I don't want to be let out!

dubsub

dubsub

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Hi All,
I am nearing the 4 month mark in my CB6000. Mistress let me out for two days over Christmas. Over the last ten days I have been in a state of Nirvana. I have time off work and have being doing a high workload in the home. Looking to Mistress for even more jobs to please her. She has rewarded me on Monday this week with a sound belting in the morning. I worked so hard cleaning windows on Monday afternoon that she laughed that the belting had really worked. I was brave and said you keep belting me and I will keep working. So Tuesday morning I got lashed and caned! This wonderful sequence has lasted all week and this morning when I came back from the school run she caned and straped me so hard I nearly passed out. When I recovered she saw the CB bulging and she said " I think its time to take that off for a while"
As she went back up to bed I am left here writing to you all for help. I don't want it to stop. I don't want to come out unless it is to have one come for her. I want to stay in like this and be beaten regularly. I will work like a good maid and do any thing to show her how much I adore her. I just want to stay locked up.

Any ideas?

regards to everyone but most especially Mistress Watchfull who needs all our support to keep looking so beautiful.

dubsub
 
Agreed. I'd suggest you tell her how happy you are. Tell her what you would like. It seems like she's being accommodating with the corporal punishment, and sounds like she's testing to make sure you're happy. Let her know! :-)

mikecb
 
Thanks guys. Maybe it should be Mike"the wise one"CB, the situation is she feels that I am in hell in my CB and she loves the attention etc. I think the corporal is a reward because she knows how much I love it etc, but it is kind of back the front. She feels she is restricting me in the CB and I am have to "beg" to be let out sometimes. I feel if she knows after I tell her that I love to be locked she will see it as simply another pleasure for me and a selfish toping from the bottom. I have always maintained that when I am locked I will be a better person, stay away from porn, look after her etc. but now she will realise I have manipulated the situation all along for my own satisfaction. Its like loving bondage and tieing yourself up. I am confused and rambling a bit. I just need to kneel and confess. I fear she will take it off and it could be months before I get put back in. I just want to wash and scrub all weekend and then get single tailed on Monday! Thanks to Fred and yourself for the input.

dubsub
 
You've achieved the CB transformation. The attitude adjustment is complete. Being in it and taking care of her IS your reward now.

Approach her along those lines.....

FN
 
dubsub is the perfect example of what prolonged chastity and conditioning can do to a subby. He finds himself at a point where he is ready to beg to remain chaste and receive his dailing beatings.

The elixir of constant need is so very addictive. As for his concern about topping from the bottom - begging and pleading for something he finds pleasurable is not unseeming in a subby - demanding it, however is very unseeming or continuing to plead when he has been told NO - is very unseeming. I think dubsub should trust Mistress on this - She will weigh his current condition against Her own needs and decide what is best for him. But that does not mean that he can't beg to be kept as he is - an energetic, chaste and beaten maid. I think She must be pleased with his condition and would want to hear the begging - it would let Her know how broken he really is. Whether She decides to keep him that way - is Her choice.

In reality, dubsub's current condition is not permanent - it takes months if not years to achieve that result. Still, to dubsub - this is a crucial period. He has learned how overwhelming his need can become and he doesn't want it to stop. If anything, he probably wants it to increase. Despite his pathetic condition, his passion is touching - he must not keep that from his Mistress.

Be a good little maid, dubsub and tell Her and then accept your destiny which ever way it falls.
 
i can sympathsize with you dudsub, i have the same feelings about being kept in chastity and never being let out. to me its like having a constant adrennalin rush shooting threw your body ,especially at nite. i love to wake up each morning to reach down there only to feel the flat smooth steel hugging and totaly encapsulating my groin. to look down there and see 'nothing there' that resembles a male, this increases my yearnings of femininity and of striving to be a better slave. all i can suggest is be open and honest with your mistress and let her know your true feelings, chastity is a divine reward which has to be earnt. dareena
 
I know the feeling, as well. I have offered my wife that she could permamently lock me if she so desired, but alas, has little or no interest in chastity. Then one day maybe things will change. One can only hope.
 
Thank you all for your input and help but most of all to Miss D for her insightful comments.
If I can expand on this so as to give you the backround to my Mistress's stance on this.
Chastity, no interest in the first place. Agreed to try it as a favour to me as she felt it was part of my kink etc.
Liked the effect it had on me via housework and fussing etc.
Did not miss it when it was gone.
The session since Christmas has been more intence and I am going round trying to please her so as to attract another beating. The beatings are a reward for the cleaning and effort.
Yesterday it had to be unlocked for a practical 18 hours. Last night I slept unlocked. Mistress said I should take it off for repairs and we were going out to a stadium where you cannot pee sitting down. Last night we stayed out and had a lot to drink. Her sisiter was at our home.
There was no opertunity for sex last night but the biggest worry is I did not get any full erections since being left out! Free but only half aroused. No chance for a cum and I will be locked back in in about an hour when Mistress gets up and I can use her bathroom.

