Need a little help determining what I'm feeling and am hoping some of you can help out. So I'm not sure if I'm feeling post orgasm blues or general resentment for chastity right now. First off I was allowed to cum via PIV with mistress a couple of nights ago. It was a short lived session for us both and both of us coming to orgasm in a short time. It had been 3 weeks for us both due to colds, family in town, overworking and whatever the fuck else the holidays bring. We were both craving attention from each other but literally couldn't touch each other for 3 solid weeks. My normal wait time as of the last few months has been 7 to 14 days. Waiting 3 weeks wasn't really a big deal, I've never felt hornier in my life but it wasn't really a big deal especially because I was so submissive to my mistress. The only thing I had teasing me over that time frame was tumblr which was plenty to look at for me at that point. So I played with mistress's clit till she came very quickly then she spread her legs for me and in 2 minutes I was done. The orgasms didn't even feel good, it was just like I was peeing cum out. I may have accidentally given my myself a ruined O because I was trying to hold back a couple of different times. In the end I was just left disappointed. I've been grumpy at my mistress the last couple of days since. I haven't really wanted to do anything special for her, rub on her or anything. In a weird way it's like I want to be left alone but then I don't. I still do everything I had been doing in the past purely out of habit. I suppose this could be post O reaction to 3 weeks of no cuming but I'm also wondering if I'm becoming resentful of my mistress for other reasons. My mistress has never been heavy on T&D, she generally sounds interested whenever I bring up a kinky ideas but then never really pursues it or she'll forget about it. Whenever I try to be cuddly with her she often accuses me of just wanting sex when the reality of it is I just want to be close to her. In all honesty I getting really bored with chastity because we've been at this for close to two years and I don't feel as though she's tried to take what we have any further. Furthermore it's like she won't try to communicate with me on her wants and desires or what she's willing to try. She doesn't research chastity related content for any ideas and overall I don't feel like she's even trying for me. I realize that my efforts are supposed to be tenfold over hers, I feel like I'm trying really hard for her but am getting nothing but the bare minimum back for my efforts. I'm noticing I've started slacking because I feel as though there are no repercussions for me, she's not making this fun for me yet she enjoys all perks of being treated like an absolute queen. I know she loves chastity because she's told me so many times without me even asking. Don't get me wrong, I love my wife and I really like making her feel like a queen but I'm at a point where I think I want to quit. I didn't think id really want to go back to how things were before but I'm really starting to feel like that. Because of all the shit that's gone on this last month I'm going to give it to the end of January before I say anything to her about wanting to quit it at the very least needing a change. Maybe it's just me feeling the strain of this last month. But in the end something needs to change. I would love to hear any thoughts and opinions any of you might have on what I've just written.