My unexpected life

Hey thanks everyone for stopping in. It is great to see some new posts here. Thanks also to you locked away as I have been trying to find a link to them for the longest time. I saw that belt somewhere and it really looks comfortable, if there is such a thing. I am curious to know what the turn around time is. Let me know how that goes.

In the mean time Goddess has held her ground well. Yesterday we played hooky from work and hung out together. It was so much fun. I found a new helmet for my motorcycle, of course the whole time hoping She will wear mine and get on the bike with me just once. Funny thing was as we were there she even started looking at pink bikes herself. As we were together all day she allowed me some "air out time" and we really just forgot about the chastity for a day. Well I tried to anyway. She kept making little comments here and there to make sure I knew she was still in charge.

Speaking of being in charge I went to bed last night fully prepared to put the device on or be in the shackles one way or another. Instead she went to the dresser and pulled out a pair of panty hose, threw them at me and said put them on. I must have had that what the hell ever look on my face because she asked me if I really wanted to push her tonight. With that I did so quickly and jumped in bed as I myself did not want to look at me let alone allow her to. Then she started in with that damn massager again just enough to tease me to beg her to stop which she did. While none of it made any sense I did not question it as if that was all I had to do to get a good night's sleep free from any bindings so be it.

We got up this morning and she woke before me and the kids as usual and woke me to take the crazy things off. We obviously did not want the little guys coming in and asking questions. The odd part was however she simply went about her morning and went downstairs to tend the boys who by now were waking and wanting breakfast. This of course left me alone, free, and with a stiff erection from five days of confinement. I hate to admit the number of thoughts that crossed my mind. Temptation was definitely calling my name and I knew because of her oversight this morning there would be no chance of getting caught. However it was then the wave of emotions came crashing in. If I was going to cheat then what's the point. However if she is going to get sloppy and leave keys lying around, allow me to carry an unrestricted emergency key, and leave me like this then what's the point the other way. So many emotions in such a short time. Needless to say I somehow mustered enough will power to get into the shower, shave, and re lock before I got carried away. I really need to do something with the emergency key situation. Hell I am not even sure if she knows it is on the keychain I have. Well she does now but I think I need to adopt the envelope idea we used with the lori device.

As I sit here today the device has started to remind me a couple times of my predicament. Usually, except for the evenings, I have little if any reminder. for what ever reason I have been busy enough at work that I forget it is even there during the day. Goddess does not get too excited about it unless she gets to see the whole visual. something about me standing in front of her that way that gets her all excited. I doubt she pays one iota of attention to it in the day time hours. Well enough said for now I need to get going to finish prep work for tomorrow's wedding.

 

thanks stealth. This is the one device I have been looking at. I really like the idea you can adjust the belt with weight gain or loss. I know it sounds crazy but I am hoping to start getting back in shape and I would hate to drop that kind of money only to find out that once I get to goal of my weight loss I would have to get yet another belt. LOL Thanks again for your input. I appreciate it.

 

Monday morning here again?? I guess it is as try as I might I can't seem to get this computer to say anything different. LOL

Anyway this weekend was really a pretty good series of events. Not much in the terms of chastity, tease, or sexual things. I had my normal wedding on Saturday and as I was going to be outdoors most of the day Goddess allowed me to be out of my device. This was a pretty safe thing for her to do as there is really no free time to even think about sex much less try and find a spot to relieve myself.

When I got home that night we were in the midst of a crazy storm and I think with all the lightening and thunder she for a moment even forgot I was supposed to be back in lock up. I took the initiative because she started over the last time we had to many days in between. I did not want to do that again for obvious reasons. However she simply said to let it go and I had a free night of sleep. I was exhausted from the day so while it has been some time it really was a pretty easy thing to ignore and just sleep.

Sunday came and it was Her birthday so we (the boys and I) presented her with the gifts we bought the days before, ate breakfast, and headed off for church. It was really an amazing day. My daughter from my previous marriage showed up and met us at church with a gift for my wife that was well thought out. We all had lunch afterwards and continued the day as normal as could be.

My oldest decided we should take mom out for dinner and so we did. Truth be told no one wanted to cook and he is a little eat out addict. LOL Afterwards we returned home did the normal routine and put the kids to bed. I laid in on our bed for a few moments as the little guys like to play games sometimes and staying up there keeps me from having to run up and down stairs threatening them with their sore buts LOL. In all seriousness they were wiped out from the weekend as well. Goddess came into the bedroom where I was resting and got on top of me and planted one of Her amazing kisses and thanked me for the day. She asked when I was going to give her last gift to her. I was kind of puzzled and I was thinking oh hell yes once the kids are in bed let's go. Before I could even finish my thought process she said "you know the one where you are locked back up" She had this little smirk on her face and I without missing a beat said "all you have to do is ask Goddess and I will honor that request" Ask hell she looked at me and said back in you go, no more free time.

