Week 1 - A new experience
One week ago on March 2nd, I got my release as orginally planned, but it wasn't all sweetness like I had hoped it would be. Being locked up 24/7 for 6 weeks broke me and made me miserable. My coworkers noticed a slight change in me that wasn't very pleasant and they could tell something was different about me. They asked me what was going on and I just dismissed it as feeling literally under the weather and drinking too much coffee for it, since it had been very rainy at the time. I feel I dodged a bullet that time. Next time, I may not be so lucky.
I didn't think of it at the time, because I was attempting to live out a fantasy of having to endure months of persistent teasing without any reprieve and no hope of release. But I now know that being locked up overnight was depriving me of much needed sleep and that was the main contributor to me getting desperate to get out of the cage. My main purpose of going into chastity in the first place was just to stop myself from jerking off so damn much (many times every day, literally) and driving myself literally insane to the point of where I can't think of anything but how badly I want unlocked seems more self-destructive than productive to me. So, I'm gonna unlock myself every night just before I go to bed, since I don't jerk off at night. I'm only sexually active in the day time, so there's no risk there.
I went to work without my cage on for a few days and it felt... Risky! The first couple days I was only a tad concerned that I might get an erection upon seeing a hot lady in the store who's my type, resulting in an embarrassing bulge in my pants... But on my 4th day in this new session, the horniness returned and I got hit with an urge while eating lunch in the breakroom. Since I left my cage at home, there was a definite temptation for me to stop eating and rush to the restroom for a quick wank, but I fought it off and made it through the rest of the day. This prompted me to keep the cage on for the next couple work days.
On day 5, I barely slept the night before, because I was feeling mighty horny, so I put on my Keyholder's Prize cage with my elastic strap and it felt really amazing... The strap holds the cage in place, so I don't have to lift it up to sit down and it doesn't turtle on me, so there's no need to adjust the ring. With the strap keeping my ring closer to my body, there is no unused room in the cage and it stops 100% of any erection. I can't get hard at all, but there's no pain or pressure. Just extreme frustration & horniness, the way I like it. It was my day off, so I spent a portion of the morning watching porn to give this new combo a thorough tryout. It makes me wanna jerk off so badly and since I can't, my balls ache ever so blissfully. I'm so loving this right now.
The next 2 days, I went to work with the cage and strap combo on. My original plan was to unlock myself for work and not have to worry about the cage and I could (hopefully) focus on my job a little better... But on day 4, I had a sudden urge and I decided not to take any chances afterward, so I went to work in the cage on days 6 & 7. It's a good thing I did because on day 6 I had a series a minor urges and on day 7, I had a severe urge that would've tempted me to take a "bathroom break" if I hadn't left my keys at home. So from now on, I'm only unlocking myself when I need to sleep at night and I'm relocking myself first thing every morning.
With a bit of counseling from some friends here in CM, I realized that my problem sleeping at night after a few days post-orgasm was from "withdrawal". I spent more than 30 years of my life jerking off to porn and using that as stress relief for pretty much everything that bothered me, so my body is insisting on regular orgasms and and I'm not giving it what it wants, so it's protesting by making me too horny to sleep on certain nights. However, sleeping without my cage on this past week is making a difference. Night time erections are still very common but they don't wake me up when I'm not in my cage, so I can get my rest and start every day fresh... Save for ever-filling blue balls.
One week ago on March 2nd, I got my release as orginally planned, but it wasn't all sweetness like I had hoped it would be. Being locked up 24/7 for 6 weeks broke me and made me miserable. My coworkers noticed a slight change in me that wasn't very pleasant and they could tell something was different about me. They asked me what was going on and I just dismissed it as feeling literally under the weather and drinking too much coffee for it, since it had been very rainy at the time. I feel I dodged a bullet that time. Next time, I may not be so lucky.
I didn't think of it at the time, because I was attempting to live out a fantasy of having to endure months of persistent teasing without any reprieve and no hope of release. But I now know that being locked up overnight was depriving me of much needed sleep and that was the main contributor to me getting desperate to get out of the cage. My main purpose of going into chastity in the first place was just to stop myself from jerking off so damn much (many times every day, literally) and driving myself literally insane to the point of where I can't think of anything but how badly I want unlocked seems more self-destructive than productive to me. So, I'm gonna unlock myself every night just before I go to bed, since I don't jerk off at night. I'm only sexually active in the day time, so there's no risk there.
I went to work without my cage on for a few days and it felt... Risky! The first couple days I was only a tad concerned that I might get an erection upon seeing a hot lady in the store who's my type, resulting in an embarrassing bulge in my pants... But on my 4th day in this new session, the horniness returned and I got hit with an urge while eating lunch in the breakroom. Since I left my cage at home, there was a definite temptation for me to stop eating and rush to the restroom for a quick wank, but I fought it off and made it through the rest of the day. This prompted me to keep the cage on for the next couple work days.
On day 5, I barely slept the night before, because I was feeling mighty horny, so I put on my Keyholder's Prize cage with my elastic strap and it felt really amazing... The strap holds the cage in place, so I don't have to lift it up to sit down and it doesn't turtle on me, so there's no need to adjust the ring. With the strap keeping my ring closer to my body, there is no unused room in the cage and it stops 100% of any erection. I can't get hard at all, but there's no pain or pressure. Just extreme frustration & horniness, the way I like it. It was my day off, so I spent a portion of the morning watching porn to give this new combo a thorough tryout. It makes me wanna jerk off so badly and since I can't, my balls ache ever so blissfully. I'm so loving this right now.
The next 2 days, I went to work with the cage and strap combo on. My original plan was to unlock myself for work and not have to worry about the cage and I could (hopefully) focus on my job a little better... But on day 4, I had a sudden urge and I decided not to take any chances afterward, so I went to work in the cage on days 6 & 7. It's a good thing I did because on day 6 I had a series a minor urges and on day 7, I had a severe urge that would've tempted me to take a "bathroom break" if I hadn't left my keys at home. So from now on, I'm only unlocking myself when I need to sleep at night and I'm relocking myself first thing every morning.
With a bit of counseling from some friends here in CM, I realized that my problem sleeping at night after a few days post-orgasm was from "withdrawal". I spent more than 30 years of my life jerking off to porn and using that as stress relief for pretty much everything that bothered me, so my body is insisting on regular orgasms and and I'm not giving it what it wants, so it's protesting by making me too horny to sleep on certain nights. However, sleeping without my cage on this past week is making a difference. Night time erections are still very common but they don't wake me up when I'm not in my cage, so I can get my rest and start every day fresh... Save for ever-filling blue balls.