I would have to admit that my initial reason to be in chastity was for my own selfish reasons. I was really turned on with the idea of someone other than myself. When I was self locked I really enjoyed having an erection inside my cage whilst thinking about some Goddess/Mistress holding onto the key. Of course it wasn't long before I unlocked myself and took care of business. I have a strange pantyhose fetish that I developed at a very young age, I will get to the strange part in a bit. This is what led my interest in chastity. As the fantasy goes...I would imagine being caught wearing pantyhose and jerking off by a Goddess/Mistress. I would then be locked in chastity and (for lack of a better word) forced to wear pantyhose heels and a dress. these thoughts really did it for me. The part that is strange is that I am 100% straight, not into sissification, no desire to dress in public, or to fully pass as a woman. Don't do wigs makeup etc. This all went on in my head for several years, tried multiple different chastity cages and for a short time lived with a lady friend that I had confessed these desires to. She did the best that she could, but she was just not getting the job done. A few years after that was over and hours of searching the internet I found Goddess Felicity. She has an online key holding service. I contacted her three years ago and made my confession in much more detail than I have here. She agreed that I must be punished with chastity for wearing pantyhose, once Goddess Felicity had me locked up with her lock she instructed me to wear pantyhose everyday from shower to shower (did that already 95% of the time) also I was to order some dresses to wear when at home. All of this had me very turned on and that is all that I really cared about,(what I was getting out of it). The first time she had me locked up was only for a week, that's four days longer than I had ever been self locked. It was really amazing and when I got the key I could wait to get my cage off. we did many more agreed times for almost two years and during that two years my feelings about being locked up changed, I was seeing that she really enjoyed having me locked up and I realized that I was more concerned about what was in it for me and I started to feel guilty, so I began thanking her for keeping me in chastity and asked that she assign some tasks for me to do. I explained to her that I had been feeling guilty about always making it about me. In completing her tasks I felt good that I had made her happy, I really liked this new feeling, I was starting to feel like I was hypnotized and couldn't get enough of doing her tasks. This was all during a 5 month lock up that ended abruptly when I opened my mailbox to find the key and new lock for Xmas. I was stunned! I waited until June the following year to contact her again for a new lock up period, 2024. I told Goddess Felicity how I felt about receiving the key for Xmas and after some discussion on how the next lock up would be, we agreed that she would roll dice to determine how many months I would stay locked. She told me to lock up as soon ASAP and she would roll the dice in one month from then. One number will free me but she will not tell me which number it is. First roll was 4, so I got 4 months plus she waited a month that's 5 plus Loctober doesn't count so 6 months. Next roll was 6, FUCK, 6 more months! She rolls again June 14 and rolled a 5, Dammit another 6 months because of Loctober will it ever end? This is what I agreed to though, she promised she wouldn't send the key for good behavior again and that I would have to wait until the dice say's so, I know the freedom number is not 4,5,or 6 so could be 1,2,or three but one of those is wild and will be at her discretion up 1 year no less than 6 months. I must have been completely out of my mind when I agreed to this! I did agree to it though, because I felt that this would make her happy and she would very much enjoy it, I was not wrong. Now I am more focused on her wants and needs. She has me doing daily tasks for her since the last roll including daily proof of lock up, this used to be once a week. I've done tasks in the past but they were not daily as they are now. I do everything she that she wants me to because I know that it makes her happy. This truly satisfies me and also makes me happy. So I went from my own selfish reasons to be locked up to the selfless reason to just make my Goddess happy. Sorry so long, I condensed it as much as I could.
I like to try new things and document how my "experiments" play out for others to read about and hopefully encourage them to have fun with their own chastity journeys. 