I got to go for a motorcycle ride as the weather was awesome last night and when I got home took to the shower, shaved, and was re-secured.

For some odd reason I was not really troubled by it. so far this past week has been pretty simple. I think it is safe to say the mindset is setting in. It goes back to a previous comment I made where since I know there is still 14 days left my mind has not even wondered down so much as thought processes let alone looking at porn etc. I am sure this is the desired result for Her but for me it leaves me wondering if this is really enjoyable or is it killing my sex drive completely.

All I can say is that I doubt it is the later as last night it was erotic dream after another. this morning I could not keep my eyes off of Her as She got dressed and found my hands wondering a few times. To my surprise she just moaned softly when I let my hands "accidently" wonder across her shapely ass when we passed in the bathroom. I knew this was her way of saying she knew I was there and she knew what I was not getting.

As this is the time frame for me where all the fit issues start coming in we have stayed with the CB6K to see if it is indeed the weight of the other device, the tightness of the large ring on the birdlock, or if it is just the testoserone levels in me that cause this. If it is the later then we know it is something we have to work through. I am 100% confident we will never do the milking as She will have no part of that. Honestly I am kind of glad as if she knew she could do that and keep me denied longer I think she would be all over it.

Well I must go it is time for my Monday morning conference call.

 

That darn massager!

Well last night was pretty lame up until bed. I spent most of the night getting my new laptop all set up and ready to use at the studio while Goddess just played on her computer. At one point I was almost disgusted and ready to say something stupid. Here we had over three hours to ourselves and we resorted to that. ARRGGHGH.

At any rate I had finally had enough when I said goodnight and went to bed. She was still rather awake which is odd seeing as it was near 10:30 or so. My back had been bothering me from the shoot I had earlier in the day so she agreed to use the massager on my back. She then asked me to reciprocate which of course I did. Then almost without missing a beat she rolled over on her back and just said go ahead. I tried as hard as I could to just complete the task without thinking about it. It did not take long for her to reach her orgasm this way, which was probably good for me considering i was securely locked away in my device.

The scary part about this was the feelings that came with the whole scene. I knew without a doubt there was no getting out so at first it almost did not cause so much as a stir in me. This only last a little while until that familiar pain kicked in. Then when that hit the feeling of helplessness joined with it. I felt really submissive in a sense as she just said thanks and goodnight then rolled over to sleep. I know this is how it is supposed to be but it does something to the ego in a way. It is a whole new feeling to get used to I guess. It kind of initiates the fear of "is this all it will ever be" type thoughts. Sad thing is she is having no thoughts of stopping this. I think if money and lack of customer service were not an issue we would have a belt coming. She so loves the look of steel.

With that said I think I have found some of the root problems with fit and all. Of course as time goes on and I become more worked up the whole scrotum, balls, and all, swell ever so slightly. In the plastic device with various ring sizes there is room to grow or you can at least change to a bigger ring. In the Lori device you are where you are. I love the feel of the Lori so much better and definitely love the open part of the cage in order to clean etc, but the whole one size is all you get I think is the problem. If I go larger with the ring I fear I will be back to slipping out again, if I stay where I am at I get about a week worths of wear before the ring gets too tight. Not sure definitely some more play time needed and I see I will have plenty of that to do.

 

Hey Mike and Allornowt. Thanks for stopping in. Yes it is indeed true of be careful what you wish for. Yes I am experiencing the submissive side of this. Of course I take great pleasure in giving my wife pleasure but there is something missing in all this. Perhaps it is the connection I feel when we are intimate. Of course the flip side of this is that we share more sexually now then when I was free so in a sense there is more. Does that make sense? Who knows.

For the most part the device is fitting so well I don't know it is there. Since the sexual thoughts have been curbed to a great extent all is working out pretty well and the half way point of my 21 day period is tomorrow. Well see how the rest goes. So far no edging, teasing or any of that stuff so I will continue to lay low so to speak, service her as much as I can, and find ways to please her with little surprises as much as I can.

Not much else to say right now, I am off to look at some sales on Sub-Shop and Extreme Restraints...hey a guy can wish can't he!?