Her sister leaves tomorrow evening so the next beating might be on Tuesday.

After all the advice I tried to talk to her on Friday saying "can we talk?"
"If it means talking about that(CB) what is it?"
"I just wanted to ask you if it had any advantages or disadvantages for you?"
"One disadvantage for me is when you want to talk about it so shut up."

So thats my report. I hope to be back in later and thanks again for the help. I am very confused.

dubsub
 
dobsub, ugh, I wish I had a suggestion. I go through the same thing with my wife at times. She's just uninterested, and doesn't want to discuss it. I can sympathize.

Best of luck to you!
mikecb
 
Couldn't of said it Better

dareena said:
i can sympathsize with you dudsub, i have the same feelings about being kept in chastity and never being let out. to me its like having a constant adrennalin rush shooting threw your body ,especially at nite. i love to wake up each morning to reach down there only to feel the flat smooth steel hugging and totaly encapsulating my groin. to look down there and see 'nothing there' that resembles a male, this increases my yearnings of femininity and of striving to be a better slave. all i can suggest is be open and honest with your mistress and let her know your true feelings, chastity is a divine reward which has to be earnt. dareena
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I couldn't wrote it any better than Dareena. The more i'm locked the more I want to be feminine and serve. And Dubsub I too at time wish I could be locked 24/7/365. But real life has it way of stepping in and rearing its ugly head. So every so often I have to put the chastity and femininity to one side and do the male mode things. But be sure that not to long and Tanya's inter self starts to boil over and out she comes for a visit again. Just communicate your wishes, fantasies, and concerns with you partner. And if you start to fail with the required day to day tasks. Just maybe she could hold out the chastity and whippins as a punishment. Just the opposite of what you want to happen for being good..

Good luck with not being released, Missy Tanya
 
Hi All,

Just to update you on my progress. Mistress's sister went home last night and when I came back from the school run this morning the belts and canes were laid out on the table. I was told to lay over the end of the coach and I received a severe beating. During the beating I try now not to cry out and stay down and still. This has led to Mistress whipping me harder to get a reaction. Although it hurt like hell she kept going till she was tired. I then got six of the belt on the hands. Clean up the house was all I got in responce to my thank you. Mistress is back in bed I am locked up and back in Nirvana. Long may it last. Thanks for your support over the last few days.

dubsub.
 
Well, it seems you got exactly what you asked for - imagine that... Now, get back to your chores like a good little maid! I want the house spotless!

Do you have a pretty maid's uniform to help you with your chores?
 
Thank you again Miss D.
Mistress has no interest in Femming. I wish she had as I would gladly submit but she treats all things "Transvestite" with distain when it comes up on TV or in open conversation. I have tried to make subtle hints that I long to wear panties but as yet to no avail. I have asked for help here in the forum before for ideas as to how to interest my Mistress but nothing yet. I am surely nobody to complain. I pulled the fridge apart this morning and washed all shelves and baskets etc. It is spotless.

Thank you for your help and interest.

dubsub
(not wearing panties yet)
 
Updated today. Received a nice beating and it is now 4 months since November 2nd with two days out over Christmas. I am bursting and need to be released or milked. I do not think a release is on the cards. I opened an album in my profile and posted a few amature pics.

thank you
dubsub
 
I think she's "got it"!

My gut feeling is that you need to stop thinking about it... all of it... and just let it be.

(I hate it when I give advice I should be taking! :happy0011:)

It would appear to me that she is trying to stop you from "topping" by ignoring your requests to talk and figure out what she is doing.

I think you are very lucky!
 
Thank you so much for your help MW. It makes it worthwhile when you give your amazing slant on things. I hope your right that in fact my Mistress has indeed "Got It". I am a happy locked little bunny.:anim_46:
 
Got a lashing of 84 strokes this morning then six on the hands with the strap. Mistress then told me to clean and tidy the house. I posted a picture of my behind when she had finished. She has told me I will be released on Sunday night as she requires me for sex. I do not know whether I will be put back in on Monday. It is 4 and a half months since I was locked up and I have grown very used to it. I no longer have any chaffing or soreness issues it is just there and I forget about it. I do need release and I am looking forward to Sunday night. Thanks everybody for your comments. Sorry if the pictures are a bit amature.

dubsub.
 
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