We can finally start at the 1st of the Month

[FullMoon]

I finally got my correctly sized Holy Trainer v3 in today (My other HT V3 is for sale in the for sale section). My gf asked what the package was that came today. I went ahead and told her. I also told her I had been putting together a revised chastity contract for us and asked if she wanted to go over it. So we did! She thinks it's good, and we're both in agreement. She said we will wait until the 1st of the month though to sign it. That gives me time to try the new fit and see if it will be good for long term. I've been wearing it for several hours now and it fits like a glove. I'm very pleased with the HT V3.
I've made a contract in the past and I've had a cage that ended up not being comfortable long term. So, it sorta fell off after that and she forgot about it. This contract i made a month contract to test and see how things go. I'm not sure how it will turn out and what effects it will have on our relationship. So I dont want to sign my life away just yet lol... but I DO want to add this layer of kinkiness and excitement. Hopefully that is what happens and she gets into it as well... I wouldn't want to do more than a month if she just forgot about it and didn't take it seriously. I borrowed nearly everything in my contract from this forum lol (there were awesome ideas!). I also added some things myself. In bed, my gf can say "switch" and we switch sub/dom roles until I cum. I consider both of us switch, so it will give her an option if she decides she wants to be submissive during sex. The decision is her's though. I'm really excited for the 1st of the month. It will be interesting next month to see how different things will be... kind of like a science experiment lol. It will be interesting to be wearing a cage for that long and experience the frustration and dizzying lust that comes from chastity. I hope the changes are positive ones and that we have a satisfying experience. I plan to keep a journal here about it once we start.

 

[FullMoon]

Welp, that was quick. I just handed over the keys. It's already been almost a week since I last came, and I wasn't horny until after I handed over the keys. It's kind of a rush... like freaky and really hot at the same time. This is the first time I don't have a key myself. So I can't unlock it. The power is gone. My cock can get hard and fill up the cage, but it can't have release... and there's nothing I can do about it... *shivers*

I told her that it had been 13 days since I last watched porn or whacked off, and I was feeling tempted... so I would just hand her the keys and we can officially start whenever. Honestly, I also was just really excited to get started. This has evolved into what it is now from some sexual issues we have been having. Her sex drive has been low for a long time now. I think it is the SSRI's she's taking. I have been frustrated and tired of rejection and wanting to be wanted, and she has been put off by pressure and has lost confidence. I love her, and I understood if she wasn't horny, I wasn't going to try any further... just like I wouldn't eat a pizza if I were full lol. I know and have experienced what SSRI's do to your sex drive... but it was still frustrating as fuck. I found myself watching a lot of porn, mainly VR porn, and buying sex toys to replace a healthy sex life. I would let go more and more of expectations, and sometimes we would plan on sexual activity only to find out she really isn't in the mood and the frustration would turn to resentment. I stumbled upon the NoFap community and read about it. I'm kind of a self help nerd, so I tried it for a little bit. I did experience a boost of self confidence... became a bit more social, and I agreed with the science behind the effects of porn on dopamine levels. In the meantime I bought more restraints and bondage toys that she really liked for me to use on her... and she liked to use on me. I went 17 days once until my gf and I had sex and then almost a month before I "relapsed" on porn, because while attempting for the 3rd time to milk myself I found out how to pleasure yourself through your prostate and it was too much for me without being locked up. This turned into looking for chastity devices. I forget exactly how I stumbled upon it. It was probably a related item to some of the sex toys I was looking at. By now, I have explored and opened up to a lot of new ideas fueled by sexual energy through abstinence. I have been more open sexually with my gf than any other person before... mainly because I am exploring new grounds and finding out kinks I wasn't aware that would turn me on, like chastity! I guess the poor sex life wasn't enough for me to want to break up with her. I love her, and we have had a decent relationship for almost a couple years now. We've overcome a lot and are business partners. But it has driven me to find other options that may work out for both of us. She has liked this idea of chastity, and admits that it turns her on. This will give her the space she needs and perhaps more confidence knowing that I won't ever try to initiate or make sexual advances under contract... which I don't do as often anymore anyway, but this way she knows she has the power. We are both very vanilla, and I can't see it ever getting super hardcore or permanent chastity... but I have said never many times in my life and have broken through most of them. Let's just say I hope it never gets that extreme, lol. I'm sure it won't. Regardless, I understand this is a path more than it is an option or a "thing". It's super interesting to me, and I'm really looking forward to seeing some positive changes through this. I look to people here for testimonies and tips and help as well. Hopefully my story can help out in a way too.

