I will be brief to start. I have fantasized about chastity for the longest time. A decade ago, I was a second away from transitioning MtF (I still think about the episode in my life daily. I think it makes me better as a person and attentive as a man to my wife), and went to therapy and talked to me my wife. Time has passed and here we are. Two kids and one on the way, house, cars, mortgage, etc. Couple of months ago, I just got the courage to suggest chastity to my wife. She reluctantly agreed. Three weeks ago, finally took the plunge and ordered it.
So only a couple of days now in Chasity. 12 to be exact. Two releases and no orgasms due to performance issues. Well, let's just say that after years of reading about the mental changes, all I have to say is FUCK. I don't know what the heck is happening to me.
Let's go over the list.
1. I have a lot more energy (Its not endless but a significant more that I can notice)
2. I have no appetite. I have gained a lot of weight over the years, and could never diet. I haven't eaten at dinner time in three days because I'm just not hungry ?!?!? What is happening? I've lost 5 pounds
3. I am silly horny all the fucking time. Not hard - just horny.
4. I expected this, but I am really attracted to my wife. We had slacked, but all of sudden - yowza!
5. We are soooooo very far from it, but I am even considering how many years it would take to introduce cuckolding. I mean what the heck? I balked at the thought before and now I'm like oh yeah we should definitely try this. I mean who am I?
6. I gave up diet soda. Just like that. Been trying to quit for years. Totally fine. (I drink tea on the side so there was no real caffeine withdrawal)
7. I've been playing this game on my phone for the daily challenge for literally 6 years. Haven't even opened it. Don't care one bit.
8. I am motivated to get s$%* done. Hard to do no matter what with two kids, but taking steps to do it.
So you tell me. I expect this is normal. It's just so much to deal with. Does it plateau? Do I even out? Will I be able to handle this? Anyways, I love it. My wife is still way to vanilla to start acting on it, I think. She knew how much I wanted to play last night but made me foot rub her for literally an hour, and then told me to just submissively snuggle up to her side in bed for another hour while she browsed Facebook, before saying she had to go to sleep.
Wow. Just wow. I wished for it......
So only a couple of days now in Chasity. 12 to be exact. Two releases and no orgasms due to performance issues. Well, let's just say that after years of reading about the mental changes, all I have to say is FUCK. I don't know what the heck is happening to me.
Let's go over the list.
1. I have a lot more energy (Its not endless but a significant more that I can notice)
2. I have no appetite. I have gained a lot of weight over the years, and could never diet. I haven't eaten at dinner time in three days because I'm just not hungry ?!?!? What is happening? I've lost 5 pounds
3. I am silly horny all the fucking time. Not hard - just horny.
4. I expected this, but I am really attracted to my wife. We had slacked, but all of sudden - yowza!
5. We are soooooo very far from it, but I am even considering how many years it would take to introduce cuckolding. I mean what the heck? I balked at the thought before and now I'm like oh yeah we should definitely try this. I mean who am I?
6. I gave up diet soda. Just like that. Been trying to quit for years. Totally fine. (I drink tea on the side so there was no real caffeine withdrawal)
7. I've been playing this game on my phone for the daily challenge for literally 6 years. Haven't even opened it. Don't care one bit.
8. I am motivated to get s$%* done. Hard to do no matter what with two kids, but taking steps to do it.
So you tell me. I expect this is normal. It's just so much to deal with. Does it plateau? Do I even out? Will I be able to handle this? Anyways, I love it. My wife is still way to vanilla to start acting on it, I think. She knew how much I wanted to play last night but made me foot rub her for literally an hour, and then told me to just submissively snuggle up to her side in bed for another hour while she browsed Facebook, before saying she had to go to sleep.
Wow. Just wow. I wished for it......