Hello,
I have thought about creating a blog for quite a while and have always procrastinated and worried that I'm giving away too many personal details about my relationship with my wife. But lately I've thought - well who cares, I'd like to write it so I will. Let's get the important stuff about me out of the way first!
Chastity
I wear a pink CB2000 all the time. I will wear a chastity at all times for the rest of my life. That's not to say that I don't get out - I do for supervised oragasms. But I know and accept that I will never be unlocked and have permission to masturbate when I want ever again. This is hot, but also I sometimes just think "What the hell have I done?" - if I declared I didn't want to be chaste any more my marriage could be in trouble. It's such an integral part of our lives and our relationship and it works so well to make me feel loved and accepted and my wife feel loved and respected. Not that I ever would want to stop but I'm not going to pretend that this is all easy all the time.
Service
The difficult bit...there are certain "milestones" I would call them, that we have passed in our marriage, and with each of these milestones I would obey even if I wasn't wearing the chastity. I suppose the first was when I closed my bank account and relinquished all financial control to my wife. No matter how bad things get between us, this is never going to change, she is adamant. Mistress pays the bills, deals with the account and I respect her for it - I was always hopeless with cash anyway! It's annoying sometimes that I have to ask for money if I want something, but I know it's what she wants and I like it when she gets what she wants. Anyway sometimes I bend over and she stuffs the cash down my panties which is good!
The second of these milestones is constant obedience. I'd say I'm 95% of the way although I'm sure she'd disagree. I'm sometimes bad with being ordered to get drinks/snacks! Especially when I'm relaxing or doing something else but Mistress usually threatens me and I go and do it, or these days just the tone of her voice tells me that if I don't get up there's trouble.
The next is obeying a schedule of chores. Recently I felt that it was hard to do the chores as we hadn't made a concrete list of what she expects. So we made a list - it's good because I know where I am but I still fail to do chores a lot - I absolutely hate them. This is where my wife is getting exactly what she wants and I know this is where I have to improve. The deal at the moment is that if I do all the chores for a week I get to cum on Sunday - I've failed for the last six weeks - stupid me. If I do a reasonable job with the chores I will receive a minimum pleasure orgasm. I'll be tied to the bed and have to count backwards from 60 while she holds a vibrator on my cock. If I miss a number or pause I'll be locked up without cumming so I have to concentrate completely on counting not thinking sexy thoughts. If I have exceeded expectations I'm allowed to stroke my cock myself standing to attention in front of mistress.
Feminisation
This has evolved from occasionally wearing a maids dress and dancing for mistress to the requirement that all my chores will be done in a dress, see my pics for the new one! My underwear initially went from wearing boxer shorts all the time to small white male briefs. Nowadays I have a drawer full of panties, most pink and lacy or frilly - it is the rule that I wear panties at all times. If I am going to the doctors or staying over at a friend's house there are a few pairs of the white briefs left that I can wear with permission only. I love feminisation! Although right now my inlaws are staying and my mother in law has been wondering why there are only panties in the wash. I have moved into the smallest bedroom in the house - I snore which disturbs my wife's sleep so she prefers me to sleep in my sissy room. I was surprised a couple of months ago when he replaced the bed in there with a pink metal framed single bed with love hearts and a pink duvet set, I was so pleased.
Sex Life
Very little I'm afraid to say, I've decided to be honest about this. I have problems with impotence and have had since being a teenager, it used to drive me crazy but the way things are now it feels right. I am a wimp and a sissy so being impotent and sexually inadequate is a turn on. Weird how things can feel so different in the right context. Also my wife has trouble with sex and gets sore so I think it's likely that I may never be allowed to have sex again, it's been eight years since I've been inside her. That's not to say that we are not sexual, in our way we are very sexual. Chastity and submission are pure mind sex to us and my wife still maturbates. When I'm allowed to take part I get to suck her breasts while she plays with a vibrator - I know she is fantasizing about cuckolding me at these times, we have talked about it before and both agree it is a very hot thought!
Discipline
We are on a bit of a hiatus from physical discipline - it's my fault. Once I told her that if I had a tantrum to whip me. She tried that and I refused, can't remember what we were arguing about but that put her right off whipping me. I really screwed up, I'm sure it will be back on the cards at some point in the future though.
