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    mr. Xcitex2. i bow to you chastism. i know i can't wait 35 days.i would have to take on a HUGE project like gutting the house or something. there would bw so much energy and frustration the i might just EXPLODE with the slightest touch.:mad0233:
     
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    You two kill me LOL Trust me I did explode when it was all over. Oh and Jen, sorry Goddess Jen I was fine with the remark I too was kidding. LOL
     
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    we're movie people-goddess and i can go all day, back+forth----reciting movie qoutes,that is.
     
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    Sorry Happypants it appears I have neglected my thread for couple of days. My wife and her family are huge movie buffs. When we first started dating her and her sisters would sit around and with every comment I would make they had some movie line to go with it. Drove me crazy. LOL I eventually learned that I had better get into the movie world if I wanted to play along. As a executive in many companies I hardly had the time to take in a movie. Besides unless there was a F-14 buzzing the flight deck, or a M-16 in the hands of a merc, I just was not into the movie anyway. LOL

    Well Goddess and I just got back from an amazing two day conference for couples call the Love and Respect Conference. Truth be told I was midly excited before going to see it, but after today well let's just say I think, it might have been one of the better things we have done as a couple in a long time. Definitely some interesting tid bits. I could not help during a few of the parts when they were talking about a man's struggle with pornography or the simple act of merely looking at another woman with lustful thoughts, that I was thinking, well I guess the chastity thing fixes that then, problem solved! "See honey we are doing great in our marriage we don't have these problems" Of course being the smatter person I am a kept that thought between us instead of blurting that out in front of 2000+ attendees. Although... I got to tell you I wonder what this speaker would have done with this info! LOL

    Speaking of chastity since I was under her constant supervision so to speak today Goddess let me out last night and today so I could sleep without waking her. While I love the Lori device for the day to day wear (as it is hardly noticeable that I have it on) the evening wear for that device absolutely sucks. There is simply little to no give room and the constant trips to the rest room for the piss break or just to walk off the crazy erection then wake Goddess and well, when she gets woke up too many times it is not a good thing. LOL Hard to say what tonight, tomorrow, or next week will bring but for now I am a free man and using the time very wisely as to insure some extended time out. That is about it for now, hope all of you are doing well.
     
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    i am truly AMAZED at what 0.25 worth of plastic, put to the right shape can do. Goddess definitely likes me better in the CD. glad to here that your free for a while. its nice to have a break. Goddess lets me out on weekends. while shes around, she knows i wont be tempted.
     
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    Hey there happypants, I think most women, given the opportunity, would love us in the cd during the times when we are away. LOL Mine is no exception.

    Nothing really brewing this evening other than my back is on the way out again I am afraid. It is killing me. After my freak accident last year I get these episodes where this flare up hits and down I go. While it is not debilitating like it was I just hate having to live through each day, day in and day out with pain that keeps me from enjoying many parts of the day. Even just laying on the floor playing with the kids is a painful chore. At any rate just rambling so I think I will go try and get a head start on the week. You all take care.
     
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    Hello everyone, long time no write it looks like. LOL Well I am here to say I found the most natural chastity device that does not even require a lock. It is not made of plastic or even steel. It is not even wore on the genitals. You can hold it, feed it, and love it. Yes it is a small child. LOL We got to babysit by sister-in-law's 15 month old tonight and while the time was enjoyable both my wife and I were able to clarify beyond any shadow of a doubt that the two little ones we have is more than enough!

    In terms of the real chastity it is really quiet here on the home front. Goddess let me out last Saturday and has yet to put me back in. I was hopeful that perhaps that meant something good, fun, and intimate was in the works but alas no such luck. I sometimes hate, no detest, how life can just take our free time away and leave us with only the realization that we don't get near enough time together, or by the time we do she is wiped out and I just get worn out from the whole thing.

    Well not much else to add tonight so I thought I would just drop in and say ho and let you all know what is going on in parts of Illinois.
     
