Day 3
So as I said in my earlier post here...My girlfriend and keyholder has decided to keep me in my CB6000 until at least my birthday a whole month and and a half away and so as this is the place to post journals I've decided to keep one here. So for my first post a little more about me my girlfriend and how I got into chastity.
I first started wearing a chastity device during a particular confusing period of my life a few years ago. I had been unceremoniously dumped out of my previous relationship for not paying my girlfriend due attention and this was mostly due to realising that I was sexually attracted to both men and women. I went into a hate spiral during this period because I just didn't fit my somewhat limited mind picture of what a bisexual man was like nor did I want to.
Under these circumstances some people turn to all kinds of support, gambling, burying themselves in work, alcohol, drugs, I ended up choosing the endorphins generated by sexual release and as I didn't have a sexual partner I both started looking for one night stands and started masturbating to porn. Now I do want to be clear in this, I've never thought that masturbation itself as intrinsically a bad thing it is after all just an expression of the human sexual function. Unfortunately I got into a habit where rather than dealing with my insecurities both personal and professional I was masturbating. More worryingly I was requiring more and more hardcore material to be satisfied and the satisfaction was getting worse.
Now if you look at porn on the internet for long enough you'll come across everything (insert pun here
) and after a while I stumbled across female chastity belts first and after a couple of surprisingly hot stories I stumbled across male chastity belts. I read through a dozen pages and being on particularly masochistic streak found a UK seller of the CB range and before I knew it I had ordered a CB2000
I was thrilled when it arrived and went through all the typical newbie problems of fitting it and using the right lube and whether I should be shave (I chose close cropping because no amount of trapped hairs is worse than the itching of stubble there for me). At first I only wore it during the day but eventually I got the guts to wear it for a night and then two nights. Is tarted leaving the only key at work or at my parents house so I couldn't get to it and unlock myself but I was still only wearing it for a few days at a time.
Regardless of this it helped enormously. The energy that had been diverted into pleasuring myself I started to use instead at work, this along with the lack of distractions earned me my first promotion in a year and a half. My confidence began to increase and as I wasn't looking at people on purely sexual terms to avoid a trapped erection so I drifted back into the dating world and this time as I couldn't get a quick fuck I started looking for relationships.
This lead to my first boyfriend and although that didn't last long (three fun filled months we're still friends) and I finally came to terms with my sexuality. I carried on dating only using the cb between relationships until I through the power of the internet I met my current girlfriend.
Now unfortunately we live a few hundred miles apart and due to various circumstances are not likely to live closer any time soon, however we talk to each other daily we both play games on-line together and we see each other as as often as we can. Between a our first visits I brought a cb6000 not out of any prediction that our relationship wouldn't go anywhere simply because I had found the weaknesses in the CB2000s design and had some money to splurge.
I didn't think anything of trying to explain this to my girlfriend until we were chatting one day and somehow we got into kinks. She completely opened up to me about being a subby switch and wanting to be dommed by me and shared her various passions. But I couldn't bring myself to tell her about it. I felt really guilty about this for a couple of weeks until I finally just blurted out do you know what a chastity belt is? yes folks I was that eloquent...
This lead to another long discussion where she found that I'm as big a switch as she is(although mostly dommy) and she loved that even more once she found out. At her wonderful hands I've worn the belt for nearly a month continuously (only removing twice for some very quick cleaning and I was locked in the cb200 while it was being cleaned) and thanks to her I'm currently locked in my cb6000 until my birthday on June 17th.
That in a nutshell is how I got to where I am now as far as chastity is concerned, I'm not going to say discovering chastity belts was the most important thing in my life because its clichd and inaccurate. But it has made in impact in my life and a surprisingly positive one.
I'll write again soon
So as I said in my earlier post here...My girlfriend and keyholder has decided to keep me in my CB6000 until at least my birthday a whole month and and a half away and so as this is the place to post journals I've decided to keep one here. So for my first post a little more about me my girlfriend and how I got into chastity.
I first started wearing a chastity device during a particular confusing period of my life a few years ago. I had been unceremoniously dumped out of my previous relationship for not paying my girlfriend due attention and this was mostly due to realising that I was sexually attracted to both men and women. I went into a hate spiral during this period because I just didn't fit my somewhat limited mind picture of what a bisexual man was like nor did I want to.
Under these circumstances some people turn to all kinds of support, gambling, burying themselves in work, alcohol, drugs, I ended up choosing the endorphins generated by sexual release and as I didn't have a sexual partner I both started looking for one night stands and started masturbating to porn. Now I do want to be clear in this, I've never thought that masturbation itself as intrinsically a bad thing it is after all just an expression of the human sexual function. Unfortunately I got into a habit where rather than dealing with my insecurities both personal and professional I was masturbating. More worryingly I was requiring more and more hardcore material to be satisfied and the satisfaction was getting worse.
Now if you look at porn on the internet for long enough you'll come across everything (insert pun here
) and after a while I stumbled across female chastity belts first and after a couple of surprisingly hot stories I stumbled across male chastity belts. I read through a dozen pages and being on particularly masochistic streak found a UK seller of the CB range and before I knew it I had ordered a CB2000I was thrilled when it arrived and went through all the typical newbie problems of fitting it and using the right lube and whether I should be shave (I chose close cropping because no amount of trapped hairs is worse than the itching of stubble there for me). At first I only wore it during the day but eventually I got the guts to wear it for a night and then two nights. Is tarted leaving the only key at work or at my parents house so I couldn't get to it and unlock myself but I was still only wearing it for a few days at a time.
Regardless of this it helped enormously. The energy that had been diverted into pleasuring myself I started to use instead at work, this along with the lack of distractions earned me my first promotion in a year and a half. My confidence began to increase and as I wasn't looking at people on purely sexual terms to avoid a trapped erection so I drifted back into the dating world and this time as I couldn't get a quick fuck I started looking for relationships.
This lead to my first boyfriend and although that didn't last long (three fun filled months we're still friends) and I finally came to terms with my sexuality. I carried on dating only using the cb between relationships until I through the power of the internet I met my current girlfriend.
Now unfortunately we live a few hundred miles apart and due to various circumstances are not likely to live closer any time soon, however we talk to each other daily we both play games on-line together and we see each other as as often as we can. Between a our first visits I brought a cb6000 not out of any prediction that our relationship wouldn't go anywhere simply because I had found the weaknesses in the CB2000s design and had some money to splurge.
I didn't think anything of trying to explain this to my girlfriend until we were chatting one day and somehow we got into kinks. She completely opened up to me about being a subby switch and wanting to be dommed by me and shared her various passions. But I couldn't bring myself to tell her about it. I felt really guilty about this for a couple of weeks until I finally just blurted out do you know what a chastity belt is? yes folks I was that eloquent...
This lead to another long discussion where she found that I'm as big a switch as she is(although mostly dommy) and she loved that even more once she found out. At her wonderful hands I've worn the belt for nearly a month continuously (only removing twice for some very quick cleaning and I was locked in the cb200 while it was being cleaned) and thanks to her I'm currently locked in my cb6000 until my birthday on June 17th.
That in a nutshell is how I got to where I am now as far as chastity is concerned, I'm not going to say discovering chastity belts was the most important thing in my life because its clichd and inaccurate. But it has made in impact in my life and a surprisingly positive one.
I'll write again soon