 

[bondinchas]

A great start. It will only get better, enjoy the journey.

 

[FullMoon]

Update:

I've been locked since a couple days ago. It's going to take some time for things to sink in. The first night was really hard, pun intended, because I was trying to milk myself after a week without cumming and it only seems to work when I'm turned on so I looked at porn. I guess that was my 4th attempt ever and it will probably take some time trying to get it right. We still officially begin at the 1st of the month, so I didn't bother asking. Anyway, that'll change soon. The mornings seem to be the hardest. Yesterday I felt some discomfort around my right testicle, but I adjusted it and it has cleared up. I was at an event and didn't have the time or space to adjust it in the middle of it. Sometimes when I pee and it isn't lined up correctly it will hurt from being stopped up to the point where I thought I had gotten a UTI because it burned afterwards, but that wasn't the case at all lol. Anyway, adjusting... My gf has hinted towards Monday being the day she lets me out, but she has been getting turned on by this as well and it could be tonight if I'm lucky. She sent me a video with women in lingerie rubbing themselves this morning and fucked with my head so much because I couldn't do anything about it and she knew it. I apply a water based lubricant in the device daily. I'm wondering if that is a bad thing or anyone else does this. I blow dry it after showering, and I sometimes wait out the day if I'm not busy until night to apply the lubricant.
I let her know what drives me crazy and how much I want her when I do. She loves it. It turns her on as well. She thought it was incredibly hot that I tried to feel around and get release when I couldn't think of anything else and had absolutely no power to do anything about it. The fact she thinks it's hot makes it twice as hot for me and just pours gasoline on the fire. Ugh... I had a choice before, now I don't. I had a key before, now I don't lol. I get turned on so easily it's ridiculous. It's only been a week too... I love it and hate it at the same time... but I love it more than I hate it

tl;dr: chastity stuff

 

[FullMoon]

Warning: pretty sure graphic sex descriptions are acceptable here, but just a heads up... that's what's in this post *thumbs up*

She unlocked me last night. She forgot the key downstairs lol. When she saw it she asked if it hurt. Usually no, lol. To be let out was amazing. I hadn't felt sensation on my cock for days and I was super sensitive in a good way. I couldn't imagine weeks months or years. She laid on the bed and told me to use the wand massager on her back and then tease her before putting it on her pussy. I obediently massaged her back with it. I reached lower and lower until I got to her ass, then I slowly massaged her thighs and teased her and then finally put the vibrator on her pussy. She became very wet and then rolled over on her back and ordered me to suck her nipples while doing it. She also made me tie her up with the bed restraints and put a blind fold on. My cock was solid and dripping precum on her thigh while I sucked her nipples and used the wand on her. I wanted her so bad it ached. After she came, she ordered me to fuck her. I undid the restraints to her legs and held her legs missionary style and fucked her. I usually last longer than I want to, but this time I was ready to cum very early. I put on a silicon girth enhancer that slides over my cock and grips my balls and continued to fuck her without the sensation. Omg, it was like having a chastity device on while fucking her. It was hot, but I felt left out until the sleeve began to slide back and forth, giving just the slightest stimulation. That was enough to make it hard to hold my orgasm. She ordered me to release her and fuck her doggy style. I fucked her until I couldn't hold it anymore and asked her if I could cum. She said "Yes, come". I came so hard in the sleeve it hurt, and I had to take it off while still cumming LOL! It was a ruined orgasm in a way. Not exactly how I fantasized about it In fact, I begged her to edge me, but she told me she was in control and I was going to do what she said. If we were under contract she said there would have been consequences. The sex was hot. She said she would reward me next time for doing all the work
I spoke with her and we had an honest conversation about it. We agreed we would have nights where we would just be intimate and leave the sub/dom dynamic out the picture. I confirmed that she was into the chastity idea and it was something we both wanted to do after having a little trial run. I think we're set. I'm thinking about getting everything out my system tonight before we start... since begging is forbidden