I had a dream last night that my penis and balls fell off and were dead.so been the person I am I looked it up and this is what is said (and I know we should not take things with a gain of salt ) but funny with the answer I got. Castrating oneself: Denying one’s own sexual drive, or introverting anger because of sexual drive. It might also suggest the conflict of choice between being feminine or masculine.
Sounds about right to me. I once dreamt that I was in the back seat of a car with two very hot friends in the front, both of whom I had a crush on, but neither of which I wanted to make a move on, for various reasons. One of them I could have too. Anyway, I dreamed that I cut my own dick off right there in the back seat of the car. I dont know how I came to have a knife or scissors or whatever it was as that wasnt in the dream, just suddenly I had my limp and bleeding willy in my fingers with a red and bleeding stump in my lap. It was most odd, mildly disturbing and quite surprising at the time. Of course, I understand it now, but didn't really then. Subverted desire and self emasculation right there. Introverting anger I can see because of the violence of the act, and there may have been some somewhere deep down, but there wasn't any sense of anger. Now is a different matter. I where a chastity cage precisely because of that introverted anger. I'd get angry because my partner would with-hold sexual contact for months at a time, chastity puts paid to that anger, but is in part as a response to it. We both have a nicer life because of that little cage and the understanding that now exists between us.