

My Mistress has always considered me masturbating as cheating on her. As we moved transitioned from playing to a real life 24/7 female led marriage she made it clear that my penis was her property. We experimented with chastity to the point where she had me order a custom sized cage so I would be able to wear it long term. One day she came home from work early and caught me masturbating, which she had forbidden me to do without her permission and supervision. At that point she locked me in my Jail Bird and put one security screw key on her key ring and hid the other one in the house where only she knew where it was in case of emergencies. That was 4 years ago and since then I've only been unlocked while under her strict supervision! After 4 years I still miss masturbating and will sometimes, during a teasing session, beg to be allowed to masturbate myself for her. She will usually let me because it turns her on to see me play with myself, but she never allows me to cum by my own hand!