After 15 days of denial..... Yesterday I had an early Dr appt so I was unlocked the entire day and decided to leave it off for the night due to some push back issues from my spouse. She had mentioned a couple of times recently about me taking it off. So after 15 days of denial what did I do? Masturbated in bed last night. I was so disgusted with myself that I even started it, so I decided to ruin my orgasm. I feel terrible, mad and disappointed. Almost like I cheated on my spouse. Why can't I go 24hours without being a selfish ass. Back locked but super down today.
. I couldn’t sleep and it was the middle of the night. I wouldn’t want to wake her and asked that question. Plus other issues posted in my journal posts.
I've just had a read of your journal. I wouldn't make a big deal of it. It's a scorpion and the fox situation. You're a wanker, after 15 days of lockup you were left with the opportunity to wank, you wanked because it's your nature. Have you told her what you did? She either won't care or will be annoyed. If she's annoyed fair enough, you have agency, however you were put I to a position to fail imo. You seem to be fairly new to this. 15 days is a good run, don't beat yourself up for beating yourself off. It's a shame you didn't do it together though.
Worse things have happen than this man, just be honest about it with your spouse. I would imagine telling her this would show her how much of a problem you have & I am sure she will be more than happy to help you correct it. Just be honest.
I also had a Dr. appointment this past week and the cage had to be off for the exam. My wife decided to come with me, so the cage came off, we drove to the Doctor, and then right back home. As soon as I walked in the door I was given the cage to put back on. So all my temptation was removed by my wife standing there with a bag of ice helping to shrink me down. In many ways you are lucky, my prostate exam was a little too stimulating and it showed, sad part it was a male doctor.
This is a perfect example of why male chastity is a good idea. To prevent you from taking pleasure yourself without including your wife. It will also make you more pliant to your wife's other needs.
I see it more as a lesson learned. Sometimes we don't realize how easy it is to cross the line. Now you know, and hopefully can avoid that kind of let down again.
As said before 15 days is a good run if your new to the chastity game, so don’t be to hard on your self.