There are times that my mind starts to go crazy with thoughts of WTF did I do, giving up daily piv and the dominance I had over my Wife to be locked away and only have piv a couple or few times a month that doesn’t end with orgasm for me.
But those thoughts usually pop up when she’s at work, and after a few moments of feeling sorry for myself I’m able to snap myself out of it. I know we’re both actually happier living this way. All of our sexual experiences now are much more fulfilling, and I never thought we’d feel closer to each other than pre chastity, and yet somehow we do. Then when she’s around me again, a calmness comes over me and I want to serve her and worship her, and all those selfish thoughts and feelings just melt away, and I’m able to lean into the frustration and lust again.
Over these last two years of much more serious chastity, my Wife will grant me a few days of freedom occasionally and we have more piv and she may grant a couple orgasms. She’s either wondering if we could go back to pre chastity living, or she’s brilliantly allowing me to have that taste because she knows it always makes me realize that I’m truly happier and crave being locked and denied. Either way, those freedom periods have become very rare, but they’re quite effective to remind me to just keep obeying her and be locked and focus my energy on pleasing her. I do know that this lifestyle has made me much less selfish about sex, and that I feel better all around when I’m not cumming so often.
