Caged Wolf? How an Alpha became the Omega...

i need to got our hot tub back up and going... needs a good cleaning and then fill and restart. looking at the gazebo it's in i'll be doing a little roof surgery, too.

i'm doing better, about 85%, a couple more days of light duty would be nice, but it's back to work Monday. i did take Thursday and Friday off, though! 4 day weekend was nice, busy but nice.

Will write a longer post about the weekend tonight.

 

Friday was the Halloween party at the Social Club Mistress and i attend, great night! Mistress dressed as Little Red Ridinghood, and i, of course, was the Big Bad Wolf. Found one of the Wolf hats (no face mask), and ordered a big tail that didn't come in in time. Mistress allowed me to get into character, and i had people almost in tears from laughing! Mistress was beautiful in Her long, form fitting red dress and cape, wish She would let me post pictures here!
We didn't get home until about 3 am Saturday morning and i had a Motorcycle club meeting at 10:30... so, in got Mistress to by 3:30, myself shortly after, then up at 8:30, out the door by 9:30, and still late to the meeting because i got a bad tank of fuel, dided 7 times on the way to the meeting. Home again around 3:00 pm, worked on a project for a while, then out to dinner with a friend and his daughter. Got home about 8 pm, and got everyone off to bed by 8:30. No play ot anything, Mistress and i were both very tired by this point.
Sunday, up early again, Took Mistress and Little One to the Zoo, very nice family day trip, weather was great for mid-October! We were very fortunate, as the Wolves were out and close to the fence when we were there, got some great pictures, just made my day even better!

More later, time to get Mistress up!

 

Philfred & jemima,
i am not at all upset or worried about it, glad something i posted started a conversation!!

Anyway, back to this weekend.. Forgot to tell about Sunday morning!!

Just before i woke up i was dreaming that i was asked to help a good friend move something, along with 2 other people. The lady who asked me to help (the director at our Social Club) was driving, another lady was in the passenger front, i was in the back seat, with another lady who I know from the club. Now, you have to remember i have not been given permission to play there yet...

In my dream, as we are going down the road i have my arm up on the seat back, and the lady in the back seat with me starts sliding over until until her hip is against mine. Since I don't have permission i slide away until i am against the door, but she keeps sliding over too, until she is again hip to hip with me. She then takes my hand from the seat back and places it on her breast. WOW!!

The whole time my mind is screaming at me "You can't do this, you don't have permission", but i have no way to stop it without revealing the situation... At one point i thought "Maybe i can do this and no one will know", but right away again thought "I can't, i'd fail Mistress Wolf and there are witness's!" You also have to understand, the lady in the backseat with me is a member of the Social Club, and is a very active, aggressive member. While i find her attractive and desirable, i also know she is way out of my league, and if given the chance would use me in ways i can't begin to imagine!

I woke up at this point, and unlike most dreams that fade quickly, this one has stayed with me vividly! i believe it says a lot about where i am in the sub mindset, that it has become ingrained even into my sub-and dream-conscience. When i told Mistress Wolf about it she said "Good". Mistress and i have discussed this dream a few times now, and it just reinforces the D/s relationship, and hopefully gives Mistress addition assurance of my dedication to Her!

 

Settling back into the routine again, still working on the progect from hell, but hoping to be done with it this weekend (finally), then i can refocus on where i need to be.

 

YEA!!! Finished the project from hell yesterday, almost.... The project was the removal of a partially disassembled house on a neighbors property, brought in by a less than desirable tenant. All of it is off the property, majority hauled to some friends who can re-use the materials, all i have now is some stuff here that I need to sort thru and put away. After the final push yesterday I am sore, but it's done.

Today marks a reset on my sub position, with instructions from Mistress Wolf to consider carefully before taking on a project like this again. I have spent the better part of the day around the house, washing and folding laundry, etc...

 

Mistress Wolf is a little ticked, not at me thankfully, but at the gentleman She was talking with about joining our relationship. He has disappeared, not answering messages, etc. His loss.... She has tasked me with renewing the search for suitable prospects, and has decided that instead of focusing on one at a time She will get to know a few and see which, if any, work out in the long run.


Never thought it would be this hard to find someone for Her to have some fun with, but She is not looking for quick fun. She wants to talk, get to know, see how things develop, etc., before making the big step. She is hoping for a long term relationship, someone She can go out with on occasion, dinner and whatever, and also call when She wants more than i can provide pleasure wise.

i am very glad She is being selective and holding to Her criteria.

