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I can agree with that idea of night erections stretching the sack.

 

An addition from yesterday, that 10 minutes out for shaving was the worst idea. I am now so horny I am so frustrated that I just can't give the little fella a good massage. I would like to cum but really I just want to rub, stroke and feel myself again! Hope this goes away soon.

 

@Onescotchaday I agree that is a route to go because coincidentally we had a real nice cuddle spoon time last evening when I got home from work. She was already in bed when I got home. I did my normal settle in but instead of coffee and tv, I just felt like laying with Her. She was just dozing when I slipped in bed beside her. Although I was still real horny, I refrained from humping her like some adolescent dog. Instead just softly slipped an arm over Her and gently tried to assist her to a more relaxed deeper sleep. She responded with a soft subtle grinding, her nice firm buttocks swallowing my cage. I just eased into a nice soft massage and received that oh so pleasant grind in return. After several minutes she finally nodded off for good. But I must say I could breathe a sigh of relief and I was able to sleep through the night. Now @Onescotchaday my Wife didn't have an orgasm, but that is as intimate as it has gotten around here in awhile. It did help me accept and sedate my horniness. Thanks.

 

This in two parts due to length...thanks for reading.Well time to catch up on the status of our experimental month of a FLM. The long and short is it is not for us right now or maybe even never. I used my time in chastity to work at being more passive and open to my wife's needs. I enjoyed catering to her and she appreciated my efforts. But she felt uncomfortable with me taking on some of what she considers her responsibilities.

I would say I am the alpha male to our relationship. We are equals and share and do for each other willingly. She did not really feel the need to keep me chaste to make me a more attentive husband. She never got over the thought that to her it was weird to want to wear a chastity device. So ultimately she just stopped playing and left me in my chastity. I was locked. She had the keys but was no longer interested.

I was still determined to do my 30 days as I intended. My wife lost interest around 22 days. I had gotten out for 10 minutes for a shave and when I was locked back up, I was the horniness I'd ever been. This was not such a good thing.

For the next couple of days all I could think about was relief...somehow I had to get relief! My sexually frustrated mind was starting to take over. I thought I have a bit more than a week to go before the 30 days would expire. I was going to find a game to play to earn my release. I found a web tease that said it would take about a week or more to complete performing tasks to earn points to get released. The tease had several toys and items listed one would need to complete the tease.

Now I've always been a dominant but I like to switch occasionally too. The list of items made me think I may be challenging myself here a bit. Nipple clamps, butt plug, dildo, panties and the list went on. I have a nice collection of toys so no big deal there. I did have to go out and buy panties.

Now to earn points I had some domestic chores and training tasks. The training was designed to keep one horny and sexually driven for release. Each day had a required task. Such as practice sucking cock for 20 minutes three times a day, have the plug inserted through your work day, wear panties and nipple clamps, etc. What was demanding was that to keep earned points each task once performed had to be performed every day on forward or one loses all earned points from the task.

Continued in next post...

 

Continuation...

So if I sucked cock three times a day for 30 minutes the first day, I would have to suck cock like that everyday until release day. By the way, for a normally dominant male, I can really suck a dick now! I felt confident and enjoyed the feeling of wearing panties. Seeing so many gurls here made me feel good about it. My somewhat previously unused ass certainly got a workout.

There were two incidents over those days that truly stood out. The first occurred after some dildo riding and nipple clamp torture. I got home from work removed the plug, sucked the cock for 20 minutes then while soaked in my spit I sat on that dildo and rode it for 15 more minutes. The whole time clever clamps biting my nipples. I was beyond frustrated and dripping when I was done.

Then it happened. I felt I had to pee but when I was about to go...This long thick drip starting oozing from my caged cock. I felt a strain as my cock pulsed and continuously oozed thick clear fluid. It felt amazing! It was not an orgasm but wow i wish it didn't stop! I grabbed my phone and took a couple pics as it happened I'll be sure to post.

The second occurred on my release night. I had the place to myself so I performed my last sucking and fucking myself tasks and rewarded myself with a bit of a porn tease before the un-caging. I have pics and videos of a very hot ex of mine that are brought out on special occasions. This was one of those occasions. So I started rubbing my caged cock while viewing all this great stuff. I got so hot and bothered jerking my cage. I was pulling frantically! I could feel an orgasm building but I just couldn't get there.

I could not make enough contact to finish the job. I tried and tried, getting more frustrated and horny as time passed. My finger slipped through the bars just underneath my cock head. Oh wow I started rubbing furiously like I was fingering a clit! This was even more maddening! But then I started to cum! I was shaking and straining as my cock just seeped pulses of semen. Days of juice just spilled out. I just kept rubbing not wanting it to stop. It was amazing! Never had a "sissygasm" before but I'm glad I did. After 35 days locked it was worth it.

I remained unlocked until a few days ago and have had several masturbating orgasms. My wife and I haven't been intimate in awhile so decided to lock up again. I really don't feel like jerking off for pleasure, it's really not that satisfying now. I don't know about this lock up term but maybe I'll start another thread and see what the group thinks. This site can be inspiring. I know I did things I normally would not have while locked due to my intense sexual desire, but I was confident to try by seeing all the lifestyle examples displayed here.

 

@daxxxxxx if I'm ever in the UK with my key, you certainly can suck my cock. It's the least I could do to say thanks when visiting.

 

@Felix cum ea I am getting into this lifestyle. I'm not a submissive by nature but I like the way I am more subdued. Even though my wife and I aren't having sexual relations doesn't mean our relationship is bad or in danger. We're partners. So from a sexual stand point I haven't had PIV sex in over 8 months. I was masturbating to fill the void but that became more habitual then necessary. But with chastity that ends. However I have become a different type of horny. I actually use my dominant mind against myself. One knows that stimulation of the penis is almost impossible, so now, after many days of lock up, fantasies evolve. Now weeks pass, one reads the forums on CM, looks at galleries and the variety of lifestyles, the brain needs sexual stimulation now. Thoughts outside what are my normal patterns shift, curiosity takes over. My dominant mind starts commanding my submissive fantasy mind. That's how panties, dildos, plugs, etc become involved. So mind games go on for a few days until ultimately I need stimulation. I dominate myself to some alternative form of release.
I'm amazed at how far I pushed my self for one moment of sexual stimulation. A lot different than masturbating everyday. I still feel a bit of guilt for pleasing myself without my wife. However it should be said that my wife does not understand what drives a man to cross dress and the ass is not for sex. So a bit of secrecy, however shameful, is necessary for me to better developed and understand me. We'll see where all this goes.