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    lockednloaded: Think my face would turn quite red if that happened to me, but I guess it is also a matter of getting used to the device. During my last period of chastity (yes.. Im a whimp.. Getting used to the belt..) I became more and more relaxed and even went to the gym. But I am convinced that I would be pretty embarresed ;-)
     
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    Well night two watching the little nephew is now over. Tonight was not bad actually. Today, on the other hand, was pure hectic. This is that time of year when every bride who waited months to order their wedding album now decides they want it before Christmas. Now keep in mind our line of albums are actually from Italy and Australia. Of course they know this which is one reason they hire us. Funny thing is hearing them say What do you mean it takes 6-8 weeks to get in?? Um let see it has to be desinged, you have to approve it, then it has to be printed etc etc. LOL I would say "women!" in a hus but I think with all the stern Mistresses and Goddesses here, my wife included, I should just say thank goodness for business! LOL

    Not sure what else to say tonight. Truth be told I am tired as hell and am hoping a little begging and pleading will get Goddess on my good side to work some stress off the right way. LOL Night all!
     
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    Well it seems many are having a go at questioning roles and the like, I guess we should be no different. We retired to the bedroom a little early as Goddess said she wanted to have sex. I was of course on board for that. After a little small talk and some cuddle time we started playing around. For what ever reason I start pinching her nipples slightly and I could tell when most times she would say stop tonight she was getting completely turned on by it. Then I mentioned that one of these days we should get that package out that we got from our favorite store. It was a pair of nipple clamps attached to a chain with a single clamp for the clit. The instant I mentioned them she let out this little giggle and I could tell this was the time to seize the moment and try them out. Still working her up a little so I could find that moment of opportunity I made my dash so to speak for the drawer. Just bringing them out had her breathing heavy. Of course when I put the first clamp on her nipple she about came right then. Needless to say by the time all three were on her she was ready to orgasm right then. I then got to put my oral skills to use and all I can say is wow I was in heaven. I had a bit of control for a few minutes, a sexy Goddess writhing on the bed, me between her legs, and then it happened, her first of four orgasms. It was amazing evening and luckily for me I got to finish the good old fashioned way with some vanilla sex. It was a great night and I even had the chance to take a little control and yet use it just enough to her delight.

    Tonight however is very much back to normal. She has already made mention of being back in lockup and all the things she has planned. We actually had a little night out without the kids tonight and had a great time talking about the upcoming season. At any rate not much else to add tonight as I am whipped out and I have to get ready for a full day in the photographer mode tomorrow. Take care everyone.
     
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    Yumm.. sounds like a wonderful night! :)
     
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    Lovely. Have a great weekend, you two!!!
     
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    i'm glad i glued my CD! the plastic would have split.at about 5 days in i'm starting to get antsy.
     
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    happypants you kill me. I doubt you have any problems with release with that Goddess of yours! LOL Well back on after a few days of sheer pain in the but work. This is that crazy time of the year for last minute orders and the like. Needless to say I have tomorrow off and I am actually spending the day with my 6 year old son. Should be fun. Hopefully I can wear him out instead of it being the other way around. LOL

    Well in terms of the lifestyle it is one of those periods where it went from on fire to what the heck. We have both been so busy/stressed with our jobs the last few days that neither of us have even thought about vanilla sex much less chastity. Well let me rephrase that, I think about sex all the time, doing however was the issue. I would assume it will be sometime as the stress load will most likely just change focus as we get together with family. Always a crap shoot when we do that. LOL At any rate you all take care and I will keep you posted, Goddess says hi. Perhaps one night I can tear her away from facebook long enough to get on here and say hi! LOL
     
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    Your tremendous journal scares me! Only read a few posts at beginning and end but found some uncomfortably familiar comments, as if I were going to write them myself. Scary, if not humbling! I've tried, I wish my little chap will let me sleep.
     
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    valsboy thanks for stopping by! If you have not already you should start your own thread here in the vault. I would lover to hear about the similarities. Of course I would not mind hearing about the differences either as it is great to learn from others on here.

