Hi, I started Chastity more then a year ago to curb a Porn Masturbation addiction, I want to infrequently share what I discovered and report and the great, good and the bad.
I introduced it to my wife as means to get out of my grumpiness and sometimes bad, aggressive behaviour towards her. It helped a lot. It was an interesting journey that went through many different stages.
The past stage was the best. It seemed I was healed from the Addiction, I discovered that I shouldn't look at porn any more and all will be good. I actually thought there is a possiblity I don't need a cage anymore.
I decided to do a vasectomy so my wife no longer needs to take hormones that are harmful for her and so after the operation i was uncaged for 24 days and didn't touch myself other then for cleaning. Before I would alway find ways, be it the magic wand or a few minutes in the shower, mostly just edging but since 85 days I was 100% good even though i was uncaged for 24 days.
However yesterday it happened.
I had too much wine - but that is not the excuse. I guess I just wanted to do it... Wanted to try it again. Even though I didn't want to. Anyway that is the start of my new journal. I guess I will tell my wife. She will do what has to be done and hopefully punish me. I hope she will lock me up again. Until the vasectomy it was kind of a self locking which my wife seemed to like. She would ask me to be unlocked to play and I would relock after we were finished.
I have learnt, I still don't look at porn but it feels like I am an alcoholic and I was drunk again for the first time. I repeated twice already this morning, thankfully only edging - but yeah, once an addict always an addict
I introduced it to my wife as means to get out of my grumpiness and sometimes bad, aggressive behaviour towards her. It helped a lot. It was an interesting journey that went through many different stages.
The past stage was the best. It seemed I was healed from the Addiction, I discovered that I shouldn't look at porn any more and all will be good. I actually thought there is a possiblity I don't need a cage anymore.
I decided to do a vasectomy so my wife no longer needs to take hormones that are harmful for her and so after the operation i was uncaged for 24 days and didn't touch myself other then for cleaning. Before I would alway find ways, be it the magic wand or a few minutes in the shower, mostly just edging but since 85 days I was 100% good even though i was uncaged for 24 days.
However yesterday it happened.
I have learnt, I still don't look at porn but it feels like I am an alcoholic and I was drunk again for the first time. I repeated twice already this morning, thankfully only edging - but yeah, once an addict always an addict