Rejoice, a sinner repents !!

Ok, it's not really that dramatic.

Over a year ago a relationship ended, one that had had me under chastity control for 6 years. For me, chastity was an integral part of the relationship and I was happy to assume that I didn't want to engage in chastity again outside another relationship. I just didn't have the urge to wear a CB for its own sake.

I can also say that I couldn't really envisage any one else holding my keys other than the person who had held them for so long.

Last week, a seemingly innocuous chat with someone on here showed me that I was wrong, or perhaps that it was time to move on. It may have just been a whim on her part, but she pressed a few of my buttons and after some warming up simply told me to find my CB and put it on. Actually wanting to wear the CB wasn't high on my agenda and it would have been so easy to either refuse, or pretend to do so. Yet she had me intrigued.

It took me half an hour or so to actually find all the parts and put it on. Once I did it felt like coming home. Apart from a good wash it hasn't been off since and I'm not sure when or if I'll actually want to take it off.

I'd always promised myself that if I ever wanted to be in chastity again that I would buy a better CB. Suffice to say that this week I found myself ordering a Steelworxx Looker and am still surprised at how much I want it.

That leads me to the crux of this post. A good CB is all well and good yet it is missing a vital element without a key holder that wants to hold the keys and enforce the chastity.

For me, I do need to engage with a key holder to a greater degree than just someone to post keys back at some defined date. Ideally I'd like to know and engage with the real person and be able to converse about life, the universe and everything.

It would also help if the key holder was within a reasonable distance so that I could have chastity managed with a real time element. At times, just to be able to visit to be released for cleaning under supervision.

Finding the right key holder is difficult as many of those who have a passion for enforcing chastity have had bad experiences of subs who can't cope with chastity for real.

So it is with more hope than expectation that I post this. The hope that it may appeal to someone thinking about taking another chance with key holding.

Happy to discuss and explore with someone in conversation or chat to see if we may click and have something that works.

 

Thank you, jemima. One can only hope so.

 

Thanks for the best wishes. So far no interest, though on another site I did have someone offering to relocate to the UK from Texas and somewhere else a most exciting offer to take myself off to India to give someone my passport.

It's a simple fact that dommes are scarce and that more often than not, those who are active on sites such as this already have what they want. They're not online looking for someone, they're online to talk to friends and be part of a shared community.

Putting up an ad is pure speculation and expecting someone to jump right in and whisk you away is pure folly. It takes work, getting to know people by talking to them and participating in the community so that they can get to know you a little.

It can be a minefield out there, especially on other sites. For now I'm still merrily tiptoeing through the tulips.