    Well obviously as it is Thanksgiving here in the US Happy Thanksgiving to all those who celebrate it. Today was filled with way too much food, terrible football games, and oh yes more food. All in all it was a great day at the in-laws. I had to laugh my ass off a few times during the day thought because my brother in law was there with their new 5 month old (not 15 month correction to previous posts). I never seen a guy who did not want, or at least seemed put off to watch his own son. His poor wife was exhausted which of course caused her to snap at my wife (her sister) in the later part of the days. I thought I was going to have to get out the six pack of whoop ass. Then I realized that I was so stuffed it would probably be like two sumo wrestlers going at it. Then of course my next thought caused me to chuckle out loud which was I think I should get her a nice chastity device to use on him for Christmas that would fix that problem. Of course as I am having these thoughts followed by laughs he looks at me like I lost my mind and all I could think was "if you only knew buddy you would be running right now"

    Well still allowed to be out and enjoy some freedom so I guess I should count my blessings today and that could be one. The last couple of nights have been some pretty intense dreams and deep sleep. I can only imagine what they would have been like in steel. Time to go sleep off this turkey induced haze! Take care everyone!
     
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    3 days! Seriously??? Wow it does not seem like that long since I was here. It is awesome to see such amazing traffic here in the vault now days. It used to be I would be gone for a few days and I could still find my thread on the first page, now no so much.

    At any rate things have been a little tense around here today and yesterday. As luck would have it and as routine would play a part the Goddess and I are were at each other in the way of shooting looks etc for the last couple of days, over you guessed it, the kiddos! As much as I love them there is nothing worse than having your wife insinuate that you can't handle your kids or perhaps you are not parent material. I am sure she did not mean it the way it came out but it set me off in a bad way. Then we spent most of the day not talking and suffice it to say we are only marginally better tonight. I hate when the kids play divide and conquer and win.

    The part that really sucks is this week is full and I do mean every minute accounted for. There is not a day that does not start after 7AM and end before 10PM. On top of that I am trying to get to Chicago this weekend and not even sure if I will be able to stay once I get up there to finish business. Ever have one of those days? LOL

    Well let's see chastity... well that is not existent right now and probably for the better. Who knows. Well I am rambling and there is nothing positive to say so I think for tonight I will just call this a night and say hope to see you all tomorrow.
     
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    Can you believe how busy this place has been lately?!? Pet just said to me that he needs to update his thread and he hoped he could still find it. It's like one big party!! :manga_partypopper: I'm sorry you've had such a rough couple of days. Being a parent is so hard sometimes. I know I've snapped at pet on quite a few occasions about not doing something "right" when it comes to our daughter. It's usually just stress or patients that makes me say it. Afterward I feel just awful. Awful, because I could not ask for a better man to raise my child. But, sometimes I don't think before I speak and I say something I regret the moment it comes out of my mouth. I'm rambling. I just wanted to tell you that I've BTDT. I hope you and your Goddess have a better day tomorrow...and the next day, too!!
     
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    methinks you won't make it to chicago this weekend unless you plan on being here in the next 113 minutes :scared0016:


    This place has REALLY started hopping in the last week or 2. I used to be able to leave the mansion alone for 24hrs and only find 1 page of new threads, now it is at least 2 pages!

    I need to update my journal also. had a fun weekend until a couple of hours ago.
     
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    Hi xcitex2,

    Hope things are improving for you. About the brother-in-law in chastity thing: I've often looked at it from the other angle - If only I knew what kink floated his boat? I've tried doing some basic stats on chastity devices in the UK and came to the surprising conclusion that there is a higher likelihood of my brother-in-law wearing a chastity device than there is of me buying a lottery ticket.
     
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    you will never know who is in chastity or not or would like to be.

    some people seem the type while othrs dont
    i know my bro is not and will not be in chasitty much rahter just getting himself suck or fucking wife me and who ever lol lol
     
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    Hey gang! Well back again and yet there is light at the end of the tunnel. The big project I had this week is in the upload to the server!!! Yeah!

    Now madamsboy what I actually meant was this coming weekend not the present when I posted. See in my world my "work" week starts on Sunday. that is when I plan the whole week out then begin the execution side of things on Monday morning. It is an old way I was taught and I guess I never got rid of it.

