subbie in AZ for chastity

I found this site after reading about chastity in a story on chastity forum. I was Immediately turned on by the thought of such control. By reading about the denial, control and ruining of orgasms when being locked in a chastity device with the only concern being the pleasuring of a MISTRESS/MASTER. About being cuckolded and reserved to cleaning up after the pleasuring of the significant other by another BULL. I was hooked. I could not get enough. I am a VERY MASCULINE CONSTRUCTION worker but am a pussy lapping coward in the bedroom. I was cuckolded by an ex at the end of our relationship and didn't even know it till after she threw me out. I was turned on by the way she manipulated me, humiliated me, was seeing someone else when we were together but I was the one she would call late on a Saturday night to come over and eat her pussy. Not realizing it was freshly fucked by another guy just hours before. I had my suspicions but never new anything like that existed. I was now turned on by women who forced their men into chastity. I probably would have let her lock my cock and take another if she told me that's the way it was going to be. I probably would have done anything to keep her. I now have a chastity device I bought for myself, hoping one day to find a key holder. A mistress to reinforce in my mind that although I have a nice cock it is average and does not satisfy a woman the way it should and therefore should be locked away. I have lived my life pleasing others and this is what I am meant to be. Locked cock and an oral slave. I do have INCREDIBLE oral skills so I'm told, and a natural cock sucker now that I tried sucking cock not too long ago. I have almost no gaga reflex and can swallow an 11x5 cock with no problem. I flex my throat muscles as I was instructed to and have been rewarded with a throat full of cum several times. I was also dildo fucked by a female friend that had told me to look into this to see if this is what gives me pleasure. She had fucked me in my ass with a strap on and made me orgasm without touching my cock. I am too masculine to be feminized she said but was calling me a bitch and bringing her to multiple deep orgasms throughout the night. waking with the dildo still in my ass and her ready to feed me the cum that I let loose of after she fucked me for the 3rd time in 24hrs. I don't know what to think and am OPEN to anyone to bring me into the world I know I was destined to serve in.