Reading here it seems consensus is most of the people inflicting whatever form of pain like to see tears, hear stop, or squirming etc. In our case its the polar opposite. She wants to paddle, flog, what have you basically a statue. She wants no noise, no squirming just sit still and shut up. The spreader bar help keeps me in place, I do hop when she squeezes my balls despite my best efforts. The pillow and blanket over my head muffle noise though I still apparently make some. Not a bragodocious thing but I feel there has to be other women like mine just want you to be still and take it.