 

Mike thanks for that. Now after reading it I am straining in my device. LOL

I do however, in all seriousness, completely understand what you mean. When I don't get to pleasure her that in itself is like being denied. Th biggest difference is the chastity keeps me focused on her while in the past I would just go masturbate and think ok what's next. Now I find myself looking at her different. She has always been a drop dead gorgeous woman in my mind, but I find myself focusing on every curve of her body as if I have never seen it before. Kissing her has always been a wonderful thing. Heck our second date we sat and kissed, just kissed. for well over two hours straight. Hell I though it was the first time I was going to erupt with no physical touching below the waist. Now I find myself craving her kiss the same way. Even more as the post states I find myself craving her pleasure. In a very odd sort of way the other night with the massager was very erotic. While still somewhat new it was erotic. I got to watch her, study her, experience her getting pleasure from me and it WAS as if I was getting some pleasure from it. A different type of pleasure sure, but pleasure none the less.

Today is a little different as the device is really playing havoc for some reason. Perhaps it is the constant attempts at erections, who knows. Goddess surprised me last night and asked if I wanted to sleep out of the device. Of course I said yes and with that found myself discreetly but securely shackled to the bed. She only teased a few seconds and turned out the light. It was not a very comfortable sleep for some reason. Perhaps it was the outside noises, the restraints, who knows. I know around 2:30AM she got up to use the restroom and I was kind of glad as I felt the urge building myself. For some reason her toy (my penis) had a mind of its own and was erect most of the night. I think it was worse than being in the device as every time I would move I would brush up against her flesh and there the thoughts would stir. At any rate she unlocked me so I could go use the restroom myself. When I got back to to bed I was certain she would have already been dosing off and I could just get some sleep cuddled next to her. Much to my surprise she was still very much in Goddess mode and made sure to re-secure me before saying goodnight once again.

The next few hours seemed like days. Every time I finally started to dose off the restraints would cause me to have to move to get comfortable, which would then remind me of how this sexy woman was in such a powerful mode right now, which of course started the growth syndrome, and thus wide awake I was, again.

Last night and this morning was not without a little smack talk from Goddess however. She has it in her mind that she is going to find away to tie me up on the deck outside for the evening. I just keep telling her to stop as I am laughing and say the old lady next door with either have a heart attack, we'll be laughed off the face of the earth, or I will get bit to death with bug bites. Of course there is a large part of me that thinks she would never do that anyway it is way to out there, and truth be told would scare me to death. She is however working on a way already to find a way to use the tent in the back yard to secure me. If she figures this one out I might be in trouble. The tent takes away all the real world excuses of why we cant do this. Who knows...

Well it is time to get to work as I have a session or two today. I am very much relieved to have actually as the business definitely needs the cash flow and keeping busy will help me forget about my situation. I think the buildup is taking over as I have finally started to eat my own words of this being pretty easy thus far. Now the constant dull ache and the need to be out is starting to take over. The sad part, this is only the half way point.:smilies_xxx02:

 

It appears the the lifestyle is finally getting easier on me. Last night I slept rather well. Actually I slept better than I did with the shackles the other night. I am starting to see the shackles as more of a punishment than a helper now. Granted I get to be out of the device but it kills my shoulders. It also leaves me extremely turned on to be laying naked next to Goddess that way all exposed for her to torment. Even though she doesn't the thoughts are there in my head and that is bad enough. I woke this morning with the usual 4AM nocturnal erection. Luckily as things seem to have stretched a bit it is causing less pain now. Just a mild discomfort. After I went to the restroom for the pee break I laid back down in bed.

We had the windows open last night as the weather here is abnormally cool, about 69 degrees in July. As a matter of fact we set the all time record low yesterday, something like 62? anyway just as I had found relief in the bathroom break I returned to the bedroom to see the street light coming in through the blinds and it was shinning right across Goddesses ass which was now showing in all it's glory as her pajama shorts had gotten all twisted up. Here I though I was home free. Darn it! LOL

Somehow about 45 minutes later I finally got back to sleep. It was odd as I was lying there trying to fight back the thoughts and fighting this odd pulsating thing my penis was doing inside my device. Never had that happen but it was driving me crazy. I wanted to yell like it was a third person and say stop you are not getting out! then just thinking that made me chuckle and I think that finally cleared my head.

Well surprisingly I email fetish-felix yesterday about a CS-100/500 and got a reply within a few hours. I was amazed. A very detailed reply at that. I showed Goddess the belt and she took to it pretty quickly actually. Of course she put on the spirit dampeners when she asked what happens if you loose or gain weight. Hmm good question so we sent another email back to them. I am still waiting from more people on here and other sites about the comfort issue. While it does appear to be a ball trap style I was also told that the belt keeps everything from pulling on the scrotum like it does with these other styles. So I guess now all i need to do is find a way to justify the expense.

