I'm absolutely beyond happy at the moment! Had an amazing conversation with my Mistress the other day and we really opened up and came to realization where we are at in our marriage and with our Domme/Sub dynamic. To back track for a moment, we have been practicing chastity for over 10 years on and off. We didn't really get serious until around 4-5 years ago when I disclosed to her that I was able to pull out from my metal cage and still masturbate. We researched and discussed options. Once I told her about getting a PA, she had 0 hesitation and told me to schedule the appointment. Since then I have been locked on and off in a Lori device with a PA pin. We would go for months at a time being very invested and then we would just fall off. Fast forward to 2 months ago when I recently received my Lori 8C back from the shop being modified to fit better. We had sex one last time, she had me put it on and she returned the only keys to her safe deposit box at the bank. I've been locked 24/7 since then. A few days ago I expressed to her how much I truly desired to be completely locked (permanently) for her with no releases like we have done in the past. We discussed when she locked me up 2 months back that I wanted to go for a year this time (which would be our longest continual lock up so far). I didn't really feel like she would commit and I honestly felt like she might feel sad/upset/discouraged that I had suggested such a long lock up time. She absolutely floored me. When we were just chatting the other morning and I pretty much came clean on how happy I was with our current dynamic and our sub/domme relationship - she completely mirrored my sentiment and told me she was also extremely happy with where we are in our FLR relationship at the moment. As we spoke about the lock up length of time I had suggested for the 1 year - she responded back that she doesn't even want to stop there and she wants to keep going past that. I don't think I've ever strained in my cage as hard as I did at that moment. She was really asserting her Dominant role in our relationship . Nothing makes me more happy than to be in service of her and for *her* to want this. For *her* to want me to be locked up and denied. At times it felt like it was always me wanting her to lock me up and she wasn't as invested or truly wanted this for herself. That all felt so different during this conversation. She really expressed how much she wants this and wants me to be locked up for her and it was such an amazing feeling. Knowing that she wants this control and power over me, that she wants this dominance...it's seriously so amazing to feel "owned" by her. I just can't honestly express how happy she makes me, how in love with her and how devoted to her I am. She truly makes me feel like the luckiest person to be able to be in her servitude.
That's honestly the best part. When it felt like it was coming from me it was still fun and I really enjoyed chastity - but now hearing her talk about how she wants this, she wants it long term, she has no plans to unlock me and this is our dynamic/marriage going forward - literally no words - it just overwhelms me with happiness
Congrats! Sounds like it's been an amazing journey that over time, developed even better than one could imagine, best of luck as it continues
Wow. Permanent chastity. Such a turn-on for you! Makes me want to jerk off thinking about your plight. Of course I CAN but you can’t.
Many congratulations! Hope the memory of sex one last time endures! It sounds like your Mistress is very serious about not releasing you again, especially as she has asked you to get a strap-on dildo. All her needs can be satisfied.