    In regards to chastity with my brother in law, all I meant from that was maybe if his wife held a key and used it he would be more inclined to be part of the relationship with her. He seems to have checked out completely and now the rest of the family is picking up his slack in some way or another.

    As fas as I go, well lets just say the internal struggles of my mindset are once again taking control. When I am in chastity and Goddess is truly holding the key it feels like a natural thing. When I am out the once dominate side comes back and going back in feels crazy. The rest of my life comes into play and the submissive role is not only undesirable it seems like a disconnect. So then the question comes into play which is..If a male wishes to truly sumbit 100% can he still be in an environment in which he must assert authority in so many areas? I can see being a 24/7 submissive. This makes sense. Perhaps one serves around the house throughout the day, or is made to work only to come home and be 100% subject to his Mistress. For me it is becoming harder and harder to turn it on turn it off, despite my comments just a week or so ago in another post. The ultimate fantasy would be to serve a Mistress 24/7 where my main functions are around the house and to serve her, both sexually and otherwise. So this begs the question is this fantasy? I mean you see this in videos all the time. The Dominearing Mistress home from work to unlock her slave from his cell, device, or cage (you pick) and then he goes to work serving her needs. How does one take this part and mix it in with oh by the way I have to fire employees today, hire a new designer, etc etc etc. Who knows. The only thing I do know for sure is in all my sexual experiences, both in play and in real the one thing that has got me more turned on than anything else is being controlled by a sexy woman while being locked in a device only to be teased to the point of near exhaustion from begging. Even as a Dom with a past girlfriend I had some amazing erotic times but they fail to compare to the excitement gathered in this regard. This is tuff if the normal day to day grind prohibit your wife/Goddess/Mistress from being assertive because she is wore out from the day and has no desire to assume that role when she gets home, despite how easy one could make it for her to do so. I think you would almost need a professional business woman by day and MIstress by night. LOL Well enough rambling just sharing one of my more confusing days with you. Hope all is well and the excitement is definitely growing here at the mansion. I have never seen so many posts as I have lately this is great!
     
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    I know it's crazy! I'm so excited about all the wonderful, intelligent, helpful posts happening lately! Awesome!

    Oh... regarding the "porn star life"... when will you lot just go with the flow?!

    It ain't gonna happen like that till we all win the lottery and bugger off to warmer climates and build a village based on our D/s roles. (Oh, whatever happened to that village?!)

    Distracted! But glad you are still having fun with your life. :butterfly:
     
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    Xcitex: It sounds like you have not been properly dressed for a while and let your testosterone get the better of you. You do exactly what we men do best: Watch a porn movie and apply that to our dream as an advanced visual enactment.

    We tend to be quite simple minded and with out wearing my belt, Ive have done the same thing. Being a submissive is a facet (among others) of who we are, but: its not a facet that can be turned on or off. We are never truly unidirectional slaves but have a host of personal properties that foster that slavehood and makes it genuine and personal. A foundation so to speak (pun intended) -Or else our mistresses would be bored and rent a robot instead of using a person that she can relate to.

    It is a facet founded in what we are and that fact is what makes our submission prescious to our mistresses.

    Please bear in mind that your submission is a deeply personal trait that your mistress values and not just a mask you put on when you are not executive. Being submissive is not an enactment but a permanent state of mind; a fruitful part of what you are at all times.

    Its not that I know all the truths about this sort of thing (if only) but rather I tend to believe that the state of the male chastezised mind is more authentic than that of the "emptied" male mind. A slave or mistress is still a whole person expressing what he or she is.

    I look forward to more ramblings on your behalf. I enjoy them and hope to learn more.
     
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    Thanks Mistress Watchful and RubberDuckDK. Sometimes my mind gets the best of me and it just takes a little slap to the backside to get back in place. Now Mistress Watchful when you find that village and the loads of money you call me and I will be the first in line! LOL

    Not much else to add tonight. Just finished shooting two hours of video and driving home with our first snowfall of the year now in progress. With the week I have had thus far I am going to bed early. Yes call me old! LOL
     
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