 

Not sure of the exact count, but it's been about 2 1/2 weeks since I was allowed release, and will be at least Sunday before anything else happens! Have been allowed to pleasure Mistress Wolf 3 times since Friday, including a lunchtime session today and was not given permission to finish, but man it was HARD not to! I was so close She told me she could feel me twitching, but I kept it together and didn't.... Mistress Wolf's O count today was around 10, with at least 4 big ones before She told me "I'm done." Quick shower and back to work for the afternoon, the whole afternoon thinking "She could have another lover soon to take care of Her needs and desires, and i may end up doing without!".

i am so aware of things right now, and ready to do whatever it takes to satisfy Her needs, that i don't want release. I am hitting that point where i'm hard almost all the time (not locked at this time), and revaling in the heightened awareness it brings. The only things that could make it better is to be locked up at Her command, and to have a little "attitude adjustment" session... i hope someday She will take a sterner position, and solidify both her and my roles in the relationship.

 

Half way through another week, having some slowdowns due to another URI, with sinus issues... Still getting things done at home, but no pressure from Mistress Wolf, and no fun time either... Mistress is understanding that i don't feel good, and is letting me work at a pace i can maintain as long as things get done. Not looking forward to work the rest of this week, no heat in the shop as the furnace died, but have work that has to be done, so bundling up and pressing on. New furnace SHOULD be up and going this weekend, hopefully.

On the search for Mistress Wolf's potential boyfriend, we are talking with several prospective guys, feeling things out agian. Have a couple that are interesting, a few who have not met the criteria She has set, adn one who we found out was into significant BDSM an pain that he hadn't told us about. Mistress spent about an hour last night chatting with one prospective, and it went well.. Still hopeful She will find someone that suits her and things will move on..

It's been 3 1/2 weeks since my last sexual release, and over a week since i have been allowed to pleasure Mistress Wolf. Being sick sucks. At least She allows me to sleep in the bed when i'm sick...

 

Feeling better again was llowed to go out for a motorcycle ride Saturday (damn it was cold), was able to decompress from the bs at work and get my focus back. Had things to do this morning, and ened up not going into work. This afternoon Mistress Wolf decided She needed some attention, which i was more than willing to provide!

After 4 weeks without being able to please her, and another couple of weeks beyond that since i was allowed release, i will just say both counts are starting over again now!! WOW!

 

Sorry for the errors on the timeframes in my previous post, Should have been 4 weeks without being allowed release myself and a couple of weeks since i was last allowed to pleasure Mistress Wolf. Was typing quickly to get out the door and pick up Litle One from School, and did not proof read before posting.
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Awesome weekend!

Friday, got a partial day off work, and was able to attend the Social Club with Mistress Wolf. i spent the evening working in the kitchen again, while Mistress Wolf socalized. We did have an interesting conversation with the Club owner later in the evening concerning my being allowed to play with ladies other than Mistress Wolf while there, and what rules, etc would be...

Saturday morning, up early considering the late arrival at the house after the Social club Friday night. i got everyone up and dress, ready to go. With Mistress Wolf's permission, i was allowed to buy tickets to a very special concert for Mistsress Wolf, Mistress C, and Little One! Got great seats, and was so awesome all the way around. Seeing the smiles and the rapt attention of both Mistress's as i sat between them during the concert, then being allowed to escort them all to dinner. After Chaufering Mistress C back to Her apartment, and spending a little while longer visiting with her there, i chaufered Mistress Wolf and Little one home, got Little One to bed, and was able to pleasure Mistress Wolf..

AND, was told Mistress C is coming over to our home for the night in 2 weeks!!!

What an Awesome Weekend, i am SO lucky to be owned by TWO Beautiful Mistress's, and to be allowed to arrange events like this for them....

 

i have to publicly admit something.. i have already discussed this with Mistress Wolf, and did so on the day after it happened. She found it humorous, and mildy erotic..... i think She is really becoming a Dom, not just Wife-in-charge!

Last week was was getting over an URI and sinus cold, and was tired and a little off from the meds. On Tuesday, while Mistress was away at Dance Class, i took care of the normal things around the house, then went in to take my shower before She got home. While in the shower, as i started washing my man-parts, i became quickly aroused. Within a matter of seconds i reached climax, and as soon as it hit i realized what i was doing (failing Mistress). To say the release was unsatisfying is an understatement, i did not even shoot anything, just a couple of pulses, and a huge letdown because of my action.

I could not tell Mistress Wolf when She got home as Little One had just gone to bed (her bed is against the wall by the Livinig room). Mistress knew something was wrong, and asked me, i told her i didn't feel well. Wednesday as soon as i got home for lunch, i admitted to Mistress Wolf what i had done, and how worthless it made me feel. That night as we were going to bed, She told me how funny She found it, while it also aroused Her to think of me "handling things" myself and admitting it to Her. She did ask why I didn't lock myself up afterwards as punishment, to which i replied "Mistress, i am not allowed to punish myself, that is your domain."