This Goddess came up with an idea that while I laughed at first I am not so sure she is kidding. She said well maybe I should start a key-holding business. She even went so far to ask what she would have to do, or basically what is it that the men/subs/boys/sissys expect. I was taken back by that as I never looked at from that perspective. Perhaps those of you who follow this could give me some ideas to pass along. If she does do this I could be in some serious trouble. The more she has to do the more experienced she will get and the more I will surely end up groveling.

Oh yes speaking of groveling, well I set up the tent last night to have some backyard fun with the boys. I thought with this crazy weather perhaps this weekend we could camp out there. Funny after the boys went to bed Goddess said something about the first night being me out there all tied up since she can't use the deck for obvious reasons. I just chuckled and thought, would she? Nah just can't see it. However I did not push her on it because I think it would be a very humbling experience should she get the guts to do it. She already has it planned out, how to use the air bed, how I will be. She even said no blankets because she doesn't want me getting free from my bonds and having a way to get into the house. At least if I get out the being nude part will keep me in the tent. Seriously no blanket!? It gets chilly at night. Hell she might as well tie me to the bed on the floor next to her, oh wait not a good idea. LOL Anyway I have much work to finish today so off for coffee to get started. Take care everyone.

By the way officially past the halfway point but starting to get a little sexually frustrated...

 

Oh now you went and done it mike! Thanks for the link however, might be interesting to look into.

something very odd today happened, well almost happened anyway. Those darn spasms I was having last night in the device came on again this morning. Happened during a slight arousal time. Then they just kept up and of course me trying to adjust to them while at the same time feeling very erotic about it all just made it worse. Next thing you know it was feeling very enjoyable almost to enjoyable. It was like an internal orgasm about to happen and I had to get up and walk around to clear my head, both of them. I wonder if any of you have ever had this happen and if so what the hell ws that all about. Granted I am a little worked up right now but good gracious, I sure as hell don't need some ruined orgasm controlled by a runaway mindset.

Any rate catch you all later.

 

Well then instead of laughing at you can we laugh together on this? While that would have certainly been embarrassing at least I am in my studio. Very odd thing however.

Oh well let's hope it is just a freak thing. To much of that and it will certainly be a long 10 days.

 

Good evening everyone. Today was a really great day in many regards. I took the day off of work to spend with the kids, Goddess, and her sister. We all went to the new zoo in our town and had some fun. Since the kids took a really late nap we shifted everything into the evening hours and we are just now getting them down to bed.

The other part that makes this a great day is we decided to try back on the Lori device for the day to see what if any issues we would have. Surprisingly none. During a few times of the day I literally felt free as if I were not in lockup. There is definitely some weight difference when compared to the 6K but not as much as I remembered in my mind. I do wish however we would have measure a little better because the cage portion is definitely to long. This cause a little extra weight I am sure as well as increasing the visibility to the device. While it is mostly undetectable under clothes it does have a little presence and I cant help but wonder if it could be a little better. I might call Lori and see if we end up keeping it if we could order just a cage portion to help offset some costs. I am pretty sure she said the cage itself could not be altered so we will have to deal with that. I do hope we can find a work around because when I showed it to Goddess she lit up like a Christmas tree. Regardless fo what we do I know now for sure it will have to be steel. She just loves the look, feel, and security of a steel device.

Well not much else to say. I took Goddess out for some ice cream just because tonight. I am hoping some brownie points will get me a little time with her away from these damn computers for a night. Even if just to watch TV together. Night all.

 

Oh it was a very yummy event for sure. Selfishly speaking as well. LOL. At any rate today is pretty sucky as the rain has set in and the kids are all bummed out. No parade and most likely no fireworks. To make matters worse Goddess has found a new husband in the form of her new laptop so I am at a loss for what to do to add excitement. Kids bored, She is bored, I am bored. Anyway back to the drawing board to find something to add excitement to the day/evening.

On a good note the Lori device has now been on a full two days and no problems. I am not sure what the initial problem was with the weight but perhaps the change in underwear has helped. Frustration level is a little ramped up but not as high as I thought it would be. Goddess has been pretty reserved in the area of teasing and the denial is really just being locked up so that intensity is starting to build but slowly. Now don't get me wrong I am not complaining as this device has no give and should she decide to tease and torment me I do hope it is free from this thing. I thought for a moment I was getting an early out last night when she mentioned she wanted to have sex with me. I got a glint of excitement until she went to bed and said she changed her mind. When I asked if I coudl at least be out of the device she said nope. Even this morning I said I would be with her all day so would it be ok to get some time out of the device. She again declined. there is something about the Lori device that she loves. I know I said it before but something about steel. I guess I will be taking it off of the sale market and seeing if we can get a couple modifications made. Well take care everyone and for those of you who are celebrating today, Happy Independence Day!:sign0011:

 

I can understand that tj246. It is funny as the frustration level continues to increase I can see myself eating my words with the "I will never wear" part. Right now if she said hosiery for the day under your pants I might just do it if it means a release.