So anyway, thats most of the background out of the way. If I've missed something or anyone has questions just ask. From here I'm going to try to write an honest blog about how I feel. Thanks for reading.
paulie
I have thought about creating a blog for quite a while and have always procrastinated and worried that I'm giving away too many personal details about my relationship with my wife. But lately I've thought - well who cares, I'd like to write it so I will. Let's get the important stuff about me out of the way first!
Chastity
I wear a pink CB2000 all the time. I will wear a chastity at all times for the rest of my life. That's not to say that I don't get out - I do for supervised oragasms. But I know and accept that I will never be unlocked and have permission to masturbate when I want ever again. This is hot, but also I sometimes just think "What the hell have I done?" - if I declared I didn't want to be chaste any more my marriage could be in trouble. It's such an integral part of our lives and our relationship and it works so well to make me feel loved and accepted and my wife feel loved and respected. Not that I ever would want to stop but I'm not going to pretend that this is all easy all the time.
Service
The difficult bit...there are certain "milestones" I would call them, that we have passed in our marriage, and with each of these milestones I would obey even if I wasn't wearing the chastity. I suppose the first was when I closed my bank account and relinquished all financial control to my wife. No matter how bad things get between us, this is never going to change, she is adamant. Mistress pays the bills, deals with the account and I respect her for it - I was always hopeless with cash anyway! It's annoying sometimes that I have to ask for money if I want something, but I know it's what she wants and I like it when she gets what she wants. Anyway sometimes I bend over and she stuffs the cash down my panties which is good!
The second of these milestones is constant obedience. I'd say I'm 95% of the way although I'm sure she'd disagree. I'm sometimes bad with being ordered to get drinks/snacks! Especially when I'm relaxing or doing something else but Mistress usually threatens me and I go and do it, or these days just the tone of her voice tells me that if I don't get up there's trouble.
The next is obeying a schedule of chores. Recently I felt that it was hard to do the chores as we hadn't made a concrete list of what she expects. So we made a list - it's good because I know where I am but I still fail to do chores a lot - I absolutely hate them. This is where my wife is getting exactly what she wants and I know this is where I have to improve. The deal at the moment is that if I do all the chores for a week I get to cum on Sunday - I've failed for the last six weeks - stupid me. If I do a reasonable job with the chores I will receive a minimum pleasure orgasm. I'll be tied to the bed and have to count backwards from 60 while she holds a vibrator on my cock. If I miss a number or pause I'll be locked up without cumming so I have to concentrate completely on counting not thinking sexy thoughts. If I have exceeded expectations I'm allowed to stroke my cock myself standing to attention in front of mistress.
Feminisation
This has evolved from occasionally wearing a maids dress and dancing for mistress to the requirement that all my chores will be done in a dress, see my pics for the new one! My underwear initially went from wearing boxer shorts all the time to small white male briefs. Nowadays I have a drawer full of panties, most pink and lacy or frilly - it is the rule that I wear panties at all times. If I am going to the doctors or staying over at a friend's house there are a few pairs of the white briefs left that I can wear with permission only. I love feminisation! Although right now my inlaws are staying and my mother in law has been wondering why there are only panties in the wash. I have moved into the smallest bedroom in the house - I snore which disturbs my wife's sleep so she prefers me to sleep in my sissy room. I was surprised a couple of months ago when he replaced the bed in there with a pink metal framed single bed with love hearts and a pink duvet set, I was so pleased.
Sex Life
Very little I'm afraid to say, I've decided to be honest about this. I have problems with impotence and have had since being a teenager, it used to drive me crazy but the way things are now it feels right. I am a wimp and a sissy so being impotent and sexually inadequate is a turn on. Weird how things can feel so different in the right context. Also my wife has trouble with sex and gets sore so I think it's likely that I may never be allowed to have sex again, it's been eight years since I've been inside her. That's not to say that we are not sexual, in our way we are very sexual. Chastity and submission are pure mind sex to us and my wife still maturbates. When I'm allowed to take part I get to suck her breasts while she plays with a vibrator - I know she is fantasizing about cuckolding me at these times, we have talked about it before and both agree it is a very hot thought!
Discipline
We are on a bit of a hiatus from physical discipline - it's my fault. Once I told her that if I had a tantrum to whip me. She tried that and I refused, can't remember what we were arguing about but that put her right off whipping me. I really screwed up, I'm sure it will be back on the cards at some point in the future though.
So anyway, thats most of the background out of the way. If I've missed something or anyone has questions just ask. From here I'm going to try to write an honest blog about how I feel. Thanks for reading.
paulie