That night i told Her i would try my hardest not to fail Her again, which brings us to tonight, Tuesday, and Mistress Wolf is at Dance Class again. i am very tired due to only 5 hours sleep last night after being called back into workWhen i get tired my willpower falters, and i was feeling the urges to "handle things myself" again. SO, what to do...? Well , it is extremely difficult to play with Mistress's property when it is locked in it's cage, so i have put on my Jailbird. i am allowed to wear the Jailbird as i wish, adn i am not punishing myself, rather i am re-enforcing my defenses in case my willpower fails me.

i am determined not to fail Mistress Wolf again! i only hope She is understanding of my devotion...

 

Excited, Mistress C is coming to visit this weekend, and is planning to stay overnight!!!

Trying to get things resdy, have a lot to do, but got called back into work last night, then, when i got home tonight the washing maching had quit. Trying to get it to run a self test and clear the fault. If it won't I'll have to find another washer ASAP>>> too much to do to be messing with stuff like this right now!


AARRRRGGGHH!

 

And.... i was scolded for stressing over the washer last night... spent most of the evening messing with it (think ifigured out what i need to fix it), and didn't get enough done or spend any time with Mistress Wolf... was reminded, it's not my place to stress, i'm to do as i'm told and let Her figure things out...

 

Got it fixed at lunchtime today, had to go buy the part, then home and installit, with a test run... Seemed good, must be okay, have done 6 loads of laundry today since lunchtime (mostly bedding for the RV...)

Still behind, but getting back on track and thinki can get it all done before Mistress C gets here Saturday!

 

Quick post, have to get Little One up i a foew minites...

Not sure how long it's been since I was last allowed to pleasure Mistress Wolf, or allowed release....between the Holidays, work, etc it's just been crazy. Unfortunately this morningright before the alarm went off i had a wet dream. Not even sure what Ii was dreaming about, but all the sudden i felt it start, and did everything my sleepy mind could to stop it, to no avail. Had to get up and take a partial shower, and will have to strip the bed/wash the sheets afte Mistress Wolf gets up this morning....

Not sure what her reaction will be.........

 

Wow, what a weekend! So sad it had to end so soon.

Mistress C came to visit us Saturday afternooon, stayed overnight, and until noon on Sunday! No training or play, just a visit to see how things were going. Mistress C said She is very impressed and happy with the progress Mistress Wolf and i have made in our relationship, and that my performance thoughout the weekend wos very good. We were unable to get into signifiacant training, etc, as Little One was here adn Her hearing is exceptional... so, it kind of turned into a pajama party Saturday evening after dinner.

Going forward Both Mistress's agreed we need to spend more time together and that we would work it into our schedules.

Sunday evening Mistress Wolf had her way with me, the first time in several weeks i was allowed to pleasure her! Hoping for more chances early this week before the off week...

On the Bull/Boyfriend front: Nothing really new, still looking and chatting with several potentials, but none that really grab Her attention at this time. Still hopeful She will find someon, not to replace me, but to enhance Her pleasure adn excitment!


Need to get back to work...

 

Mistress Wolf and Mistress C have been texting back and forth more the past couple of weeks than ever before, building their plan and relationship as co-Mistress's. Mistress C texted after last weekend that seh hopes to continue with regualr visits and time together as we go into the New Year. i was also complimented on my performance over the weekend....

Life is good!

 

Christmas!!! and i get a very nice Christmas present! Mistress C is coming to spend part of Christmas day with us!!! So many good things happening so close together, this will be the 3rd time seeing Mistress C in the past month, Got a big Christmas bonus today at work, Mistress Wolf has kickid it up another step recently, and I am a prospective member of a very close group of like minded people (outside the FLR D/s world).

I hope everyone here has a Merry Christmas, and an awesome ending to 2014. My your wishes come true in ways you could not imagiine!

 

Getting caught back up again, been a busy week!

Mistress C spent 4-5 hours with us on Christmas day, surprised her with CD's of the Trans Siberian Orchestra, made a nice faux Prime Rib (slow smoked beef roast with a salt and spiced dry rub) for dinner, and played some card games. Just good family time, no training, etc. It feels like we are all becoming so much closer in the relationship and it's is so good for both Mistress's to have that deep connection.

Work this week has actually been good so far, of course this is only Tuesday morning, but it's a short week, and not much pre0scheduled work... We are doing some serious housekeeping/clean-up, so lots to do, but not the normal work so that helps.

Mistress Wolf is doing well, enjoying her winter break from college with Little One. No major changes in the Way of Things, but i'm waiting for the next step....