Today or I should say last night she let me sleep out of the device of course still shackled. I think she loves this control she has now, so as tj said above I don't see her letting up anytime soon. I like it, love it, and hate it all at the same time. For me right now the part i hate is the lack of personal interaction we get to share from an intimate sense. There is virtually no physical contact other than a few passionate kisses and her playing with my but as she passes by. Anything like a making out or something similar seems like it is completely off the books. This part sucks because for me that is how I connect with her. I think she feels (my thoughts not hers here) that if she does any of that she will be viewed as weak or something. Even as far as this darn day countdown. The other night she made a reference of how she wanted to have sex yet we had not met the 21 days yet. This presented two problems the first is her not realizing she can still get her pleasure from me and while in the beginning I would not have understood this I get pleasure from that itself. So in a sense I feel deprived from all pleasure and that is driving me insane. This brings me back to wanting to throw out the day system because then I have to really try to get the release but when I earn it, it can be granted. On the other side if she hits a long spell where she just is not in the mood for anything intimate I may end up in trouble. Oh well there I go rambling again. I guess this happens at this stage.

All I know is I WANT OUT! LOL It felt last night like an odd sort of punishment. As i Have not been out of the device in about 5 or six days (I think heck cant even remember it is all a blur) the act of actually having an erection was almost painful. Even Goddess made mention of how rock hard I was. She just said something to the extent of oh my of off to slumber land she went.

Well time to get back to finding something to occupy my mind as I have discovered that if I get bored I end up thinking too much about my situation and get pissed, frustrated, turned on, and excited all at the same time. With those emotions running out of control I am bound to focus more on the negative part of my situation and I truly want Goddess to feel, well Like a Goddess!

 

Countdown Continues

Well needless to say by that topic alone you should be able to figure I am still very much secure in lockup. While the frustration level is getting higher the ability to deal with it and the fit is also climbing along with it. It is great to know that we are getting much closer to a full time fit issue being solved.

So far we have discovered that one, the CB6K allows for much flexibility and comfort, especially when working in the field. The light weight of the device helps when walking, running, and doing the other things I have to do at work. The Lori device is far more comfortable in terms of regular wear. The cage portion allows for greater breathability (not that there is such a thing) but keeping clean and aired out is soooo much easier. The base ring is far more comfortable. The problem with it is the weight. Just to see what would happen yesterday I removed the underwear I was wearing last night and just wore the device under neath some short. The underwear were pinching me so I figured what the heck I am at home. After only a few hours tops the weight of the device brought back those familiar pains on this time on the right side of my scrotum. Felt like someone kicked me in the balls as the pain began to creep up. I think this clearly means that if I am to wear that long term there has to be some type of support system devises. Whether that is a tethering strap of garment related remains to be seen but one way or another something has to change. Other wise that device is by far my Wife's favorite, and truth be told for general wear mine to. I don't even know it is there until, well, She does something to make me think bad thoughts, then it is a quick OUCH!

Well enough of the rambling. I found some extra time today so I need to go use it the best I can to play catch up in the studio. As far as the stories go on the home front, well there are not any. I think it is safe to say I will be in this thing till Saturday, which is my release date. Luckily for me Goddess has not resorted to any teases or Orajel treatments to intensify the time in. Although the week is still young I don't expect I will have much to worry about as she has a garage sale she is preparing for this weekend. She will be occupied with that most of the evenings.

 

I am certainly not one to turn my head to a nice surprise, and last night I got just that. I have been talking to Ms. Lori about our sizing issues and asking for advice. When Goddess recommended I contact Ms. Lori to see if we could just get the cage portion of the device so we did not have to spend extra money I figured I would ask what our options were. You can imagine my surprise when she said to return the device to her and she would make the needed changes. She continues to amaze me with her level of service, especially when she could have very easily said sorry not my problem. While this is exciting it obviously comes with some reservations as now, assuming this solves our problem with the device I could be in for a long haul.

Well not much else to add right now as I promise to get back on here later and give you the remainder of by daily update. However this morning is fairly busy and there is much I need to tend to.